第十一章 承諾篇 第十四回 諮詢69Please respect copyright.PENANARtFJB56xKF
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鍾媽媽看著情緒日記69Please respect copyright.PENANAJCFs1isi87
發現李湘渝這幾個月來69Please respect copyright.PENANAj2my9SjHtO
都過度積極的控制情緒69Please respect copyright.PENANA90DNuzG0W3
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雖然發作的頻率有點減少69Please respect copyright.PENANASGYu29a1cT
但始終幻覺痛的情況令人擔憂69Please respect copyright.PENANAXSzPKRB2cl
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「傷口的幻覺痛頻率如何?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAkZmHXgArZJ
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「每天都有…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAETlmTaH5Ty
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「比起剛出院69Please respect copyright.PENANAhvVhRKHi3o
或上個月69Please respect copyright.PENANAu81wCOXAup
有好轉嗎?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAErHuZMYdNy
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「好像…差不多…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAX8YxbaCkwm
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「十級的話69Please respect copyright.PENANALtHZUPIiPJ
有多少級痛?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAcg9qxihGwx
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「大概…有試過持續七至八級左右69Please respect copyright.PENANArMBZEKy6pB
試過幾次真的很痛…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAmiyURPbbKm
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鍾媽媽看了看李湘渝勉強的笑容69Please respect copyright.PENANAr0CoWcKWzq
掩飾不了他憔悴及不安的眼神69Please respect copyright.PENANAjZGwPkkTtq
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「已持續兩個月了69Please respect copyright.PENANAe9YJf0JP56
是吧?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAdRUlscU7ys
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「嗯…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAwPapvWied6
李湘渝點點頭69Please respect copyright.PENANAcwX2zBIgcW
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小時候的事69Please respect copyright.PENANAA0k9IzYOU5
實在記得太清楚69Please respect copyright.PENANAkefbib8Zgs
印象太深刻69Please respect copyright.PENANA46MnSVE9pA
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而且幻覺痛發作的時候69Please respect copyright.PENANAOKMzcxLM2L
彷彿提醒著自己69Please respect copyright.PENANA7C411Amc0O
不斷的重溫事發經過69Please respect copyright.PENANApMUQgElpsE
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加上被陳俊言和洪文健的欺凌和恐嚇69Please respect copyright.PENANAlJsOkpS6H3
精神一直都維持在繃緊的狀態69Please respect copyright.PENANA6bAUBaDWvp
沒有一刻可以放鬆下來69Please respect copyright.PENANAH9VmQS6vfV
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鍾媽媽再次仔細翻看著69Please respect copyright.PENANAcyG4asYaN9
自從幻聽出現後的日記69Please respect copyright.PENANAVQtO4Ro7z1
看得出李湘渝心裡69Please respect copyright.PENANAZhQf2kUTOm
是極度的恐慌69Please respect copyright.PENANA4xz833FtCB
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從字裡行間裡69Please respect copyright.PENANAxWmFsOSlnz
李湘渝透露出的是69Please respect copyright.PENANAaBHYNnHiPx
逃避現實69Please respect copyright.PENANABbFc6nV2Yo
置之不理69Please respect copyright.PENANADFj7AQIcv6
過份抑壓情緒69Please respect copyright.PENANAE6hzaGKBKd
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「湘渝69Please respect copyright.PENANARdkEAdQ4i2
欺騙誰也可以69Please respect copyright.PENANAEOPvFYeFen
但就是不能欺騙自己69Please respect copyright.PENANA0wlayTuYyM
要對自己誠實」69Please respect copyright.PENANABJhtfN3TlW
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「嗯…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAC3b7osXl2O
李湘渝低著頭69Please respect copyright.PENANANQ1UHjxaPY
點了一下頭69Please respect copyright.PENANALRK0qCq4YO
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「有點勉強自己了嗎?69Please respect copyright.PENANAkZJk1pKvC2
在逃避嗎?」69Please respect copyright.PENANArVZhrxfXyj
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李湘渝沉默著69Please respect copyright.PENANAMzpWZ9SkNY
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鍾媽媽也安靜的觀察他的微表情69Please respect copyright.PENANAo7To9rxuGT
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李湘渝思考了一會69Please respect copyright.PENANA5t6ntW9XyH
點了點頭69Please respect copyright.PENANAIYzjfaxG5D
「嗯…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAyo1RpODYyp
