You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjvttufGc4
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLH6KsUnZwm
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5G1Ob9HFWo
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvA86nowiCg
"I just want to go home," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBoJBxlw9x
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvi28YL4f0
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47ySWTyfEK
Father sighs.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXryPm3AuxM
I say "I don't want to stay here!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYS7G0hsSoZ
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4f0wkpy1f
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7deLwc78q
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewSB0ljko4
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg59hzUls5d
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMQmduKI1I
"Pet, come down from the tree."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynLjteVkKd
I stay silent.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZXx89da7y
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcygFZ6kO1
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOutCI1B2F
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPcdvWu6Zt
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aY6nqzzPa
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlQuOVu98P
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZaGJND9Dz
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODLmGU2oly
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3iTPO6viT
I say, "Please don't hurt me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bO2yVuxO3
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7bTJtiJ9n
I say, "Please don't!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPrisC6Lr0
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8t7n4giRU
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXd0fht4Fz
"You'll find out soon enough, child."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnPirtrhd5
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7ZZWwRIE6
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBAJYintH6
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Vsx4ooko0
"Are you ready, child?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftUk6V4w5b
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8n5jR145pJ
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXF1Xtze2K3
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I say, "Okay.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLxPyKLi4R
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PyoCgzEw7
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCfFIEbal4
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBUC5l7wx9
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfKoR9M5ty
Father says "Good. Stay there."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVccymRrvQh
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdie9KKR8Xp
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJHyT246LR
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJlUELAka9
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpQYT0bGIQ
"Please!" I whisper.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQh76TDtw3z
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAWflIrhU9
I scream loudly.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXLCuOULO8
My scream echoes throughout the room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RFQVMtzKx
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtodJa3PAOq
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfXkgF9ClB
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUP8DldisTr
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0nBSZw9NH
I say "P-please s-stop.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ03qftq0Jc
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SlQb6UGEq
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7WTeOF8uc
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcEXRG7vhe
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2js1W1wd0z
"Look at her," another says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKlIAF1FSw
I say "Please leave me alone."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8mieHF9Rc
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCI6QBa5Rr9
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiUli42zRx
"We'll see. Let's see."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6Eo9ieO0l
I say "No no no.." They laugh.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZoFHE7mPl
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5Gj7esv3b
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1Dhnwb43E
They untie me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bxl4FjyMt
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpC3ckM89J
"Ah... you're up," Father says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjEnAjniCz
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqsG2IjSGs
"Where were you?" he asks,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYVhMt5Wdi
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8e9cyXLCHe
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaGltAY0mZ
Father smiles.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJPuI4qM9i
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjipC6cxPnV
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKMXNPuHJJ
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyuyJa9AyE
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zlzFmqtq6
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6tKJQBcaV
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQxzaV6z9i
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lnkXScrpl
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGhVLcLYu3
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvULQLUyUh
I say, "Please let me go!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhteQqujHKP
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiJ5Zwabzr
"You will," Father says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehXGarG3io
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4goO7aOih
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmHogIl32k
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60AzfwsJ2z
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMj5tKbjuN
"Stop crying," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhu6gcXMzR
"I can't!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvZt4T4YXI
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupEsKEHBlr
"Stop it!" I cry.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNI5bYhaxsJ
"I said stop it!" he yells,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwxMYSwPNf
"I can't," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRRe9ZOjPG
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYWrMr4m3j
"NO!" Father screams.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Zr9LcIgSw
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRzmKzb8de
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRimnze8wo3
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8W0tv9zr2
"I would. I really would."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZT3vGfxuND
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5ePfzlNRe
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gLPUNoWe7
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfnbrOEATx
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKDaELO1wi
I say, "No I'm not!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i5qnx1Hbo
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOFj0y7i39
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycELq7Wy38
I say "No I won't!!!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00In2A28Sr
"You will!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCptBsAmJe
