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I turn to look at min woo hyung who is still shaking from the previous scene we watched and let me tell you something, he is not going to save any girl he takes on a date he is saving his ass first if there is any kind of outbreak
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Only after saving himself will he remember he was previously on a date
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by that time the girl or guy is long gone
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I figured out everybody's sexuality except for him, they either straight up tell me like they've known me for a hundred years or they just introduce me to their patner
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"She should just get up" like lord, get the fuck up and stop screaming on the floor like a fucking bitch, this nonsense isn't even realistic, I don't understand why female characters fall every five minutes and just decide to never get up "I know you will do the same if it were you" min woo hyung looks offended
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"I would rather stay wherever I am, I don't need to know what is going on as soon as I hear people screaming or some kind of commotion, I'll look it up on my phone, that is what phones are made for, why will I go outside in this kind of situation" he really did a good job defending himself, that doesn't stop me from saving his name on my phone to scardy squirrel, he only knows how to stuff food in his mouth
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"What about food?" Honestly I shouldn't be asking this question "he has enough food to feed himself for twenty years" it's a stretch but I'll go with it, I take skincare seriously
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Min woo hyung takes hoarding food seriously
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"you're such a scardy cat" jaejoon hyung murmurs and I smile "scardy squirrel" I feel proud "you say that every time we watch anything horror, I don't know why you like people screaming and biting each other's head off" he can't be coming for horror fans like that "hey no judging" even if this is a fake frown it is going to be part of the compilations by next week, I saw someone comment that I am the queen of facial expressions "I thought I was gonna have one friend who doesn't like horror movies so much and now look at this" he considers me a friend, he considers me a friend, play it cool
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music every one
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"it is good if you actually sit through it and not close your eyes as soon as you see a scary scene" he rolled his eyes on me "leave him alone he is a chicken" I laughed loudy and he just scoffs
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I really like jaejoon hyung, I had my suspicions but I never thought he was going to be me in a male version
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"where is alex" he stand up to search for alex "why are we watching the credits lets change it" and that is how the search for the remote control started why does the remote control always do this shit
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we started dipping our hands in the little space between the couch and the backrest, at one point our hands touched and it was like touching fire we seperated immediately but no matter how fast we were i'm sure some eagle eyed fans would notice and that means endless torture with mr bang
especially since the editing team feels good when they put those parts up, they enjoy torturing me
He is always like, I don't care what you guys do just do it outside the dorm
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I hope they say nothing, at least it is with jaejoon not alex or hyunjoon, maybe they wouldn't say I'm trying to seduce him
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"I think we should go and join the others outside" he agrees instantly, I cleared my throat and quickly walked towards the door
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we decided on what to do today ourselves since nothing was really planned, they had a recording session but it was canceled due to roo won's sour throat, after sitting around for a while we all started brainstorming for things to do, only jaejoon hyung and I decided to watch horror movies while the rest of them just chicken out, they mostly went outside saying the weather looked good, bunch of wimps
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Min woo hyung stayed with us because he wanted to be near jaejoon hyung, their love hate relationship amazes me at times
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the camera is on at every hour of the day but the camera crew comes twice a week, to compile and edit, we have two staff that is staying with us permanently for the five months, one of them handles the camera while the other helps with things we need, we know what we are supposed to do and the microphone is always strapped to us
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Staffs do come and go everyday but the arrangement isn't as choking as the first arrangement that was made
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We still get to have free times away from the camera because we can just ask mr Kim to turn it off, he sometimes say he wouldn't but he ends up doing it when hyunjoon and I bribe him with food
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I tell you, the way to most peoples heart is just food, give them food
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we still had to be careful what we do though, its crazy how simple actions like smiling at a joke can be perceived as flirting
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I thought I was going to get something juicy why are they all wearing shirt to swim gosh such a debby downer that k pop artist have such strict way of doing things
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and I do not dare join them in the pool, I know what happened the last time water got on my body when we were watering the plant the cloth wasn't transparent but I heard from mr bang that I was said to be seducing their oppas once again, i wasn't surprised but this few weeks i've gotten to know that Mr bang has little to no filter
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For someone who 'does not care' he talks too much