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「有什麼原因69Please respect copyright.PENANADNVpj11Rq9
令你想逃避?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAY7GsyR3pQY
鍾媽媽溫柔的說69Please respect copyright.PENANANGN5kuaYHg
「或者69Please respect copyright.PENANAEDljlW79ar
最近有沒有事情想跟我分享?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAOToZ71RSlW
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李湘渝低著頭69Please respect copyright.PENANAmAwUQnLa6z
手按在昨天傷口的位置上69Please respect copyright.PENANAu5APbw3ha5
「我…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAjCD2zcdMBc
突然低壓情緒湧了上來69Please respect copyright.PENANASu4S6bGjnr
「很…69Please respect copyright.PENANApj5t0chuOQ
累了…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAGGoSosN1B3
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「所以昨天69Please respect copyright.PENANAIt8lJQezKf
控制不住要傷害自己嗎?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAAKzcnOMVHE
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李湘渝點了點頭69Please respect copyright.PENANAjNIKb7sMm1
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「昨天有過輕生的念頭嗎?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAnQfO35PkkK
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李湘渝的眼流湧出來了69Please respect copyright.PENANALeJ0JjLcMa
抹著眼淚69Please respect copyright.PENANAXxn2x5u7DF
搖著頭否認69Please respect copyright.PENANAtlZqIlxHr9
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鍾媽媽昨天看到他的情況和反應69Please respect copyright.PENANAPUCMgBZhEJ
已經知道他經歷過想結束自己生命的掙扎69Please respect copyright.PENANAI2Ego6cvwK
只不過在鍾天程面前69Please respect copyright.PENANAB4l7WrukaJ
不適宜直接問他69Please respect copyright.PENANAtye2VGAY5M
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「在這裡說的話69Please respect copyright.PENANAuXZdQmv3lm
我是不會跟天程說的」69Please respect copyright.PENANACw0eBWGOIs
鍾媽媽知道礙於身份問題69Please respect copyright.PENANAVBE8hbc1Ge
李湘渝開始對她有所保留和隱瞞69Please respect copyright.PENANAu4sXNuWmTY
「你可以放心的告訴我69Please respect copyright.PENANABgITXZRB3z
我有責任保障你的私隱69Please respect copyright.PENANAkdxOE0LOJ0
就算他是我的兒子69Please respect copyright.PENANANtOaWGU1fa
我也不可以告訴他69Please respect copyright.PENANAZgR0p7cYrz
這是我的專業操守」69Please respect copyright.PENANAiwDqTu1d1S
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李湘渝繼續低著頭69Please respect copyright.PENANAw11Q1SDOvL
「對不起…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAPTBs674N83
為自己的撒謊而道歉69Please respect copyright.PENANAzuGRoMjivl
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「乖孩子69Please respect copyright.PENANAlyhutt3Nme
不要怕去面對69Please respect copyright.PENANAIfQsYRdrQK
要坦誠接受自己的情緒69Please respect copyright.PENANABiP9MMjBHg
知道嗎?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAJj92lPCDUd
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李湘渝沉默了一會69Please respect copyright.PENANA2xJdkOqPFH
緩緩的說著69Please respect copyright.PENANA4nSQKetST9
「我…很怕…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAR3L9FqDySB
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「你在怕什麼?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAFtx0ByyTUR
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李湘渝的思緒有點混亂69Please respect copyright.PENANARkSTZ7TVNH
「不…不知道…69Please respect copyright.PENANAdSLD8t3HM4
就是…很怕…」69Please respect copyright.PENANA5JaH6G28UW
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鍾媽媽安靜的讓他說69Please respect copyright.PENANAbb7gGVGlek
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「真的…很討厭自己…69Please respect copyright.PENANA9qhF7ENakI
很麻煩…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAev6almSTXh
李湘渝忍哭著說69Please respect copyright.PENANAJOkanMfgUu
眼睛和鼻子也迅速的紅起來69Please respect copyright.PENANAW15TOf7zU0
「我真的…69Please respect copyright.PENANAJcRiXgHVNP
一點用處也沒有…69Please respect copyright.PENANAz9KImyJUxB
我是…一個負累…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAvZj4ykcpEU
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鍾媽媽聽著也心痛起來69Please respect copyright.PENANAiBEjR7VKbV
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「我知…我不可以這樣想…69Please respect copyright.PENANAfbs8ArBT5C
我也想…拋棄這個想法…69Please respect copyright.PENANAtzxST7VWmb
可是…我…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAr5ixGNHdki
