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I remember exactly where I was8964 copyright protection478PENANAmYmhUpm5ZN 維尼
when I realized what happened.8964 copyright protection478PENANAgjLjgugFz5 維尼
The water fountain next to my boss’s office 8964 copyright protection478PENANAJrqKbyqo6w 維尼
shared that moment with me.8964 copyright protection478PENANAN4b1zgELft 維尼
While a small piece of my sanity melted8964 copyright protection478PENANATW9HlpVPnY 維尼
the fountain never moved.8964 copyright protection478PENANAII1igbxVKj 維尼
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The melted pile of goo8964 copyright protection478PENANAT35GvM69pg 維尼
was hidden away.8964 copyright protection478PENANAE2vVaLTKCZ 維尼
The same place where I stuffed memories8964 copyright protection478PENANAKknZ618CYC 維尼
of that day.8964 copyright protection478PENANAGFwIxTMKGR 維尼
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I remember exactly where I was8964 copyright protection478PENANAnF58Scgqjq 維尼
when I told myself it didn’t happen.8964 copyright protection478PENANAmH3P95gpTu 維尼
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To make sense of what happened8964 copyright protection478PENANA3wbwYd2yC0 維尼
I sought out other men,8964 copyright protection478PENANAUesgBV3g4y 維尼
and waited for it to happen again.8964 copyright protection478PENANAkM02MtjPYS 維尼
I chose the most vile and abusive men,8964 copyright protection478PENANA9beF5toFld 維尼
because in my broken brain if they did 8964 copyright protection478PENANAspkF7EIKac 維尼
that to me then it was normal.8964 copyright protection478PENANAArQZpHAGXZ 維尼
If they hurt me the way he did,8964 copyright protection478PENANAKACqUbWEib 維尼
then what happened wasn’t rare.8964 copyright protection478PENANAjKUkE4TpOt 維尼
Then I wouldn’t have to admit something had happened.8964 copyright protection478PENANADzsdVFBvbV 維尼
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They hurt me in other ways8964 copyright protection478PENANAR2XuO3FICx 維尼
but never the way I thought they would.8964 copyright protection478PENANAUEqFTaaWcN 維尼
By trying to rationalize this one trauma8964 copyright protection478PENANAY3rygkWmwR 維尼
I created so many more.8964 copyright protection478PENANA9IYM4RKkb5 維尼
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The hours I spent in backseats of cars8964 copyright protection478PENANALNRM0o3kX3 維尼
or time I spent on my knees8964 copyright protection478PENANAWJojBB4SaN 維尼
are pieces of me I can’t ever get back.8964 copyright protection478PENANABR7zwWfweQ 維尼
I know from experience how little support8964 copyright protection478PENANAg3HXFLwMPM 維尼
a cardboard box has8964 copyright protection478PENANAxElLbpo11x 維尼
and how grimey the underside of a bathroom8964 copyright protection478PENANA3FlTJ60YzT 維尼
sink is.8964 copyright protection478PENANAJLc3rXInvA 維尼
I let sweaty middle-aged men climb over me8964 copyright protection478PENANASvcqeboBzm 維尼
while I blankly stared at mirrored ceilings8964 copyright protection478PENANAi5HbfJ0NNg 維尼
because I told myself I deserved it. 8964 copyright protection478PENANAmr15FYNLWo 維尼
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Moments of realization will8964 copyright protection478PENANAOVOF3KN5mw 維尼
come to me when I least expect it8964 copyright protection478PENANAD7AcO85ooT 維尼
Driving, and thoughts of8964 copyright protection478PENANAx0vxe1OMxH 維尼
“my rapist was in my house”8964 copyright protection478PENANAaB7PUDERfc 維尼
distract me.8964 copyright protection478PENANAbUiE9B1xM3 維尼
Washing dishes, and my brain chirps8964 copyright protection478PENANAplFSlHJBmw 維尼
“he helped your grandparents move a shelf”8964 copyright protection478PENANAVr1N4zPrjo 維尼
showering, and all I can see8964 copyright protection478PENANAGivEFCdVv3 維尼
are faces8964 copyright protection478PENANANJc0ecRiZw 維尼
An endless cycle of regret8964 copyright protection478PENANANkF7btecu6 維尼
Everyday my brain resurrects 8964 copyright protection478PENANACxXluyF2lt 維尼
a new ghost to haunt me8964 copyright protection478PENANALKbjpXaTPy 維尼
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Your way of thinking will change.8964 copyright protection478PENANAmkSG63CRwW 維尼
No one talks about that.8964 copyright protection478PENANAhRXDkLuJzn 維尼
You’ll realize it too late8964 copyright protection478PENANAdPRZY1ymPE 維尼
and it’ll be another thing you’ve lost. 8964 copyright protection478PENANA1ueUNzGGKK 維尼
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There’ll be a joke8964 copyright protection478PENANAqFtHKaq83M 維尼
someone always makes one8964 copyright protection478PENANA2UyYuGRmZh 維尼
and it’ll take almost breaking 8964 copyright protection478PENANARCWp8U2OZz 維尼
your teeth8964 copyright protection478PENANAvmmwR2amXx 維尼
to stay quiet8964 copyright protection478PENANAyTv1YZSyoR 維尼
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This thing that happened to you8964 copyright protection478PENANAlBDjJM5Fws 維尼
is used as a plot twist in movies.8964 copyright protection478PENANAPKb8TV7tKC 維尼
You’ll have this weird8964 copyright protection478PENANAqCWwSYmgDX 維尼
understanding or knowledge8964 copyright protection478PENANACfhB46QbAi 維尼
that the rest of the audience won't. 8964 copyright protection478PENANAa3lCFvN01c 維尼
“I get why they froze.”8964 copyright protection478PENANA3dYiNfbnod 維尼