"I said NO!!!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMFrSHFXaI
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8at7ugPpYX
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1eA1h8x3y
"I know you will," Father says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiy4onDwJcx
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGCFBjBFPM
He says "One."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIP0ec5T3b9
I say, "I'll do anything.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadkOqfx2ge
"Two."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0Us7kfEl2
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61RRrWN5yG
"Three."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArSnwumUrD
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RBidLMNTi
"No, don't do it," Father says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCyQVkQUho
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPSGn2miLl
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfMvMahwza
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2j6gCcetyw
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5cNubueJs
I say "Yes."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyh9GxGb5D
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf41hconA9P
"Yes," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Hxez013Ik
"Good girl," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxUPprUArX
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJbMCrWkxi
"I won't," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxViJrKqdQ
I stay tied up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpyzfHK2yF
"Now," he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNnpd12Whn
"Kneel."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZji4DyGI3R
"Please," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe29y352S9s
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPI0eEUPWAT
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQ5TvEOunP
I just know it.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5ijCA6UYK
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRG2gQjMz8j
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ahDE0qfzX
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWi8VgrW6KQ
I'm all alone in the room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9SQQNR5cL
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I hear the door open. I look up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNj7QTNfTTt
"Hello," a man says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLCeun9QmU
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYR9PNgTguJ
"Hands behind your back," he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbsAoYFrWO
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rqeVjdj3e
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaONdiII4zO
"Stay there," he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRlLQufMbK
I stay on my knees.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6JKGdTx8J
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP54f6DP8ce
I say "No no no."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6w3prurr0
"Do it," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VYADe13MY
I say no. He pushes harder.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rRiLzjHTD
"Do it!" he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2IF3kC6Lc
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10v1gsIj5z
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLykS1ToqKq
"Stay there," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86G8ckeLar
I stay on my knees.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7qxU5t3k7
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfUNnYl3ke
"Stop moving."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZDhxz95a4
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7NFRK8FzX
He pulls it out of my throat.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrGK2CbQDz
"What's wrong?" he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRYoEH5NYi
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkjPyrWQ0f
"What?" he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmWRLIMXoF
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4EPExcdJE
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PJXyIE16x
"Is this too big for you?" he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQDnWtKd6A
I nod.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08s5j7JBLl
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOaw2PHQ37
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqO4PClFBr
He shoves it back in.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KFUKIRksO
I decide that vomiting once is enough.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEptb1Mt3SZ
He shoves it in deeper.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLkUQHdwAZ
I struggle and fight.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYC7FSm4BC
"Stop fighting me," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVog1nmW6e
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLRXk3X05i
"Get dressed," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzY8JqGz3X
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoV3sxMWVmn
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC87u9Vg0rl
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxTVRwlafL
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa64whp4Hq8
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiDrnpV6Hd
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGzxrA9a5m
I say, "Where's dad?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhtAys75j3
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIQV0EBj0Z
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFc8k3uqqz
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYBlFPhub9
My father says, "Where have you been?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡks5Fe4qZFG
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CRkUHbfFr
"Did they hurt you?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny7fgxblRv
"Yeah," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIDfeGcjaR
"I'm sorry."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpyIrNfbmm
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnXc2PY2oU
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKyPG12fWN
"Is Allie in here?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFWJHbpOkC
My dad says, "Yes, why?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHxRWrvLP3
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAuz8ZiwiP
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl62b9DjOki
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5m9n6MxsL
"No." I respond,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabquEETTOI
"Can we come in?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rAp7lgPTs
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LdQWcbf0z
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0HVQzgeDI
I say, "I don't know."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADYDl1gL8E
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGzFmeZ2Vi
"No." I say,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYL3NK4n1a9
"Are you sure?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlti1A1h2W0
"Yes."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfyoA3ikGV
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYCT9YVHdm
"Did he give you any food or water?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcYNkngKwm
"No." I respond.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEgGWWFIgL
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82zzDopBtp
"No."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99r8mowStA
"What did he do to you?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5A5yZX33Fa
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIHPaMJc8J
