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和喜歡Kelvin的女生進行了一場不愉快的對話後，我便到了學校門口會合Kelvin：「行得。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYcBm7dax5
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「咁耐嘅？」他問。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMVlMeQZYq
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「嗯。」想要放鬆心情的我說：「不如今日去掃街，肚餓想食啲嘢。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQT9Re8HQEF
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「好阿。」Kelvin和我並肩而行。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVpy0z6i5l
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInpB181RoE
這不是我第一次和Kelvin單獨放學，可是我的心情竟然緊張起來。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOnZwKRCPc
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自從被同學懷疑我和Kelvin、古榮的關係後，我的心便不再單純。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhpcYS8cni
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我開始思考，難道我對他們抱有愛情的感覺而沒有察覺？到底怎樣才算是愛情的喜歡？144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUFzSKFa80
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2FjYUOe8x
我仔細打量Kelvin的側臉。他有一顆性感喉核、單眼皮、微卷頭髮、手臂有因為勤力做運動而得來的小肌肉、永遠不願穿得整齊的校服。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5aHHbI0PP
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我第一次有這種想法——每天見面的Kelvin外型其實不錯，能夠和他去掃街真幸運。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXH0QQP2P5
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人的想法很微妙，明明沒有事情發生過，我跟Kelvin本來就會相約一起放學和掃街，只因為幾句說話便能扭轉一個人的想法。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQxmiILHUJ
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想法塑造習慣，習慣就是生活。一個人的想法非常重要，光用腦袋便能改變自己對世界的觀感。難怪校長時常訓話，學生必需留意自己說話的用詞。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2hNKzzcvC
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爸爸吸毒後會有這種感覺嗎？生活過於苦悶無新意，對身邊本來平平無奇的東西，從無到有，誕生了快感。就像吃完精神鴉片，內心一陣飄飄然。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUisqZw9N8
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxttcwWqOfl
「喂。」Kelvin打斷我的發情，還伸手摸摸我的額頭：「你係咪唔舒服？塊面咁紅嘅？」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16NccrL4Rt
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「咳咳⋯」我因為吞了一半的口水，嚇得狂咳。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NQ9u4Setc
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IlFN9YTcU
Kelvin拍拍我的背：「洗唔洗早啲返屋企休息？」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77dmULbARw
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbmeXTTCyN
「唔洗。我吞口水唔小心瀆親姐。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcpfTkY3K0
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0yPOLg4vE
「咁蠢嘅人都有，你陣間食燒賣小心啲。」說話一啖砂糖一啖屎是Kelvin的特色。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHQXavpWm7
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qewc9sQ3Y
我站在Kelvin旁，一邊吃撈麵，一邊等待著我的芋圓鮮奶茶。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMLW7RNnlW
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腦中是各式各樣的幻想。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaX8nrhAj1
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfgLB4TiO1
如果我跟Kelvin談戀愛，會一直感受到這種飄飄然嗎？144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gHTB8a0ZG
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如果會，戀愛似乎不錯。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PSDP57Q2O
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc8luGl6rs
「琴日睇新聞好爆阿，韓流巨星宣佈退出樂壇。」Kelvin說。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2jbuinBnu
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeu0csgLe9
「係咩？我無留意。」我通常聽本地音樂，對外國音樂不熟悉。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMdviCv3OY
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「原來佢做龜公，開間酒吧做毒竇，仲有堆明星朋友喺Group share落藥迷姦嘅片段，好痴線。」Kelvin說。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jgeOiO3Bk
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73OcwuVT5X
「咁癲？佢好似都幾紅。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmUK8dIveo
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECGaMgq94n
「真係無樣睇。好彩你唔迷呢啲韓星。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4mEAoiBsh
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5waylBEqD
「點解咁講？」我問。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HOmyRmQ3G
