第十一章 承諾篇 第十四回 諮詢178Please respect copyright.PENANAec3pFgJuXO
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鍾媽媽看著情緒日記178Please respect copyright.PENANAVfmoVuUm1Y
發現李湘渝這幾個月來178Please respect copyright.PENANAg8fgAcLICi
都過度積極的控制情緒178Please respect copyright.PENANA4KTC9jOQg0
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雖然發作的頻率有點減少178Please respect copyright.PENANAUAoJZqiHhq
但始終幻覺痛的情況令人擔憂178Please respect copyright.PENANA4cSztfR0PM
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「傷口的幻覺痛頻率如何?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAcPMJ2jl80C
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「每天都有…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAUKM9GX3AFX
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「比起剛出院178Please respect copyright.PENANAspAagm6oPB
或上個月178Please respect copyright.PENANA5t3mM2ggJ4
有好轉嗎?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAv1o0vptQrk
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「好像…差不多…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAtBNe3BAqya
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「十級的話178Please respect copyright.PENANATm6puELxV4
有多少級痛?」178Please respect copyright.PENANABQrcIP4Kzq
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「大概…有試過持續七至八級左右178Please respect copyright.PENANAfU2RTgwdpu
試過幾次真的很痛…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAzeHaqc3VzD
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鍾媽媽看了看李湘渝勉強的笑容178Please respect copyright.PENANAJgb67jQ2ED
掩飾不了他憔悴及不安的眼神178Please respect copyright.PENANAWU0GpphlJk
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「已持續兩個月了178Please respect copyright.PENANA34DgcdgSFX
是吧?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAIGystzeH4e
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「嗯…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAznIYimwlMN
李湘渝點點頭178Please respect copyright.PENANAzoqlOmtVIG
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小時候的事178Please respect copyright.PENANAUsDZu1htla
實在記得太清楚178Please respect copyright.PENANAXKxgyaqAqa
印象太深刻178Please respect copyright.PENANAJRbhYt28OS
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而且幻覺痛發作的時候178Please respect copyright.PENANAQKzuR57jf0
彷彿提醒著自己178Please respect copyright.PENANAuDou1pPRvF
不斷的重溫事發經過178Please respect copyright.PENANAc7PH1nTEOn
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加上被陳俊言和洪文健的欺凌和恐嚇178Please respect copyright.PENANAYCXJVgEr0I
精神一直都維持在繃緊的狀態178Please respect copyright.PENANAf3o3moRjVO
沒有一刻可以放鬆下來178Please respect copyright.PENANAR81Mk4R1XL
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鍾媽媽再次仔細翻看著178Please respect copyright.PENANAkWVSUeYXx8
自從幻聽出現後的日記178Please respect copyright.PENANAXlEP027soX
看得出李湘渝心裡178Please respect copyright.PENANAzulIbWH5mF
是極度的恐慌178Please respect copyright.PENANAjq92FAD1ZS
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從字裡行間裡178Please respect copyright.PENANARJ1SE7BQTl
李湘渝透露出的是178Please respect copyright.PENANA21bQQDqtvJ
逃避現實178Please respect copyright.PENANACYMvN7OyBn
置之不理178Please respect copyright.PENANAZKE7iq7scC
過份抑壓情緒178Please respect copyright.PENANAMk57wawtN5
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「湘渝178Please respect copyright.PENANAYh7A1nRax1
欺騙誰也可以178Please respect copyright.PENANAifjo9LsZoU
但就是不能欺騙自己178Please respect copyright.PENANAQw5vT9UU5v
要對自己誠實」178Please respect copyright.PENANAe6HSjrg2Ut
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「嗯…」178Please respect copyright.PENANA4kgwebhCtK
李湘渝低著頭178Please respect copyright.PENANA5MxeS9En7H
點了一下頭178Please respect copyright.PENANA0FTqrTHmjq
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「有點勉強自己了嗎?178Please respect copyright.PENANAc3OLe5whNU
在逃避嗎?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAg8QVPWRIgH
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李湘渝沉默著178Please respect copyright.PENANAz7d1wMcJbt
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鍾媽媽也安靜的觀察他的微表情178Please respect copyright.PENANA2pWjTosQPC
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李湘渝思考了一會178Please respect copyright.PENANAfq6xHCt2nZ
點了點頭178Please respect copyright.PENANAScYVQeeWDC
