這世界上除了你和他,我真的找不到更好條件的人了,我離不開他了。90Please respect copyright.PENANAWmIU5bO0NL
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回想起楊語蕙說完那些話時,我傻愣在一旁眼睜睜看她流淚難過,最後她什麼也沒說就逕自離開會議室,離去前我和她對上眼,她的眼底透出無盡哀傷和落寞。90Please respect copyright.PENANAq2d31xjmvC
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「喂,你是失魂還失身啊?一副心不在焉的樣子,是想到那一晚發生的好事嗎?」阿群側身倚靠在牆邊說。90Please respect copyright.PENANAwuhPgXlSRh
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「靠,你還敢講,你給我那什麼鬼東西?」憶起那晚的蠢事,我轉身用力往他肚子揍了一拳。90Please respect copyright.PENANAlUbNdOxARE
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「你下手是不會輕一點喔?把我打到半殘小心你妹不幸福。」阿群一臉吃痛。90Please respect copyright.PENANANJrzYSBlkx
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「白痴。」90Please respect copyright.PENANAg319D7IqtN
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思緒拉回現實,我清除腦海裡楊語蕙哭成淚人兒的畫面,走回教室卻沒了上課心情,收拾好東西打算蹺課。90Please respect copyright.PENANAhKmTQ38P0z
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「喂喂,等我,要蹺課不會先講喔。」阿群手腳俐落直接拎了個空包跟上我的腳步。「幹嘛?心情不好喔,那天整你是我不對,我跟你道歉咩,下次再補你一盒三入裝的啦,絕不唬爛你!」90Please respect copyright.PENANALWG9gYo2SS
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「誰還管那東西,走啦,喝酒!」90Please respect copyright.PENANAeKheAbveDW
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「好啊,來我家喝,喝醉了直接待在我家吧,前提是你要睡地板!」阿群走得很快,已經超越我走在我右前方。90Please respect copyright.PENANAWxBR1jUh7o
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「幹。」這一次我真心覺得他很北爛,順勢往他屁股補一腳。90Please respect copyright.PENANAzv2EcFvuI6
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就這樣買好幾手啤酒還有幾樣宵夜去了他家,意外發現他床頭櫃上乾淨得很,床底下也沒藏什麼色情書刊,和我所想像的相差甚遠。90Please respect copyright.PENANA6A19akl8CK
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「幹嘛今天突然找我喝?」他撕開紙袋一包包炸的鹹酥雞、甜不辣還有滷味全攤在桌上。90Please respect copyright.PENANAi9HEwLr6Cd
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「就很久沒跟你喝啊,怎樣?一定要有什麼事才能喝酒?」我心虛說道。90Please respect copyright.PENANA8su1b0zHQw
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「我敢保證你絕對是有事,看你的臉就知道了。」他一副理所當然。90Please respect copyright.PENANAHlamSrhtVj
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「沒事啦。」我拿起啤酒爽快的打開拉環就是一陣豪飲。90Please respect copyright.PENANA8WjVSNz6wg
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阿群斜睨我一眼便識相不再過問,隨手抓了搖控器打開電視,轉到國外電影台,我們邊吃邊看。90Please respect copyright.PENANASb8shNide3
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大概播了近三分之二的打鬥場面終於進入最後尾聲時,我已經算不出自己喝了多少,突然情緒一湧上就把今天的事全盤托出,包括那些從沒說出口的心情,全藉著酒精效用一同揮發出來。90Please respect copyright.PENANAodAFb4pQQB
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「所以你現在動搖了?」他神情變得古怪,叉了最後一塊鹹酥雞吃下肚。90Please respect copyright.PENANALx08WAbfxS
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「我也不曉得。」只覺得腦子昏昏沉沉。90Please respect copyright.PENANA4tDmuhjMPi
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「不會吧……你一向很清楚自己在做什麼的人,我以為你站得夠穩不會淪陷。」90Please respect copyright.PENANAcyAjupCNYu
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「我也以為我能站在朋友立場給她建議,大概就像你說的同情心氾濫了,才會覺得有點苦悶……」直到現在胸口仍有種說不出來的沉悶以及難受。90Please respect copyright.PENANAHbT4Rfgbm7
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「她這樣哭你就覺得心疼,那吳婕羽怎麼辦?」90Please respect copyright.PENANAXQcgGXXkPS
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「婕羽不一樣……」忽然一陣昏眩感襲上中斷了我的話。90Please respect copyright.PENANAxCNW27wIci
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「那你到底想保護誰?」阿群雙眼凝視我半晌後說道。90Please respect copyright.PENANAUf4hF1NzfJ
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這有什麼好說的,現階段最需要保護的當然是楊語蕙,我無法看她繼續在痛苦裡反覆打轉。90Please respect copyright.PENANAJXTSQQsMEg
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「你想問的,是我到底喜歡誰吧?」思考起阿群話裡的那層涵義,我踩下煞車有所保留。90Please respect copyright.PENANAHfe9dIUpRz
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「沒錯。」他語氣極為肯定。90Please respect copyright.PENANAyhZVtBnT3n
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「我喜歡婕羽這點不容懷疑,因為她……是個很好的女生,乖巧又體貼。」90Please respect copyright.PENANAT7jSO8cbU8
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「在我看來你根本就深陷其中而不自知了。」90Please respect copyright.PENANAT46d6O4BZT
