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和喜歡Kelvin的女生進行了一場不愉快的對話後，我便到了學校門口會合Kelvin：「行得。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJwdJFYl7a
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「咁耐嘅？」他問。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXIxzSsHgP
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「嗯。」想要放鬆心情的我說：「不如今日去掃街，肚餓想食啲嘢。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBmBD7rRcD
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「好阿。」Kelvin和我並肩而行。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXoDtdIFNL
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這不是我第一次和Kelvin單獨放學，可是我的心情竟然緊張起來。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFEex5VEnG
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自從被同學懷疑我和Kelvin、古榮的關係後，我的心便不再單純。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGu2v2nZ40U
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我開始思考，難道我對他們抱有愛情的感覺而沒有察覺？到底怎樣才算是愛情的喜歡？213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQ7iGoacG4
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我仔細打量Kelvin的側臉。他有一顆性感喉核、單眼皮、微卷頭髮、手臂有因為勤力做運動而得來的小肌肉、永遠不願穿得整齊的校服。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWIQD1Hygg
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我第一次有這種想法——每天見面的Kelvin外型其實不錯，能夠和他去掃街真幸運。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOlSSyOYr0
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人的想法很微妙，明明沒有事情發生過，我跟Kelvin本來就會相約一起放學和掃街，只因為幾句說話便能扭轉一個人的想法。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIqOZR9264
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想法塑造習慣，習慣就是生活。一個人的想法非常重要，光用腦袋便能改變自己對世界的觀感。難怪校長時常訓話，學生必需留意自己說話的用詞。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlN9qxnpmIr
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爸爸吸毒後會有這種感覺嗎？生活過於苦悶無新意，對身邊本來平平無奇的東西，從無到有，誕生了快感。就像吃完精神鴉片，內心一陣飄飄然。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQJlriWPhj
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「喂。」Kelvin打斷我的發情，還伸手摸摸我的額頭：「你係咪唔舒服？塊面咁紅嘅？」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDO12Whkl5V
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「咳咳⋯」我因為吞了一半的口水，嚇得狂咳。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKOK51GBPV
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Kelvin拍拍我的背：「洗唔洗早啲返屋企休息？」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dTCvTXBy6
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「唔洗。我吞口水唔小心瀆親姐。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDT9UnelxT
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「咁蠢嘅人都有，你陣間食燒賣小心啲。」說話一啖砂糖一啖屎是Kelvin的特色。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jY30Hnidd
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我站在Kelvin旁，一邊吃撈麵，一邊等待著我的芋圓鮮奶茶。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqiSSotYeu
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腦中是各式各樣的幻想。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVU1lJZpuno
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如果我跟Kelvin談戀愛，會一直感受到這種飄飄然嗎？213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS48b0JR6FD
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如果會，戀愛似乎不錯。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlQGw7ZH2D
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「琴日睇新聞好爆阿，韓流巨星宣佈退出樂壇。」Kelvin說。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdwaDwnb2A
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「係咩？我無留意。」我通常聽本地音樂，對外國音樂不熟悉。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14l0AUG1tO
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「原來佢做龜公，開間酒吧做毒竇，仲有堆明星朋友喺Group share落藥迷姦嘅片段，好痴線。」Kelvin說。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6bDwD0soi
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「咁癲？佢好似都幾紅。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjccMxlMHji
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「真係無樣睇。好彩你唔迷呢啲韓星。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zEdCiRGzE
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「點解咁講？」我問。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKqkmkp4Ve
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「鐘意埋啲衣冠禽獸就傷心囉。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8Zd9WIZAL
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「我問你一條問題阿。如果你識人吸毒，仲會唔會同佢做朋友？」Kelvin的話題讓想起我的爸爸。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6qoyS3QeS
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「唔會，我唔會接受。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxDky5VIqR
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「如果係你朋友嘅屋企人吸毒呢？」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHmCiRn9H2
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「咁就難講。」Kelvin說：「佢出入屋企品流複雜。我會盡最大努力幫佢，等佢唔好誤入歧途。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xDBLqEjOt
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我從來沒有嘗試幫助爸爸，鼓勵他離開黑社會：「屋企人吸毒，唔係朋友本人吸毒，唔代表會誤入歧途嘅。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SZZLuNzRi
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想來爸爸也是身不由己賺錢還債，以他的能力除了保安、洗碗也沒有工作適合他，沒有站在他的立場勸喻也是種偽善。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK019tjg51l
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「係好容易呀！如果你老竇喺房食冰隊草，你喺廳都會聞到啦，毒品喺你眼前，又會心郁郁想試。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoYeyRvrFM
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「你唔係好鐘意幫人㗎咩？」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbloI7uv1C
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「阿婆行動不便，點可以相提並論！吸毒對我嚟講無咩討論空間！你話我歧視都係咁講，同賭錢一樣，無人拎住支槍迫佢，累己累人。幫過對方拒絕就算，連朋友都唔會做。留返俾專業嘅機構幫手。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx45QYEIcCA
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Kelvin的說話打破了我和他戀愛的幻想。跟正義的Kelvin坦白父親有吸毒習慣絕對是一件自掘墳墓的事。他會討厭我的家庭，管東管西，而需要倚賴父親生存的我在成年前也無法解決家庭背景的問題。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BlGkPkYsX
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他無意的批評讓我內心不舒服。我是受害者，也很討厭自己的家庭阿！可是家庭的影響一直都在，它就像一道封印在身上除不掉的詛咒。無論是自己、抑或他人，同樣避之則吉。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeVN4qRYX7
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我寧願沒有開口詢問，沉醉在五分鐘前的粉紅色泡泡裡。我忘記了我和Kelvin是對難以找到共識卻常常一起的朋友。現在的我失去了幻想，變得更自卑了。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡao8gUJu9hh
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我和Kelvin的關係並不穩固，他會隨時離棄我。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmd4DQ9Pnar
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婚姻的承諾都能推翻，更何況是乳臭未乾的戀愛。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjwyRG4iCp
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「點解人係群體動物？點解人要互相來往？」我喃喃自語：「係自私，係計算？兩個人，一定係有利益先會走埋一齊。世界上根本冇無私嘅愛。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdmEG6yK5H
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「咁功利，一齊開心唔得咩？」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhQvmNJgfl
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「開心都係一種利益。可能對方人緣好，帶自己去認識朋友；可能係對方博學多才，學業上幫到自己；可能係自己孤單，想有人陪伴自己。總之就係因為利益開始，互相需要，到咗某一日，唔再幫到大家，就自然分開。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CjX3rWUcZ
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我為未發生的事情擔憂。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGIlA1jNaz
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面對關係看得見的分岔，倒數著珍愛的關係終會消逝，無力感擴散。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSF9nZbh9Ax
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「你今日做咩事咁多愁善感？」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYrMEdNOJV
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「無呀。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3p20lB3zn
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「我知啦，思春期！中二病！」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaXc0K5aq2
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「唔知呀！你話係就係啦。」213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiElHt8EX9
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人生就是各種徒勞無功的零碎。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecvOwRrkym
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難過。213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vLcHmYG2m
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