"Did you fight him?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡda7P1R4an1
"I tried."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnomDKj7wm
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPW9wd5FAme
"I think I blacked out."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfZKxgb1FX
"I see."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzoJBHMZHQ
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LcTyEFEkH
"And how long were you with him?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRAEC97ZpW
"I think about ten hours."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7ABwRPmiD
"And you only just managed to escape?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnS3g6bkDu
"Yeah."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnS9uLFZktu
"Do you know where you were?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhWV12GINo
I say "No."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QHqYrxaPM
"What is the last thing you remember?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0l8GbftMyH
"I remember walking down the road."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3FBpoXdAN
"And then?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm45pkl5d4x
"I don't remember."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5o3t3Mmf1w
"Do you know how you got away?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMSppRyknx
I say, "I just ran,"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajHV0UpEy4
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpRbBGJ0eY
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEGTyAbJDj
I say, "So that's how it all happened."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIxuWBhwr9
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMay0vFAkO
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWp5JBQKbM
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXZRWrxpYX
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXU4YqzK7B
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIGRcuFSV5
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GVsSiPFOs
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qyvE7615q
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxhmKBQlED
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoBFyBBhjJ
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ09kf8qGAR
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JRYzBWUIv
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiHg7n1BZy
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecy1Y2dUqd
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8Xzw3RuCq
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzXqqyGros
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu0bJLyR4m
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdS0DFQDKPI
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8OY49jSDH
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7J2SB2A4P
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMovnJ8Ivow
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEhfoWNPze
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MMGalpCAa
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPBXsC453m
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEQyeqlK0a
"Get up." he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNvCFRp4g7
"Why am I here?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VTM1qdRu5
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwq5HmeRkXu
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3owbTrZW7y
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFkMhvM8Ck
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiba9taDCeE
I sit down.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70BDoKdd8h
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReyWRiENXF
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKoyS0qZ8H
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXY72sqqwq
I say, "No."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuos640hFQ4
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnkySIQeI8
I respond, "Yes."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡty7Nlx4lZh
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RwfaWbiir
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEIzuYdbbq
"Yes."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIflB2soxNF
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUaTF7M0tg
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQTgBHbtT5
I say, "Hi."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLIdbodE4O
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXb7HPy7mxX
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfaTTJQDPq
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4vyqjElFU
"Right away," says the woman.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb24vAym0Hj
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCu5mktZ53y
I say, "Okay."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHEI3ZWglV
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0VSQKcdRr
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQNUXE80Vr
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPFkqZv1As
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGQeV8EvC7
"He kidnapped me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBbbANoABE
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXbDTgNINK
I say, "He tried to stab me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxJoqvO9tM
"Who was he?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBruBByoC53
"I don't know."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbLMWINDGg
"Where did you get the knife?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXfuAyQDuS
"He had it in his pocket."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmi5ahcM7C6
"Did he threaten you in any way?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBtD9dt8nQ
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcJw5FY9ET
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6l74hfiay
"No."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlaVP959x1
"You sure? Think hard."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVq7xLVv5L2
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQpUCGKEaF
I say, "He killed my father."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsftwoEYGIM
"What?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbedM1e7YFT
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynbKRuAW3O
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbhSddsjdm
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHS46nDlNq
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwuENt7JMv
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i1giCWkV5
I say, "Okay.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KKz9mjnJG
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIOGi4GuLN
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52tZTiIybB
I follow him.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpmlz2C16V
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliqK09ZFGA
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vE31yu59u
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMkswmyVuy
"Alright. Take a seat."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1T8veZr39
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHEs0fkEH3
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaQc1NgURQ
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCtvsYRseF
"Yes.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3I9D7dAZaA
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLQU8fXKHk
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKiIYD69h9
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPCI3rpqzl
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8MTsD3FuJ
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnaQlygMVS
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGqurt1czf