「嗯…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAXsFBjVXeGN
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「有什麼原因178Please respect copyright.PENANAppgoWNicow
令你想逃避?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAIsRnNpTVbn
鍾媽媽溫柔的說178Please respect copyright.PENANAXRyxUUHt6R
「或者178Please respect copyright.PENANA5LHmY7bIFD
最近有沒有事情想跟我分享?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAHcBYZYaUi1
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李湘渝低著頭178Please respect copyright.PENANAXfMKNWunHJ
手按在昨天傷口的位置上178Please respect copyright.PENANAC1PYluRXWa
「我…」178Please respect copyright.PENANA6c15sQh6lO
突然低壓情緒湧了上來178Please respect copyright.PENANAweeYt23ECF
「很…178Please respect copyright.PENANAj7sDZLGdnZ
累了…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAM5I2rumW7v
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「所以昨天178Please respect copyright.PENANASdYXkr6vPl
控制不住要傷害自己嗎?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAMynunFTEtt
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李湘渝點了點頭178Please respect copyright.PENANAbgG7wgCVqb
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「昨天有過輕生的念頭嗎?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAjtwrYURw2X
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李湘渝的眼流湧出來了178Please respect copyright.PENANAYlDFVZ53wr
抹著眼淚178Please respect copyright.PENANAEi2yqPGUVa
搖著頭否認178Please respect copyright.PENANAPbhVWiTmbk
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鍾媽媽昨天看到他的情況和反應178Please respect copyright.PENANAs1YxmDHDCx
已經知道他經歷過想結束自己生命的掙扎178Please respect copyright.PENANA1vTpp8n6Yo
只不過在鍾天程面前178Please respect copyright.PENANANs7vu0RMvC
不適宜直接問他178Please respect copyright.PENANAA95YXh6yRl
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「在這裡說的話178Please respect copyright.PENANAXfUFSK5sho
我是不會跟天程說的」178Please respect copyright.PENANAHDgho4LbwA
鍾媽媽知道礙於身份問題178Please respect copyright.PENANAi84T9kSjVZ
李湘渝開始對她有所保留和隱瞞178Please respect copyright.PENANArb7jim0QUx
「你可以放心的告訴我178Please respect copyright.PENANAn71ygBuiL2
我有責任保障你的私隱178Please respect copyright.PENANAsHeJ6LJuvh
就算他是我的兒子178Please respect copyright.PENANAKCIGpgxOE4
我也不可以告訴他178Please respect copyright.PENANAnMcH3cQ592
這是我的專業操守」178Please respect copyright.PENANAYqhhEauZzv
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李湘渝繼續低著頭178Please respect copyright.PENANAxxFXahZWs7
「對不起…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAg5KehIfQcs
為自己的撒謊而道歉178Please respect copyright.PENANA0WtCMlvBqP
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「乖孩子178Please respect copyright.PENANAzjRvQMHTEV
不要怕去面對178Please respect copyright.PENANAxQVilIy5ST
要坦誠接受自己的情緒178Please respect copyright.PENANAm6iEiiDzmX
知道嗎?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAyCYJFuzTe1
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李湘渝沉默了一會178Please respect copyright.PENANAHWXmMT1lML
緩緩的說著178Please respect copyright.PENANAV9vqITR96Z
「我…很怕…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAOOz6JE4cht
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「你在怕什麼?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAc8aeH372fP
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李湘渝的思緒有點混亂178Please respect copyright.PENANAoD1ARuz6aU
「不…不知道…178Please respect copyright.PENANAB3cbNdxoSf
就是…很怕…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAiVFgSntULk
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鍾媽媽安靜的讓他說178Please respect copyright.PENANArADFgGFHeI
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「真的…很討厭自己…178Please respect copyright.PENANAWOXFkq3ZR3
很麻煩…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAN92rFB6KHr
李湘渝忍哭著說178Please respect copyright.PENANAX31ChZgEL4
眼睛和鼻子也迅速的紅起來178Please respect copyright.PENANATOQ5q77wbs
「我真的…178Please respect copyright.PENANAadfJoW0P79
一點用處也沒有…178Please respect copyright.PENANAOFjLytpgs9
我是…一個負累…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAtOJzULahnI
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鍾媽媽聽著也心痛起來178Please respect copyright.PENANA1dexTC1jGb
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「我知…我不可以這樣想…178Please respect copyright.PENANA6fggDKVBIW