”The shower made sense.”8964 copyright protection478PENANA3566kby3UU 維尼
”I didn’t say anything either.”8964 copyright protection478PENANAnl70F22yy8 維尼
“Zoning out is normal.”8964 copyright protection478PENANAdwIjraPYHp 維尼
“Ah, the random crying stage.”8964 copyright protection478PENANAs9pC1uKCiV 維尼
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People might not understand8964 copyright protection478PENANAixPMPcATOy 維尼
why you connected to someone8964 copyright protection478PENANAX6rrDdF2PA 維尼
with ten minutes of screentime8964 copyright protection478PENANAoY1x67doo4 維尼
or some side character8964 copyright protection478PENANAN4VSRxCZZ3 維尼
(but you’ll know)8964 copyright protection478PENANAGcqoEL8YQI 維尼
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You may get help, justice, or pity8964 copyright protection478PENANA1CFU1gLi1Q 維尼
but that only lasts for so long.8964 copyright protection478PENANAuNlRFF7hgp 維尼
The world moves on8964 copyright protection478PENANAnKKald3Itc 維尼
with or without you.8964 copyright protection478PENANA9zbkrNmd9Z 維尼
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Eventually you have to stop8964 copyright protection478PENANAf2deGBR9mE 維尼
mentioning it8964 copyright protection478PENANAJ56csikfiL 維尼
or you’ll get left behind.8964 copyright protection478PENANALOJ7yODTW1 維尼
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I called ten offices8964 copyright protection478PENANAJyVNCfDcNQ 維尼
there were no openings8964 copyright protection478PENANAAsPLbxj3Zh 維尼
when I was finally ready8964 copyright protection478PENANAxmmPHE18RN 維尼
to tell my story8964 copyright protection478PENANAST2pYZwsmF 維尼
there were no ears8964 copyright protection478PENANAP9cAK2nIJg 維尼
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I have to remind myself8964 copyright protection478PENANAFDtdehScim 維尼
to call him what he actually is8964 copyright protection478PENANANNkf7qmBm5 維尼
a rapist8964 copyright protection478PENANAS1j5mlzhVg 維尼
Monsters are the things from fairy tales8964 copyright protection478PENANAwVtuSNVOvz 維尼
that show us darkness can be defeated8964 copyright protection478PENANAo6br4sVmN6 維尼
Fantastical beings born into evil8964 copyright protection478PENANAEzHaK918Mv 維尼
He chose it in that moment8964 copyright protection478PENANAopWDSEfv43 維尼
and there wasn’t a sword for me8964 copyright protection478PENANAryRTjV5c2C 維尼
I have to remind myself that he was nothing more than a man8964 copyright protection478PENANANr7dbFyaSa 維尼
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482Please respect copyright.PENANA2if1lTBzji
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You can’t get raped in you’re not having sex.8964 copyright protection478PENANAP0TfB8Mpdm 維尼
So they don’t teach you about it.8964 copyright protection478PENANAtsv0phrTcL 維尼
Now that you know nothing 8964 copyright protection478PENANAeHh8voak3p 維尼
how do you tell crime from nature?8964 copyright protection478PENANA97qjhRE0hk 維尼
You don’t.482Please respect copyright.PENANAmXi52IinZc
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You learn about it in secret.8964 copyright protection478PENANATQGm0wJtzS 維尼
On darkened screens where predators lurk8964 copyright protection478PENANA7IuX0jmYea 維尼
and you get desensitized. 8964 copyright protection478PENANAis3N4OIdPO 維尼
Violence=love8964 copyright protection478PENANAHMYluJa8iz 維尼
or so the internet says.8964 copyright protection478PENANAFIhqlbbYnB 維尼
482Please respect copyright.PENANAiHGMjXx7aL
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So when something violent happens you think everythings normal.8964 copyright protection478PENANAsTQpzgiRPt 維尼
It takes years to figure out what went wrong.8964 copyright protection478PENANAy5JtdTPQdh 維尼
You blame yourself,8964 copyright protection478PENANAcgmOZHosPn 維尼
for not realizing it sooner.8964 copyright protection478PENANAfzYz4eg6V2 維尼
They blame you,8964 copyright protection478PENANAqN5CpFpTyY 維尼
because how could you have been raped8964 copyright protection478PENANA9sDIVpEiUP 維尼
if you’re not having sex?8964 copyright protection478PENANA1GLqM611j8 維尼
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I vilified myself8964 copyright protection478PENANAgE5LIeMtP6 維尼
ruined my own background8964 copyright protection478PENANAavOkycIpv0 維尼
lied to myself8964 copyright protection478PENANA7iPhux5J14 維尼
why would anyone believe me8964 copyright protection478PENANAd8o5et541p 維尼
if I didn’t for years8964 copyright protection478PENANARb2MVk2Gak 維尼
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Seven years.8964 copyright protection478PENANA1Wj9wOOUe2 維尼
That’s how long I sang8964 copyright protection478PENANA3Gc34MZWJZ 維尼
my song of denial.8964 copyright protection478PENANANsuSudLswy 維尼
That could have been years8964 copyright protection478PENANAvqG1D1f9Sy 維尼
of therapy, moving on,8964 copyright protection478PENANAvQdK4wXqKf 維尼
or at least acceptance.8964 copyright protection478PENANAXunHQfaDI0 維尼
Seven years8964 copyright protection478PENANAEpraL37OSV 維尼
spent fighting myself8964 copyright protection478PENANAi2Vet6KK81 維尼
while the real monster8964 copyright protection478PENANAo6pphOmlNc 維尼
roamed free8964 copyright protection478PENANAbt59nKNDUj 維尼
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