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKO9J6Ntd8
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZ9GMCFcdz
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtKqmXM6Y4
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTelJ6DhtHR
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVILS4fMVLo
"What is it?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccfUjK3VEC
Doctor Kessel says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3L7lgANjPk
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4cUc1fLDa
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwwZktTx4u
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuvcrjgbsC
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBDI1zQmPV
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡut0Klgx8ao
The nurse shakes her head, and says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtWbFHZ3tX
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YqI04wFsV
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXaOTbW8xY
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4tXvkYQHi
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQ55au6GKZ
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuudxVBPp0k
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1o2WD60Q2
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3ATL9Qlco
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypbvLYNG9E
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5ABKDbapG
I say "Where am I?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrTFZW2tgw
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uo60g55Mf
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOc9Zks8IT
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJTPomlcN9
I say, "I want to see my mom..."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01ToDagPJf
The nurse interrupts me and says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNS8Pgp4sQu
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorDRFpS5TD
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFHNgakR4q
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxGe5j2lxD
"M-mom.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsJ8DLd0xa
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPnnikTqGC
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmwi9WWI8b
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5c4YL27vOS
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48JYOFqvCK
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3usmhCcm7c
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL39RyNVGlk
"Yes.." I say quietly.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cLMMazPHY
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUWsJek8Ap
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6JyWHmSQs
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiEb2a6f8N
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UtbjTKBgJ
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztKTG5gAHn
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVzlIFP398
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIsonUhcKH
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HsQoQKRrC
I say, "Okay.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDi0wyjtNEl
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKkz5JbNsy
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzunH8snWFv
I wipe the tears off my face.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNY8ybWWFD
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPNK6kwwTT
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjZxsGXoXn
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMR7OJ8np0
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyL8SUbxcsx
I say, "Tell me!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRB1evc9QBt
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHS7UcgL1Cl
My heart drops.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkk1KCGUrz
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVGTqN1mAn
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In the morning, I get my visitors.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3CHUycgvu
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMqsBiz1GP
I say, "Wait!" She stops.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMhA5k4God
"What is it?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9cpT22xTX
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQizUXhsNMt
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPleEmqqq0
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLKbzhxo8X
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsDXW7D9zJ
I cry myself to sleep.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcysaKoMnD
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRk8yjGs0X
"How are you doing, honey?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4AEcEXNsn
I say, "Horrible.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwh6gz1pIx
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSt4UWagf1f
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NYOFWXW1X
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnOW9Za0zb
"It's not your fault, honey."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PNwiggJBE
I start crying again.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizeQ1f4hHZ
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG55Y9GV4L9
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6P1blTv1r
Maybe I'm dead after all.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlS5x0jYc5
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZFtPljlmT
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvKhdFXuyK
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYZKb7eYzz
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3mmwKE7pu
I say, "I still want to win this."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMiQrE0How
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATdBSG2rqZ
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDe4akWJgTU
"Really?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMGDQHcVAq
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvVPTTBlIu
I start crying, and I can't stop.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5T5eieanX
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcmopW7aiF
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zA8YlVaCQ
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EiyuX4cFF
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwXVdHhYNK
"I wanted to see the flowers."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡES7dP0tJ4s
"Why are you out of your room?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJf788o2gR
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUm0iTzlbw1
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7cmOkZ8Nw
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zp7OBQbXg
"Thank you for being you."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6L7vDLWFt
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUetQGrNKe
I make a decision.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtmPZrUnLQ
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCLs6LPiIr
"What's your name?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qiOX6PcI7
"Allisa," I say, smiling.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ617mEdD49V
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sMWUCADrs
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMzJ08eoOz
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4G2s4tgrC
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYunnVYxyL0
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLH6KsUnZwm
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5G1Ob9HFWo
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvA86nowiCg
"I just want to go home," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBoJBxlw9x
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvi28YL4f0