我也想…拋棄這個想法…178Please respect copyright.PENANAJAcPXCEMUr
可是…我…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAVePjPlyaIm
李湘渝看著鍾媽媽178Please respect copyright.PENANA8llBuJcbuk
「我…做不到…」178Please respect copyright.PENANA8iEZZ9X0SJ
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鍾媽媽點頭示意明白178Please respect copyright.PENANACxZHLrAXJg
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「我…真的…178Please respect copyright.PENANAs8x1n52fD5
很累…了啊…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAMJVt580iPY
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昨天的經過是怎樣的?」178Please respect copyright.PENANApOFEHimpJj
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李湘渝愣了一下178Please respect copyright.PENANAI6MGesv605
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鍾媽媽慢慢的引導他178Please respect copyright.PENANAFG0T5k1YFD
「是幻覺痛了嗎?」178Please respect copyright.PENANA4hKop5nS23
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「昨天…傷口很痛…178Please respect copyright.PENANAbYtwkRG7hx
痛了很久…178Please respect copyright.PENANAEyQkJ2YwD3
整個下午都在痛…178Please respect copyright.PENANAp3QrCeNmFj
痛得…178Please respect copyright.PENANAUtVyxiEGQ5
那鐵枝好像仍然插在背部那樣…」178Please respect copyright.PENANA74sZ4YIfXf
李湘渝慢慢的說出來178Please respect copyright.PENANAEB4g7VaRln
哽咽著178Please respect copyright.PENANARk0kVbD1Nl
「我…真的…178Please respect copyright.PENANAT0dmDGPfXb
忍受不了…178Please respect copyright.PENANASD9sIwX5KC
不想再忍受下去了…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAZTKz2L6JCa
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「然後你用了什麼傷害自己?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAmjAywKWArB
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「我在書枱上178Please respect copyright.PENANAJCOI5nQYJt
隨便拿起了鐵尺178Please respect copyright.PENANAbXVLFC5DLX
便開始…弄痛自己…」178Please respect copyright.PENANA80ykzfcfEi
李湘渝回想著昨晚178Please respect copyright.PENANAA1DlJ87Gqv
那種痛好像又要開始了178Please respect copyright.PENANAwxWAuvkyzF
「好像…變得沒那麼痛了…」178Please respect copyright.PENANASNrrGroomh
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鍾媽媽坐近一點178Please respect copyright.PENANAzrVgCcNbUn
「然後?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAPlvfcKtxRM
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「然後…又變得很痛…178Please respect copyright.PENANAp2Qn4ChQtz
全身也在痛…178Please respect copyright.PENANAG14FcJMg1F
很辛苦…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAqOQQgvN31A
李湘渝握緊了拳頭178Please respect copyright.PENANA2FAfeUL8S8
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「嗯」178Please respect copyright.PENANAYwYOCDyHlM
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「我想…用鎅刀…178Please respect copyright.PENANALEdsbX0a2X
在手腕上…割一下…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAUHCivBDWml
李湘渝哭了出來178Please respect copyright.PENANAdT30NjANIU
「那…我便…以後…178Please respect copyright.PENANAnNnL3zik0p
都不用再痛了…」178Please respect copyright.PENANA715aPV12eT
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鍾媽媽專業的保持冷靜178Please respect copyright.PENANAW3aH3Hhex0
停頓一下178Please respect copyright.PENANA6U2ocG2Cod
再續問178Please respect copyright.PENANAEzSZzHjuJx
「是發生了什麼事178Please respect copyright.PENANAr6g3T9EA9s
讓你停下來嗎?」178Please respect copyright.PENANA6r1ewgRzsy
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「我…在筆袋裡找著…178Please respect copyright.PENANAcTf6JuHoo9
看到了…178Please respect copyright.PENANAFyntZzosKY
師兄…寫給我的信…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAuEaiweDlIb
李湘渝激動的哭著178Please respect copyright.PENANAbc0CUIich0
「是他…的…信…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAk9GyiwY7xl
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鍾媽媽心也揪著的痛178Please respect copyright.PENANAPmWWiypmWj
給李湘渝遞上了紙巾178Please respect copyright.PENANAjiCj8nL8ny
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「你看到了天程給你的信178Please respect copyright.PENANAXEQ67OLly5
然後便停了下來178Please respect copyright.PENANAoyBIaD9UU4
對嗎?」178Please respect copyright.PENANAkNQqgiQYJg
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李湘渝接過紙巾178Please respect copyright.PENANAGb2ZqWbGbm
點著頭178Please respect copyright.PENANAXRrA6S1UtI
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「那封信令你想起了什麼?178Please respect copyright.PENANAsNHa4UNP3P