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「什麼意思?」阿群的話聽得我暈頭轉向,頓時失去思考能力。90Please respect copyright.PENANAFxpY5XA395
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他又喝乾了一瓶,把罐子捏扁朝垃圾袋裡一扔,然後對著我說:「我同意吳婕羽是個很好的女生,個性好人也變正了,是很多男人的理想對象;但你有沒有發現,你早就被學姊牽著走?她一跑來找你哭一哭,你的同情心、你的意志力就會動搖。」90Please respect copyright.PENANAddf3UQdfUZ
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「我頭暈,想睡……」桌上一片凌亂的宵夜殘骸,垃圾袋裡數不清全裝著我剛喝下肚的啤酒空罐。90Please respect copyright.PENANAXQ9mJfBVhL
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「不能喝就不要喝那麼多,喂喂喂,陳律廷那我的床你睡屁……」阿群話說一半,我往後一倒已經聽不清他後來說了什麼。
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夜半醒來隱約聽見手機鈴聲響起,但頭痛得劇裂,勉強伸出手往口袋一摸,瞇眼一看來電人是楊語蕙,手指在上頭亂畫一通,聽見有人說話,便將手機往耳邊一靠。90Please respect copyright.PENANAbTlNxOPlfd
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「律廷,睡了嗎?」楊語蕙的聲音很輕柔。90Please respect copyright.PENANAfsmtMsIgPU
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「嗯……我在阿群家喝了酒。」90Please respect copyright.PENANA6azRNFLg2m
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「今天的話不要放在心上好嗎?」她膽怯的說出。90Please respect copyright.PENANATg5vMkyheS
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「沒事,我沒想太多,我累了,妳早點休息。」結束了通話,我翻了個身想繼續睡,無奈電話又響了。90Please respect copyright.PENANAR5j1LBy2nm
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「律廷,你在哪?」我直覺的接起,卻忍不住皺眉,不是才跟她說過我在阿群家,怎麼又再問?而且奇怪的是,這次聲音很急。90Please respect copyright.PENANA4n2f7AX0NT
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「楊語蕙吧?妳別想太多,我真的沒把那些話放在心裡。這世界上除了我,還會有更好條件的人值得妳愛。」90Please respect copyright.PENANAld67xE8PVR
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等了半晌楊語蕙不再說話,我感覺有些不對勁,拿開話筒睜眼一看……那一刻,我徹底在一張陌生的床上驚醒過來,但電話的另一頭卻沒了聲音,只剩下斷了通話後的嘟嘟聲。
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這是我們第一次吵架,在那通電話之後,她整整賭氣了一天,對我已讀不回、拒接我電話,甚至我都站在她面前了,仍舊把我視為空氣,直接把眼神飄開。90Please respect copyright.PENANAN5R36eSEPh
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「婕羽,等我一下,妳到底怎麼了?」我想上前拉住她的手,但她的力氣不小,直接甩開了我,走得更快。90Please respect copyright.PENANAOOvVHcb3Q0
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就這樣一路追著直到她走累了,在人來來往的公車站牌停了下來,我才得以牽住她的手,不讓她有機會跑開。90Please respect copyright.PENANAQRoQwPGsSZ
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「對不起,我不該把妳認成楊語蕙。」90Please respect copyright.PENANA7oeihl6rOk
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「不是這個,我生氣的不是這個……」她低頭哽咽著。「你和學姊的事為什麼從來沒告訴過我?為什麼她喜歡你的事,我是最後一個知道的?雁君和阿群都知道學姊一直在注意你……」90Please respect copyright.PENANAeLJn1s0j33
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「她沒有喜歡我,是因為我和她前男友很像,她才會說出那樣的話,我們真的只是朋友。沒告訴妳是我的錯,不要生氣了好嗎?妳想知道什麼,我都告訴妳。」90Please respect copyright.PENANAJEK7IwZwLr
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她沉著一張臉,似乎在思索接下來該說些什麼。我看著她,悄悄靠近她一步。90Please respect copyright.PENANAvo3rEyMXd3
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「楊語蕙有感情上的問題,我經常聽她訴苦,我們之間真的很單純沒有其他的,而且我已經有妳了就不會再喜歡上其他人。以後發生什麼事我都會告訴妳好嗎?雁君沒說,是怕妳亂想。而且我和她待在同個社團,她對我的照顧就像對其他人一樣,沒有分別。所以別生氣了,笑一個好不好?」90Please respect copyright.PENANAhYRs21SVCj
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「那天,她借宿你家……」婕羽一臉擔憂的看著我。90Please respect copyright.PENANAiSXoqwTzJy
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「放心,什麼事也沒發生!」90Please respect copyright.PENANAr3EVpHfsvB
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「所以你真的對我沒有任何隱瞞了?」她再一次向我確認。90Please respect copyright.PENANAACKMmncBTu
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「沒有。」我搖頭。90Please respect copyright.PENANARh62dk4J5f
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「好,我相信你,但是以後,我希望我們能互相坦白好嗎?」90Please respect copyright.PENANArmFamf79xk
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「我答應妳,那……妳還要堅持的等公車嗎?我們去牽車好不好?」我笑著問她。「妳不是一直想去看場電影?要不要今天就去?」90Please respect copyright.PENANARUyLn6GQDW
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她終於破涕為笑,讓我帶她去看她想看的電影。90Please respect copyright.PENANAgIxMse1HD5
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看見她擔心吃醋的樣子,像是看到全世界最可愛的女孩,有著小小的任性和在乎。這一刻,我下定決心,要用盡自己的全力給她笑容,一直陪著她愛著她,絕不讓她再陷入不安和猜忌。90Please respect copyright.PENANAo70ARDKMl3