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47ySWTyfEK
Father sighs.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXryPm3AuxM
I say "I don't want to stay here!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYS7G0hsSoZ
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4f0wkpy1f
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7deLwc78q
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewSB0ljko4
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg59hzUls5d
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMQmduKI1I
"Pet, come down from the tree."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynLjteVkKd
I stay silent.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZXx89da7y
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcygFZ6kO1
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOutCI1B2F
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPcdvWu6Zt
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aY6nqzzPa
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlQuOVu98P
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZaGJND9Dz
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODLmGU2oly
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3iTPO6viT
I say, "Please don't hurt me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bO2yVuxO3
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7bTJtiJ9n
I say, "Please don't!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPrisC6Lr0
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8t7n4giRU
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXd0fht4Fz
"You'll find out soon enough, child."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnPirtrhd5
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7ZZWwRIE6
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBAJYintH6
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"Are you ready, child?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftUk6V4w5b
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8n5jR145pJ
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXF1Xtze2K3
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I say, "Okay.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLxPyKLi4R
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PyoCgzEw7
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCfFIEbal4
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBUC5l7wx9
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfKoR9M5ty
Father says "Good. Stay there."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVccymRrvQh
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdie9KKR8Xp
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJHyT246LR
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJlUELAka9
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpQYT0bGIQ
"Please!" I whisper.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQh76TDtw3z
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAWflIrhU9
I scream loudly.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXLCuOULO8
My scream echoes throughout the room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RFQVMtzKx
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtodJa3PAOq
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfXkgF9ClB
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUP8DldisTr
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0nBSZw9NH
I say "P-please s-stop.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ03qftq0Jc
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SlQb6UGEq
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7WTeOF8uc
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcEXRG7vhe
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2js1W1wd0z
"Look at her," another says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKlIAF1FSw
I say "Please leave me alone."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8mieHF9Rc
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCI6QBa5Rr9
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiUli42zRx
"We'll see. Let's see."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6Eo9ieO0l
I say "No no no.." They laugh.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZoFHE7mPl
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5Gj7esv3b
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1Dhnwb43E
They untie me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bxl4FjyMt
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpC3ckM89J
"Ah... you're up," Father says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjEnAjniCz
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186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdk5648Rlc1"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqsG2IjSGs
"Where were you?" he asks,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYVhMt5Wdi
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8e9cyXLCHe
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaGltAY0mZ
Father smiles.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJPuI4qM9i
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjipC6cxPnV
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKMXNPuHJJ
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyuyJa9AyE
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zlzFmqtq6
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6tKJQBcaV
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQxzaV6z9i
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lnkXScrpl
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGhVLcLYu3
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvULQLUyUh
I say, "Please let me go!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhteQqujHKP
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiJ5Zwabzr
"You will," Father says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehXGarG3io
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4goO7aOih
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmHogIl32k
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60AzfwsJ2z
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMj5tKbjuN
"Stop crying," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhu6gcXMzR
"I can't!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvZt4T4YXI
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupEsKEHBlr
"Stop it!" I cry.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNI5bYhaxsJ
"I said stop it!" he yells,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwxMYSwPNf
"I can't," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRRe9ZOjPG
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYWrMr4m3j
"NO!" Father screams.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Zr9LcIgSw
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRzmKzb8de
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRimnze8wo3
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8W0tv9zr2
"I would. I really would."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZT3vGfxuND
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5ePfzlNRe
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gLPUNoWe7
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfnbrOEATx
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKDaELO1wi
I say, "No I'm not!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i5qnx1Hbo
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOFj0y7i39
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycELq7Wy38
I say "No I won't!!!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00In2A28Sr
"You will!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCptBsAmJe
"I said NO!!!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMFrSHFXaI
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8at7ugPpYX
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1eA1h8x3y
"I know you will," Father says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiy4onDwJcx