促使你停下來178Please respect copyright.PENANAhNIHkayqsy
令你選擇繼續忍受痛苦」178Please respect copyright.PENANAR7Db2CYLyw
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「我記得…178Please respect copyright.PENANAhvXycDaSyT
無論我怎樣放棄自己…178Please respect copyright.PENANAxtm6Vp2IsB
他都會…在我的身邊…178Please respect copyright.PENANAUppUkggUfX
不會離棄我…」178Please respect copyright.PENANAF0bcBtqMcx
李湘渝痛哭著說178Please respect copyright.PENANAjQG5RMdXGg
「上次…爸爸打我那晚…178Please respect copyright.PENANAXolEIx584v
是他說…178Please respect copyright.PENANAwx2PY50KVZ
明明知道了…看到了…178Please respect copyright.PENANAtJ3NqrGGUE
不能什麼也不做…178Please respect copyright.PENANA4tXyBrRp9x
便讓我回家去…」178Please respect copyright.PENANA7XfcTfJGOq
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鍾媽媽聽著李湘渝的宣洩178Please respect copyright.PENANAP0weaxJ5sR
感歎著愛情的力量178Please respect copyright.PENANATbKrbO0ENe
影響力實在很大178Please respect copyright.PENANArSa9cufz0I
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幸而鍾天程的愛178Please respect copyright.PENANA7ziWVEf2Rj
能夠承載著這個重擔178Please respect copyright.PENANAJPxe42vuYC
分擔著李湘渝的壓力178Please respect copyright.PENANAMWBgLVJlkc
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而李湘渝亦從鍾天程的愛裡178Please respect copyright.PENANAfAZG4NQQno
得到了很強的力量178Please respect copyright.PENANAa4WkQjbByn
有了寄託178Please respect copyright.PENANAOA0IPumpVe
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要不然178Please respect copyright.PENANAqp7OvRmho5
李湘渝可能早在幾個月前178Please respect copyright.PENANASpPhFg5AnI
已經離開了這個世界178Please respect copyright.PENANAHnWt5QHkaW
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「我知道…如果那個時候…178Please respect copyright.PENANA09ygFSbnHz
他在我的旁邊的話…178Please respect copyright.PENANAOBwkNpLJ6s
他會毫不猶豫的…178Please respect copyright.PENANAbjjnlaOWOR
抱著我…178Please respect copyright.PENANAU4X9fdLVKz
不讓我傷害自己…」178Please respect copyright.PENANA9uGmWM2ZPB
李湘渝仍在痛哭著178Please respect copyright.PENANAl4fhc5ylLd
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鍾媽媽坐在李湘渝的旁邊178Please respect copyright.PENANAjIR9xudxJy
握著他的手178Please respect copyright.PENANACKoU6pQcuh
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「我還記得…178Please respect copyright.PENANAilZKRQkDLQ
在天台那時…178Please respect copyright.PENANAgB2QGR8gMp
他…178Please respect copyright.PENANA2ZVyfcuCU2
他……」178Please respect copyright.PENANANLICQAxRiW
李湘渝泣不成聲178Please respect copyright.PENANA5liXIFg7Lf
覺得自己愧對了鍾天程178Please respect copyright.PENANA82sxo5Umj7
不斷的哭著178Please respect copyright.PENANAfAL01QTi91
哭得難以呼吸178Please respect copyright.PENANA9FaOOmpx6i
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鍾媽媽讓李湘渝盡情發洩悲痛178Please respect copyright.PENANAUwGhgHb0r5
輕掃著他的背178Please respect copyright.PENANA5CxmwAIRJk
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一會178Please respect copyright.PENANALqFpuSLrIf
待李湘渝情緒平伏後178Please respect copyright.PENANAU2UsurSanz
鍾媽媽溫柔的說178Please respect copyright.PENANAq9XG2Zc24t
「謝謝你對我誠實178Please respect copyright.PENANAdI1NSREnfq
亦謝謝你選擇繼續活著」178Please respect copyright.PENANA7YseyfYAk9
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李湘渝低著頭178Please respect copyright.PENANAfZsLVq4Lmq
擦著眼睛178Please respect copyright.PENANAir1P7COZWY
「不…我…178Please respect copyright.PENANAY4d883nSRM
很沒用…」178Please respect copyright.PENANALnIasmZotE
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「湘渝178Please respect copyright.PENANAvyzxAdXCb0
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而且178Please respect copyright.PENANABLXTN03cLa
你也有很堅強的信念178Please respect copyright.PENANAjP4MUnMGUX
只是一時有點迷失178Please respect copyright.PENANAHS8N0BfvJU
加上幻覺痛178Please respect copyright.PENANAhtzyZdcFHE
令你軟弱了」178Please respect copyright.PENANAYN9shoCKtX
鍾媽媽撫摸著他的頭178Please respect copyright.PENANAPJ8xRlE6im
「我非常欣賞你的堅強178Please respect copyright.PENANAmxZa5hk6AW
因為這是真的不容易啊」178Please respect copyright.PENANAJQzXHCrcD0
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李湘渝慢慢的停著哭泣178Please respect copyright.PENANA0j5nQqy0ZO
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「這件事178Please respect copyright.PENANA9aklVEuYRL
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