李湘渝看著鍾媽媽69Please respect copyright.PENANAntgm1tS70L
「我…做不到…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAI1RIubIySU
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鍾媽媽點頭示意明白69Please respect copyright.PENANAKdlHMM6An7
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「我…真的…69Please respect copyright.PENANAyWEAjuOuBi
很累…了啊…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAZHrPvNp9Y7
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「可以告訴我嗎?69Please respect copyright.PENANAQRCaYHceQp
昨天的經過是怎樣的?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAcMlzmSPgkC
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李湘渝愣了一下69Please respect copyright.PENANAFO3szrmYvP
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鍾媽媽慢慢的引導他69Please respect copyright.PENANAiv1ANgBcoA
「是幻覺痛了嗎?」69Please respect copyright.PENANATJ3v0VuBtJ
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「昨天…傷口很痛…69Please respect copyright.PENANAzQV4Zsh6La
痛了很久…69Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5f88nyR4N
整個下午都在痛…69Please respect copyright.PENANAs1qkDsJh7b
痛得…69Please respect copyright.PENANArq3ggDHtZ1
那鐵枝好像仍然插在背部那樣…」69Please respect copyright.PENANA1qIga0Rvvy
李湘渝慢慢的說出來69Please respect copyright.PENANA5uGcRHzUfJ
哽咽著69Please respect copyright.PENANAMT17vBKUC9
「我…真的…69Please respect copyright.PENANAgE0VIdHSkE
忍受不了…69Please respect copyright.PENANAprWbnHUfcI
不想再忍受下去了…」69Please respect copyright.PENANA3CTjh4rxP5
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「然後你用了什麼傷害自己?」69Please respect copyright.PENANADe0ryE7uxr
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「我在書枱上69Please respect copyright.PENANAPCDHT9mQnL
隨便拿起了鐵尺69Please respect copyright.PENANAIJKGQJlz0Y
便開始…弄痛自己…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAGg7eajrKiO
李湘渝回想著昨晚69Please respect copyright.PENANAnNf7gqSlp2
那種痛好像又要開始了69Please respect copyright.PENANAvQDO7Ef5NC
「好像…變得沒那麼痛了…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAgfjysdc9JQ
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鍾媽媽坐近一點69Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7EYaBIVJH
「然後?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAFE3wDmZryu
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「然後…又變得很痛…69Please respect copyright.PENANAriTOb6s6dq
全身也在痛…69Please respect copyright.PENANAAYetoHGWfQ
很辛苦…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAea869ReGXY
李湘渝握緊了拳頭69Please respect copyright.PENANAvG86MghiwZ
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「嗯」69Please respect copyright.PENANAWf6AYpvYmS
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「我想…用鎅刀…69Please respect copyright.PENANAZD1mHnYb3F
在手腕上…割一下…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAcJejQ4HWF1
李湘渝哭了出來69Please respect copyright.PENANAe0j3DAkgfA
「那…我便…以後…69Please respect copyright.PENANAmI9mVQS5hl
都不用再痛了…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAAFudvs65Ld
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鍾媽媽專業的保持冷靜69Please respect copyright.PENANADVjCWwmiQV
停頓一下69Please respect copyright.PENANATRFYQfBpu7
再續問69Please respect copyright.PENANAY7jRNb9EqS
「是發生了什麼事69Please respect copyright.PENANAPWabJxVudy
讓你停下來嗎?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAuY5whWTXZ4
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「我…在筆袋裡找著…69Please respect copyright.PENANAmDhEE1QF3H
看到了…69Please respect copyright.PENANANpHvY2SSwZ
師兄…寫給我的信…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAsDsXXOYcKL
李湘渝激動的哭著69Please respect copyright.PENANAKsn97KDPKk
「是他…的…信…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAZoyaiEPXpk
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鍾媽媽心也揪著的痛69Please respect copyright.PENANAEIbMHaW29s
給李湘渝遞上了紙巾69Please respect copyright.PENANA3OWkztb6YE
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「你看到了天程給你的信69Please respect copyright.PENANAKJQv1Nbcla
然後便停了下來69Please respect copyright.PENANAoukkc0gf9P
對嗎?」69Please respect copyright.PENANAAXnaviKmtD
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李湘渝接過紙巾69Please respect copyright.PENANA9q0CJRsPTa
點著頭69Please respect copyright.PENANAj6yKCBet0F