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGCFBjBFPM
He says "One."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIP0ec5T3b9
I say, "I'll do anything.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadkOqfx2ge
"Two."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0Us7kfEl2
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61RRrWN5yG
"Three."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArSnwumUrD
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RBidLMNTi
"No, don't do it," Father says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCyQVkQUho
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPSGn2miLl
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfMvMahwza
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2j6gCcetyw
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5cNubueJs
I say "Yes."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyh9GxGb5D
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf41hconA9P
"Yes," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Hxez013Ik
"Good girl," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxUPprUArX
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJbMCrWkxi
"I won't," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxViJrKqdQ
I stay tied up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpyzfHK2yF
"Now," he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNnpd12Whn
"Kneel."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZji4DyGI3R
"Please," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe29y352S9s
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPI0eEUPWAT
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQ5TvEOunP
I just know it.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5ijCA6UYK
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRG2gQjMz8j
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ahDE0qfzX
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWi8VgrW6KQ
I'm all alone in the room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9SQQNR5cL
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186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguHZtR9j9oI hear the door open. I look up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNj7QTNfTTt
"Hello," a man says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLCeun9QmU
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYR9PNgTguJ
"Hands behind your back," he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbsAoYFrWO
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rqeVjdj3e
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaONdiII4zO
"Stay there," he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRlLQufMbK
I stay on my knees.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6JKGdTx8J
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP54f6DP8ce
I say "No no no."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6w3prurr0
"Do it," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VYADe13MY
I say no. He pushes harder.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rRiLzjHTD
"Do it!" he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2IF3kC6Lc
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10v1gsIj5z
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLykS1ToqKq
"Stay there," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86G8ckeLar
I stay on my knees.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7qxU5t3k7
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfUNnYl3ke
"Stop moving."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZDhxz95a4
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7NFRK8FzX
He pulls it out of my throat.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrGK2CbQDz
"What's wrong?" he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRYoEH5NYi
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkjPyrWQ0f
"What?" he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmWRLIMXoF
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4EPExcdJE
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PJXyIE16x
"Is this too big for you?" he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQDnWtKd6A
I nod.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08s5j7JBLl
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOaw2PHQ37
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqO4PClFBr
He shoves it back in.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KFUKIRksO
I decide that vomiting once is enough.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEptb1Mt3SZ
He shoves it in deeper.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLkUQHdwAZ
I struggle and fight.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYC7FSm4BC
"Stop fighting me," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVog1nmW6e
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLRXk3X05i
"Get dressed," he says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzY8JqGz3X
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoV3sxMWVmn
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC87u9Vg0rl
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186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUGoA20ihd186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgnCAnQYfl
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxTVRwlafL
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa64whp4Hq8
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiDrnpV6Hd
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGzxrA9a5m
I say, "Where's dad?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhtAys75j3
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIQV0EBj0Z
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFc8k3uqqz
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYBlFPhub9
My father says, "Where have you been?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡks5Fe4qZFG
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CRkUHbfFr
"Did they hurt you?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny7fgxblRv
"Yeah," I say.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIDfeGcjaR
"I'm sorry."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpyIrNfbmm
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnXc2PY2oU
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKyPG12fWN
"Is Allie in here?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFWJHbpOkC
My dad says, "Yes, why?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHxRWrvLP3
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAuz8ZiwiP
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl62b9DjOki
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5m9n6MxsL
"No." I respond,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabquEETTOI
"Can we come in?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rAp7lgPTs
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LdQWcbf0z
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0HVQzgeDI
I say, "I don't know."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADYDl1gL8E
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGzFmeZ2Vi
"No." I say,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYL3NK4n1a9
"Are you sure?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlti1A1h2W0
"Yes."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfyoA3ikGV
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYCT9YVHdm
"Did he give you any food or water?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcYNkngKwm
"No." I respond.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEgGWWFIgL
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82zzDopBtp
"No."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99r8mowStA
"What did he do to you?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5A5yZX33Fa
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIHPaMJc8J
"Did you fight him?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡda7P1R4an1