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRRALPcgwD
「鐘意埋啲衣冠禽獸就傷心囉。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpuH63iLjs
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo5ZvW8AXY
「我問你一條問題阿。如果你識人吸毒，仲會唔會同佢做朋友？」Kelvin的話題讓想起我的爸爸。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1DTHsvFXC
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「唔會，我唔會接受。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUj9op8Szd
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「如果係你朋友嘅屋企人吸毒呢？」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWJ6JxNNc3
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0zorrrLJy
「咁就難講。」Kelvin說：「佢出入屋企品流複雜。我會盡最大努力幫佢，等佢唔好誤入歧途。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPMQirO1qJ
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0RGSxiVgD
我從來沒有嘗試幫助爸爸，鼓勵他離開黑社會：「屋企人吸毒，唔係朋友本人吸毒，唔代表會誤入歧途嘅。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyg4rhRvip8
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QDRqIRzTe
想來爸爸也是身不由己賺錢還債，以他的能力除了保安、洗碗也沒有工作適合他，沒有站在他的立場勸喻也是種偽善。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPVuONHhBj
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFY0FPUYdb
「係好容易呀！如果你老竇喺房食冰隊草，你喺廳都會聞到啦，毒品喺你眼前，又會心郁郁想試。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCuZ7qPJmd
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmiYznMq0Z
「你唔係好鐘意幫人㗎咩？」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUS9iXMkdx
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLsQ2hiPLL
「阿婆行動不便，點可以相提並論！吸毒對我嚟講無咩討論空間！你話我歧視都係咁講，同賭錢一樣，無人拎住支槍迫佢，累己累人。幫過對方拒絕就算，連朋友都唔會做。留返俾專業嘅機構幫手。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtBVyLNuYa
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23uSplgHYh
Kelvin的說話打破了我和他戀愛的幻想。跟正義的Kelvin坦白父親有吸毒習慣絕對是一件自掘墳墓的事。他會討厭我的家庭，管東管西，而需要倚賴父親生存的我在成年前也無法解決家庭背景的問題。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2TjMNPvI3
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他無意的批評讓我內心不舒服。我是受害者，也很討厭自己的家庭阿！可是家庭的影響一直都在，它就像一道封印在身上除不掉的詛咒。無論是自己、抑或他人，同樣避之則吉。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKBQIHSOlm
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58hXM85fJX
我寧願沒有開口詢問，沉醉在五分鐘前的粉紅色泡泡裡。我忘記了我和Kelvin是對難以找到共識卻常常一起的朋友。現在的我失去了幻想，變得更自卑了。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZzu2vYCk5
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHajRQtjM8
我和Kelvin的關係並不穩固，他會隨時離棄我。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHF0I6EmDy6
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VCpY8VWVm
婚姻的承諾都能推翻，更何況是乳臭未乾的戀愛。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvdWBgRG8C
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91lOkRdYmL
「點解人係群體動物？點解人要互相來往？」我喃喃自語：「係自私，係計算？兩個人，一定係有利益先會走埋一齊。世界上根本冇無私嘅愛。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpUHG49xIv
144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNi307J3tg8
「咁功利，一齊開心唔得咩？」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKolYEwxBC
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「開心都係一種利益。可能對方人緣好，帶自己去認識朋友；可能係對方博學多才，學業上幫到自己；可能係自己孤單，想有人陪伴自己。總之就係因為利益開始，互相需要，到咗某一日，唔再幫到大家，就自然分開。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ECmwXslVx
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我為未發生的事情擔憂。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3Saqo1QvS
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面對關係看得見的分岔，倒數著珍愛的關係終會消逝，無力感擴散。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AZByVKQ0b
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「你今日做咩事咁多愁善感？」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fI3Gdg4lq
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「無呀。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlfCoCi0eo
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「我知啦，思春期！中二病！」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4HkwdPOxj
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「唔知呀！你話係就係啦。」144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48k1s9AqP9
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人生就是各種徒勞無功的零碎。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVdCDpb9gH
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難過。144Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCpMb1fKI9
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