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「那封信令你想起了什麼?69Please respect copyright.PENANACnOZiDbFOA
促使你停下來69Please respect copyright.PENANAff7WAZ7hKt
令你選擇繼續忍受痛苦」69Please respect copyright.PENANA0WHQrqCexo
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「我記得…69Please respect copyright.PENANAYMf8hlgjEL
無論我怎樣放棄自己…69Please respect copyright.PENANA5zC5m2MANu
他都會…在我的身邊…69Please respect copyright.PENANAea9jTbK4n3
不會離棄我…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAlNWyUGOnCV
李湘渝痛哭著說69Please respect copyright.PENANApimEsP1T2E
「上次…爸爸打我那晚…69Please respect copyright.PENANAZjNhIIVQuS
是他說…69Please respect copyright.PENANANiS0fC4Ph7
明明知道了…看到了…69Please respect copyright.PENANAVHbsJn0rfS
不能什麼也不做…69Please respect copyright.PENANAvCxBZVC8pG
便讓我回家去…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAvkcM6q6J12
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鍾媽媽聽著李湘渝的宣洩69Please respect copyright.PENANAo7XiYgvmm0
感歎著愛情的力量69Please respect copyright.PENANAWcgbMdYKdD
影響力實在很大69Please respect copyright.PENANAsKM8UrnveF
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幸而鍾天程的愛69Please respect copyright.PENANArQlPaji4oh
能夠承載著這個重擔69Please respect copyright.PENANAbPhYsGhw1W
分擔著李湘渝的壓力69Please respect copyright.PENANAWyLUuGylbM
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而李湘渝亦從鍾天程的愛裡69Please respect copyright.PENANAyCo3WouYpp
得到了很強的力量69Please respect copyright.PENANA374YkHZyZ3
有了寄託69Please respect copyright.PENANA0ncgGbzlRS
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要不然69Please respect copyright.PENANA9OXccUKolK
李湘渝可能早在幾個月前69Please respect copyright.PENANAxpqUnHSiZa
已經離開了這個世界69Please respect copyright.PENANAKBAKr9TKAu
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「我知道…如果那個時候…69Please respect copyright.PENANAUkhy16TnfK
他在我的旁邊的話…69Please respect copyright.PENANAFy7LukisDL
他會毫不猶豫的…69Please respect copyright.PENANAzQ9WxenhUo
抱著我…69Please respect copyright.PENANADWkSkdDghV
不讓我傷害自己…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAIreGMVpQzp
李湘渝仍在痛哭著69Please respect copyright.PENANAxI34StAK0K
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鍾媽媽坐在李湘渝的旁邊69Please respect copyright.PENANAdLlLNK1x1i
握著他的手69Please respect copyright.PENANAfwwpBquUll
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「我還記得…69Please respect copyright.PENANA1vahd2tdcM
在天台那時…69Please respect copyright.PENANAxjhPrq95Rg
他…69Please respect copyright.PENANAXBvDhljRZF
他……」69Please respect copyright.PENANAmyx1QeoCiY
李湘渝泣不成聲69Please respect copyright.PENANAWvk9KuVm4B
覺得自己愧對了鍾天程69Please respect copyright.PENANAcZKNCPPYI4
不斷的哭著69Please respect copyright.PENANATb15xKRoTx
哭得難以呼吸69Please respect copyright.PENANAmGOQ9D6Bfo
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鍾媽媽讓李湘渝盡情發洩悲痛69Please respect copyright.PENANAsTElT7kz6S
輕掃著他的背69Please respect copyright.PENANAw6XlI98LUU
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一會69Please respect copyright.PENANAUOkhbwOHah
待李湘渝情緒平伏後69Please respect copyright.PENANAv987GSKFJV
鍾媽媽溫柔的說69Please respect copyright.PENANAmu4fysRlDw
「謝謝你對我誠實69Please respect copyright.PENANA5I1xFKNiWe
亦謝謝你選擇繼續活著」69Please respect copyright.PENANAPDMbykVWTC
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李湘渝低著頭69Please respect copyright.PENANAc2D0piCZ0w
擦著眼睛69Please respect copyright.PENANAuVZShSzpbD
「不…我…69Please respect copyright.PENANA4fh53m83LE
很沒用…」69Please respect copyright.PENANAcFyY0XpVGb
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「湘渝69Please respect copyright.PENANAHtt2LIhgYm
你真的很勇敢69Please respect copyright.PENANAy7HrFy3syF
而且69Please respect copyright.PENANAGTEZtyUlff
你也有很堅強的信念69Please respect copyright.PENANAwjonu1j2Hm
只是一時有點迷失69Please respect copyright.PENANAZyEU7TNzE8
加上幻覺痛69Please respect copyright.PENANA2VygohGIZ9
令你軟弱了」69Please respect copyright.PENANAgQCe7svZnw
鍾媽媽撫摸著他的頭69Please respect copyright.PENANA4vjz5BQuyO
「我非常欣賞你的堅強69Please respect copyright.PENANAugKr70ghc1
因為這是真的不容易啊」69Please respect copyright.PENANAArI9xuUqD2
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李湘渝慢慢的停著哭泣69Please respect copyright.PENANALnNgrcYTqW
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「這件事69Please respect copyright.PENANADHIfQ2uU72
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