"I tried."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnomDKj7wm
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPW9wd5FAme
"I think I blacked out."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfZKxgb1FX
"I see."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzoJBHMZHQ
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LcTyEFEkH
"And how long were you with him?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRAEC97ZpW
"I think about ten hours."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7ABwRPmiD
"And you only just managed to escape?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnS3g6bkDu
"Yeah."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnS9uLFZktu
"Do you know where you were?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhWV12GINo
I say "No."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QHqYrxaPM
"What is the last thing you remember?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0l8GbftMyH
"I remember walking down the road."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3FBpoXdAN
"And then?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm45pkl5d4x
"I don't remember."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5o3t3Mmf1w
"Do you know how you got away?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMSppRyknx
I say, "I just ran,"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajHV0UpEy4
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpRbBGJ0eY
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEGTyAbJDj
I say, "So that's how it all happened."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIxuWBhwr9
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMay0vFAkO
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWp5JBQKbM
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXZRWrxpYX
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXU4YqzK7B
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIGRcuFSV5
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GVsSiPFOs
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qyvE7615q
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxhmKBQlED
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoBFyBBhjJ
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ09kf8qGAR
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JRYzBWUIv
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiHg7n1BZy
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecy1Y2dUqd
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8Xzw3RuCq
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzXqqyGros
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu0bJLyR4m
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186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhhOuvr48MAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdS0DFQDKPI
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8OY49jSDH
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7J2SB2A4P
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMovnJ8Ivow
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEhfoWNPze
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MMGalpCAa
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPBXsC453m
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEQyeqlK0a
"Get up." he says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNvCFRp4g7
"Why am I here?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VTM1qdRu5
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwq5HmeRkXu
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3owbTrZW7y
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFkMhvM8Ck
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiba9taDCeE
I sit down.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70BDoKdd8h
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReyWRiENXF
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKoyS0qZ8H
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXY72sqqwq
I say, "No."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuos640hFQ4
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnkySIQeI8
I respond, "Yes."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡty7Nlx4lZh
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RwfaWbiir
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEIzuYdbbq
"Yes."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIflB2soxNF
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUaTF7M0tg
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQTgBHbtT5
I say, "Hi."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLIdbodE4O
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXb7HPy7mxX
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfaTTJQDPq
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4vyqjElFU
"Right away," says the woman.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb24vAym0Hj
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCu5mktZ53y
I say, "Okay."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHEI3ZWglV
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0VSQKcdRr
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQNUXE80Vr
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPFkqZv1As
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGQeV8EvC7
"He kidnapped me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBbbANoABE
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXbDTgNINK
I say, "He tried to stab me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxJoqvO9tM
"Who was he?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBruBByoC53
"I don't know."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbLMWINDGg
"Where did you get the knife?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXfuAyQDuS
"He had it in his pocket."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmi5ahcM7C6
"Did he threaten you in any way?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBtD9dt8nQ
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcJw5FY9ET
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6l74hfiay
"No."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlaVP959x1
"You sure? Think hard."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVq7xLVv5L2
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQpUCGKEaF
I say, "He killed my father."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsftwoEYGIM
"What?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbedM1e7YFT
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynbKRuAW3O
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbhSddsjdm
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHS46nDlNq
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwuENt7JMv
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i1giCWkV5
I say, "Okay.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KKz9mjnJG
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIOGi4GuLN
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52tZTiIybB
I follow him.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpmlz2C16V
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliqK09ZFGA
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vE31yu59u
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMkswmyVuy
"Alright. Take a seat."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1T8veZr39
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHEs0fkEH3
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaQc1NgURQ
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCtvsYRseF
"Yes.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3I9D7dAZaA
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLQU8fXKHk
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKiIYD69h9
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPCI3rpqzl
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8MTsD3FuJ
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnaQlygMVS