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If only they know the shirt doesn't stay on once the camera are cut off
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"you're done with the movie" alex deep voice greets me and my heart beat skipped
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lately that has been happening I just jump physically and emotionally,
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It is totally different from being a fan "yeah" i say trying my best to hide the anxiousness in my voice, i try walking around the little statue but the grass around me is wet
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the next thing that happened is supposed to be very embarrasing if not for my savior, i was waiting to hit the floor or worse hit my head against the statue but i never landed, alex caught me
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Thank god for his quick reflex, i tried standing up, thanking him immediately i got my balance, i was still feeling deeply embarrased when i noticed blood on his arm
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Oh my god, i am the one who is supposed to get injured and he just takes my place like that, i think the pressure from the fall made him hit his hand while trying to catch me
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I quickly got closer to him pulling out the handkerchief i have with me
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"i'm so sorry" i apologize profusely while trying to clean his hand "I'm so sorry" i must have started crying in the midst of the panic
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Alex touched my shoulder, i raised my head as quickly as possible "you're crying?" hell, now i look like some pick me girl "no it is just water" i quickly said with the little brain cell i have left
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I laughed awkwardly still patting his hand with feather like touch before the reality of what just happened sink in, i am touching him
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I better pack my bag this night and leave, i just touched their oppa not by accident but intentionally, and i still have my hand on their oppa right now
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I quickly jumped back a little creating space between us
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The boys are already gathered around us
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Moon already went to get the first aid box and he started attending to alex while rina was wrapping a cloth around me, when did she get here "are you okay" i nod looking over to alex "I'm so sorry, are you okay" he smiled a little "stop apologizing" i am still uncomfortable
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I feel like shit, it was just a freak accident but it feels like it is more than that
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Everything is back to normal and sae won hyung being his normal self, he is busy yelling at tae mu who just sits there quietly playing his game, he isn't as panicked as saewon hyung
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The two of them are different breeds
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"Noona?" i turn to moon "go to bed, you're struggling to stay awake" it is like a ticket to freedom because ever since this afternoon i feel like an outcast
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I hate the fact that I overthink everything, the fact that isolating my self comes easy, i try my best to socialize then one little thing happens and I can't get my self right
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I know they all said it wasn't something much but what were they thinking, they are probably saying it in some sign language that i did it on purpose
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I said my goodnight to them and quickly went into the room, by tommorow it should feel a little better
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Yeah you guessed it, I haven't been able to fall asleep big surprise anyone, i have been tossing and turning and i can see everything that happened in the afternoon playing out, everyside i turn to
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The image of horror is usually there, you know why i hate my self even more, i had to cry like that I hope they edit that part out
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Who am I kidding, they won't
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Midnight passed and i still couldn't sleep so i put on my laptop and went on weverse, i started looking at different post and recorded lives of the elite
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I was told not to post anything from my fan account so it was not easy to comment anything
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I just looked briefly through everything
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After scrolling around for several minutes i got bored and decided to pretend to sleep, maybe i would fall asleep if my pretense looks real
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I was already falling asleep when i heard a soft knock on the door, this midnight?
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I opened the door a little to see who it is and it is alex "hey" i whisper while opening the door widely, inviting him to come in, is he here for our midnight snack party, he didn't come with any snack and moon is not behind him either
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"Hi" he whispers back, he entered the room and closed the door behind him, he came closer to me and honestly i feel very comfortable "I'm so sorry about what happened in the afternoon.." do you want to guess what stopped my blossoming rant
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No?
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Okay let me tell you
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His lips
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On mine!
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On mine?
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I am frozen, i should do something, either push him away or kiss him back but i cant seem to do anything
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And when i was finally able to do something guess what i did
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I kissed him back!
