Taylor's POV
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Having left Josh's fancy house, and had a nice stroll around his rose garden. I look down at my cold feet in my stilettos and sigh. Pulling my phone out of my clutch and registering the missed calls from Jay.
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It's not anger that's driven me out here, or surprise or shock. It's the humiliation I feel, at not knowing one of his biggest secrets. I'm just fed up of other women knowing more about the man I'm with than I do myself. I switch my phone off because I don't want to have to explain myself to him. I decide that walking, in my drunken state is the correct option to clear my jealous brain. Then I suppose I can walk back in with my head held high and resume being Taylor, the love of Jay's life.
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A few drops of rain fall out of the sky and I walk all the more through the gardens even as it picks up and my hair gets damp.
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"Taylor" I hear a male voice call. A voice that makes me want to cry. I am far too drunk and vulnerable right now for this.
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"Tay stop" he says and I realise I'm still walking in the opposite direction through the rain.
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"What Matthew!? do you want to gloat about the whole thing. About how Jay lied to me too? About how I'm an idiot, and I like guys that keep things from me" I say angrily holding onto myself and standing still finally.
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"I think I'm done with everybody. I'm done with everybody knowing more than me about everything and everyone" I say annoyed as he replaces my arms with his own. They encircle me as I stare out into the darkness.
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"Who was Nina" I ask Matthew, a whisper into the dark as I stare straight ahead into the roses still having not turned around.
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"I don't know Taylor, honestly I don't" he says and I believe him as his hands stroke my forearms.
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"I feel like a joke again" I say and a tear escapes my eyes.
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Turning me to face him he holds me into his chest and I cry a little.
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"Shhh" he whispers his lips against my ear.
"It's okay" he whispers softly. Our closeness always leads to us overstepping boundaries and so I open my eyes and place some distance between us.
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"Thanks Matty" I say holding him at arms length.
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"No problem" he says and he watches me carefully as I push my now wet hair back and sigh.
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"Tay" I hear Jay approaching. Unbelievably Matty puts his hands up as if to say he didn't do anything. That he didn't touch me or try anything on.
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"I'm sorry I love you. I didn't even think about it, any of that stuff from before. I didn't realise it would ever be a problem when I was like that, I didn't think I'd want to be with anybody Tay ever" Jay says eyeing me, he wipes my eyes and swears under his breath. His wet hair only makes him look more like a model, I shrink realising that I must look like a drowned rat. A drunken drowned rat.
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"No it's all good." I say quietly.
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"Then why?" He asks perplexed looking at me crying.
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"How can you not get it Jay?" Matthew says finally.
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Anger flares up in Jays eyes and I sigh realising that a fight is beginning to ensue. I walk away from them but Jay pulls me back lightly.
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"Please I'm sorry" he says keeping himself together, his voice breaking slightly.
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"I know I'm not good enough. I know that but I love you" he says desperately as I watch his face. The water droplets dripping out of his hair and down his face.
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"It's okay" I say as he shakes his head from side to side.
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"You do not love her" Matty says and I curse him for being such an idiot and poking at an already angry bear.
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"How can you not get it? She's told you everything, absolutely everything. She loves you completely and you're just you." Matty says annoyed as he swoops his brunette locks back.
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"I swear to God Matthew not now" Jay says watching me intently.
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"I did tell you everything, but it's all good. We're fine don't worry about it" I say realising that I must keep him calm.
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"She's literally scared of you Jay because you're a fucking monster" Matthew remarks.
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"I'm not, I'm all good. Please don't hit one another" I begin and Matthew smirks.
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"Don't worry Tay I've taken a lot of hits from him, it's all good" Matthew remarks.
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"Matthew can you just get a hint and fuck off. Okay she's not with you anymore. You're not needed here" Jay says turning to him.
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"No because I love her" Matthew says.
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"I knew you would fuck it all up" he says to Jay and I realise that comment is the breaking point for him. He whirls around and I pull back at his arm but I'm lost to him. He's so angry. He's seeing red.
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"Jay baby" I say but he shakes me off.
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"Jay" I repeat as he swings at Matthew and connects with his jaw. Matthew swings back at him and they're fighting. Glancing over Matthews shoulder I see Ross approaching and I sigh. Joshua thankfully is behind him and I'm sure I see him eye me with a look of pure relief, relief that I'm okay.
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Ross pulls at Matthew first as Joshua struggles but eventually gets Jay away. Holding him back as I see the blood on his shirt and hands. I dial an ambulance and wonder why we always must end up at the hospital. A tear escapes my eyes and I sigh. I can't solely blame Jay this time either, Matthew is just as culpable. The wild thing is that they are both looking at me with puppy dog eyes begging me to forgive them. I thank myself for grabbing my clutch bag when I stormed out earlier. I turn to Ross and he shakes his head almost laughing. Me and my three boyfriends indeed I think idly.
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"Taylor, what happened babe" Josh says casually to me as he's let Jay go and is watching him conspicuously. Jay is coughing up blood and I'm worried. I'm watching him concerned that this is one fight too many.
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"Isn't it obvious" I say crying as he glances at me shocked to see me getting emotional.
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"I'm sorry" Matthew says first as I push my wet hair back.
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Jay approaches me slowly, wiping blood off of his hands, and rolling up his sleeves. His eyes wild as he briefly reminds me of a savage. Blood on his hands and even in his slicked back hair. The pounding rain soaked through his shirt and sticking too his defined abs.
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"It's my fault. I'm sorry." Jay says as I rest my head on his chest. I breathe him in and gradually calm down. He exhales relieved as the rain begins washing away the blood.
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"I love you, I'm here" he whispers.
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"I love you" I whisper wondering how he can be both the cause and the relief from my sadness.
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The ambulance arrives with swirling sirens that seem somewhat overkill all things considered. I wipe my eyes and hold the hem of my dress up as Matthew and Jay are assessed and seated in the ambulance together. Jay eyes me from the seat curiously as I refuse to step into the back with him. Instead I turn in my drenched gown and begin walking towards the cars surrounding the front of the property. I had warned Jay that there was to be no more fighting, he has been unable to withhold that expectation. And so I will not be following him around the hospital whilst he gets stitched up.
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Fumbling for my phone, in order to call a cab I feel
Ross embrace me calming my shivering as he puts his arms around me.
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“I've had one drink. I drove. Come let’s go" he says softly.
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“I'm going to text Jay, that I'm at home. Can you take me there? I'm not following him around hospitals anymore. There was literally no need for them to fight." I say looking up at Ross.
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“Of course" he says his face inches from mine as he looks at me before sighing and dropping my gaze.
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“I'll collect him when he's been seen too" he says finally before unlocking the Aston Martin and letting me in. He turns it on instantly setting the heated seats and fan heater to high as we say goodbye to Joshua.
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Pulling my phone out I send Jay the message before we set off. Pocketing my phone again I look straight ahead out of the windshield as Ross drives down the long lane that leads up to the gates of the property.
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“I’m sorry I wasn't there" he says looking into my eyes briefly.
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“Maybe if I had of got there sooner" he whispers to himself. I shh him and stroke his arm. He looks over at me tentatively before returning his gaze to the road.
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"Thank you" I tell him softly.
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"For being there." I say as he indicates out of the property and we leave.
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