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGqurt1czf
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKO9J6Ntd8
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZ9GMCFcdz
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtKqmXM6Y4
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTelJ6DhtHR
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVILS4fMVLo
"What is it?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccfUjK3VEC
Doctor Kessel says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3L7lgANjPk
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4cUc1fLDa
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwwZktTx4u
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuvcrjgbsC
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBDI1zQmPV
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡut0Klgx8ao
The nurse shakes her head, and says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtWbFHZ3tX
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YqI04wFsV
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXaOTbW8xY
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4tXvkYQHi
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQ55au6GKZ
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuudxVBPp0k
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1o2WD60Q2
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3ATL9Qlco
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypbvLYNG9E
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5ABKDbapG
I say "Where am I?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrTFZW2tgw
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uo60g55Mf
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOc9Zks8IT
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJTPomlcN9
I say, "I want to see my mom..."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01ToDagPJf
The nurse interrupts me and says,186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNS8Pgp4sQu
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorDRFpS5TD
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFHNgakR4q
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186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPV659hnGNaA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxGe5j2lxD
"M-mom.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsJ8DLd0xa
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPnnikTqGC
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmwi9WWI8b
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5c4YL27vOS
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48JYOFqvCK
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3usmhCcm7c
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL39RyNVGlk
"Yes.." I say quietly.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cLMMazPHY
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUWsJek8Ap
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6JyWHmSQs
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiEb2a6f8N
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UtbjTKBgJ
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztKTG5gAHn
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVzlIFP398
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIsonUhcKH
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HsQoQKRrC
I say, "Okay.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDi0wyjtNEl
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKkz5JbNsy
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzunH8snWFv
I wipe the tears off my face.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNY8ybWWFD
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPNK6kwwTT
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjZxsGXoXn
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMR7OJ8np0
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyL8SUbxcsx
I say, "Tell me!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRB1evc9QBt
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHS7UcgL1Cl
My heart drops.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkk1KCGUrz
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVGTqN1mAn
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186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzslsPyMbkSIn the morning, I get my visitors.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3CHUycgvu
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMqsBiz1GP
I say, "Wait!" She stops.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMhA5k4God
"What is it?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9cpT22xTX
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQizUXhsNMt
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPleEmqqq0
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLKbzhxo8X
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsDXW7D9zJ
I cry myself to sleep.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcysaKoMnD
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRk8yjGs0X
"How are you doing, honey?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4AEcEXNsn
I say, "Horrible.."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwh6gz1pIx
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSt4UWagf1f
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NYOFWXW1X
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnOW9Za0zb
"It's not your fault, honey."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PNwiggJBE
I start crying again.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizeQ1f4hHZ
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG55Y9GV4L9
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6P1blTv1r
Maybe I'm dead after all.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlS5x0jYc5
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZFtPljlmT
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvKhdFXuyK
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYZKb7eYzz
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3mmwKE7pu
I say, "I still want to win this."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMiQrE0How
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATdBSG2rqZ
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDe4akWJgTU
"Really?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMGDQHcVAq
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvVPTTBlIu
I start crying, and I can't stop.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5T5eieanX
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcmopW7aiF
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zA8YlVaCQ
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EiyuX4cFF
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwXVdHhYNK
"I wanted to see the flowers."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡES7dP0tJ4s
"Why are you out of your room?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJf788o2gR
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUm0iTzlbw1
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7cmOkZ8Nw
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zp7OBQbXg
"Thank you for being you."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6L7vDLWFt
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUetQGrNKe
I make a decision.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtmPZrUnLQ
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCLs6LPiIr
"What's your name?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qiOX6PcI7
"Allisa," I say, smiling.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ617mEdD49V
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sMWUCADrs
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMzJ08eoOz
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4G2s4tgrC
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.186Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYunnVYxyL0
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