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I wrapped my hand around his neck and pulled him impossibly closer to me
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His lips feels like heaven, how soft and luscious it is
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Yes I am guilty of imagining kissing either him or hyunjoon but this, this is heaven in disguise
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One of his hand around my waist, the other on my cheek caressing my cheek softly
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Our lips mold together so perfectly, I hope I don't embarrass my self cause this is going way further than I had thought
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My body reacting in ways I never thought it could, have been turned on before but not this turned on, he bit my lips gently and I gasp only to be greeted by his tongue, is this how it feels
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I'm not really as good as he is, I can't really use my tongue this well I'm just following his lead, tilting my head when I feel it is absolutely necessary
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The hand on my waist moved to my cheek, he tilt my head for better access
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After our little makeout session, alex got awkward and so did i, i was expecting everything even a slap when i know he cant do that, but i wasnt expecting him to kiss me, he put his lips on mine
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"I just wanted to tell you to stop apologizing to me" you did more than that though, didn't you? "okay" i reply smiling a little and making the okay sign with my hand
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"Goodnight" he said while backing toward the door, smiling when he missed the door knob, he finally held it and he opened it
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He was almost out the before he turned back and hugged me
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You know how people just click and they don't need to explain things to each other, i think i have gotten to that level with alex
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So how do people act around each other when they shared a kiss the previous night, I try to peep at what roo won hyung is writing but I got caught by min woo who is the biggest snitch known to all human
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"난 당신을 말할 것이다 {I will tell you}" i whispered to him, he gave a thumbs up before trying to peep at saewons paper who is probably a ninja in his former life, he is quick to know if someone his checking his paper and he checks others paper before they get a chance to blink
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"I think it is a bat" I don't know what the answer is but i'm copying whatever roo won hyung writes he is the smart one "i think it is bat too" i showed my board to Alex and Hyunjoon who were the coordinator of the game "it's a chameleon" roo won hyung is a fucking betrayer "i knew you were copying me" i hate him "she wasn't" min woo backs me up with the biggest smile on his face
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"giraffe" i shake my head at him "we dont even need to copy you" he is always off course "right?" We both eye him "why would you change the answer at the last minute" the way he can't even give half a fuck if we were copying him before, I've always noticed, it is always me and min woo trying to peep his answer "you didn't care if we were copying you before" I want to give him the middle finger so bad
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"Which wild animal kills the most human in a year" wild animal wouldn't kill people if people stayed in their fucking lane, you call them wild animals and you approach them "snake" sae won said, I don't think its a shake, snakes don't attack people unless you cross the boundaries and I know two people who has pet snakes
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I don't go to their house anymore but the snake hasn't really done anything to them so "I think it's hippopotamus" roo won the only one that thinks among us "I would say hippo too but then you would say I am copying you, nevertheless hippo" min woo hyung is something isn't he?
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"I think it is an elephant" they have more contacts with human so I think that should be my answer, I would say alligator but I wouldn't be dumb enough to invade their personal space so I don't expect people to do so too
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"It is hippo" well God should have blessed me with a brain that retain documents and memories like his "as from now on, roo won's answer would be my answer, even if it is obvious that he is wrong" you can't blame me for being a parasite
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"It isn't even fair that he keeps getting them" I murmur "the deepest part of the ocean" I think I know that but I can't even name it right now "the Mariana trench" I yell, I'm gonna be winning this one "she's right" for the first time in forever "she only gets the simplest questions right" I should shoot sae won hyung one day "I think we should play paintball next weekend" Hyun Joon looks over to me and gives a thumbs up I think they are all definitely tired of him
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"The fastest animal on land" that is very simple too "cheetah" roowon, sae won and I yelled at the same time "I think I said it first" I point at hyunjoon "hyung, write it under my name" he nods and proceed to write it under my name, you should always have your person among the spectators
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"We shouldn't be here right now" I try to nudge his hand away "in my room, I think we should be right here right now" a little further from the door is a little table on the floor set with food "oh my god, you are right, I should be right here right now" I skip toward the table, I dust off the floor with my left hand, a habit that I can't seem to break, I always dust off anywhere I have to sit even if it is squeaky clean
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"Is this japong" he nods, I rubbed my hands together "wish you would like me as much as you like eating" I reached for the chop sticks "you think I like eating? Are you calling me fat" it would be very nice to pick a fight right now, I'm the size of this chop stick why would I think someone is calling me fat "no, and you will be so cute if you are a little chubby" it is always the tiny ones wanting something big
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Several minutes past and I haven't started eating the food I'm just staring at it licking my lips and the chopstick
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I bit down on his chopstick as he fed me "eat" he isn't considering the fact that we all had dinner just one hour ago "eat" you don't need to say it to me again
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