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I remember exactly where I was8964 copyright protection477PENANAc14kFB5dDq 維尼
when I realized what happened.8964 copyright protection477PENANAc7eIkeH8hY 維尼
The water fountain next to my boss’s office 8964 copyright protection477PENANA4VuOyFMlnS 維尼
shared that moment with me.8964 copyright protection477PENANAL3T9LyAXzV 維尼
While a small piece of my sanity melted8964 copyright protection477PENANAmGbQjtEl7V 維尼
the fountain never moved.8964 copyright protection477PENANAJxFei4FDsD 維尼
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The melted pile of goo8964 copyright protection477PENANATdQ5Xr1rbn 維尼
was hidden away.8964 copyright protection477PENANADGD8OcwhMv 維尼
The same place where I stuffed memories8964 copyright protection477PENANA4DzYr4X9y0 維尼
of that day.8964 copyright protection477PENANAoSrtYVakN4 維尼
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I remember exactly where I was8964 copyright protection477PENANANQgS9OX92V 維尼
when I told myself it didn’t happen.8964 copyright protection477PENANApwjniFxDoI 維尼
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To make sense of what happened8964 copyright protection477PENANAORZtzbcnA0 維尼
I sought out other men,8964 copyright protection477PENANAWfgBR9nszU 維尼
and waited for it to happen again.8964 copyright protection477PENANA3ICKLtdNWI 維尼
I chose the most vile and abusive men,8964 copyright protection477PENANAm3wk1A9sgl 維尼
because in my broken brain if they did 8964 copyright protection477PENANA9K1usHQuly 維尼
that to me then it was normal.8964 copyright protection477PENANAxPQE7JAs35 維尼
If they hurt me the way he did,8964 copyright protection477PENANAwgzh4MxbPg 維尼
then what happened wasn’t rare.8964 copyright protection477PENANAezlH97cg7D 維尼
Then I wouldn’t have to admit something had happened.8964 copyright protection477PENANAzXZbk6JFhB 維尼
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They hurt me in other ways8964 copyright protection477PENANAkRx86ayrJJ 維尼
but never the way I thought they would.8964 copyright protection477PENANAzVPbsxPz7x 維尼
By trying to rationalize this one trauma8964 copyright protection477PENANAdMGyp0Ybxa 維尼
I created so many more.8964 copyright protection477PENANAwWbCESCBaY 維尼
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The hours I spent in backseats of cars8964 copyright protection477PENANAMHyD7S8EIg 維尼
or time I spent on my knees8964 copyright protection477PENANA6n8FE34UkF 維尼
are pieces of me I can’t ever get back.8964 copyright protection477PENANAhoLdwBuG3t 維尼
I know from experience how little support8964 copyright protection477PENANAINOTxzr64Q 維尼
a cardboard box has8964 copyright protection477PENANAmn2fXnZh9I 維尼
and how grimey the underside of a bathroom8964 copyright protection477PENANAo4aiLk78J8 維尼
sink is.8964 copyright protection477PENANAnGZLBndX5S 維尼
I let sweaty middle-aged men climb over me8964 copyright protection477PENANAHeIAvpa2xG 維尼
while I blankly stared at mirrored ceilings8964 copyright protection477PENANAmetZ8VNjtH 維尼
because I told myself I deserved it. 8964 copyright protection477PENANA1Gi2Oe903L 維尼
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Moments of realization will8964 copyright protection477PENANA1wzgkeEOcS 維尼
come to me when I least expect it8964 copyright protection477PENANA3QxdGjxjmL 維尼
Driving, and thoughts of8964 copyright protection477PENANAsxQZPBeGd7 維尼
“my rapist was in my house”8964 copyright protection477PENANAI2u9uGS1KI 維尼
distract me.8964 copyright protection477PENANAMXqQfmtFH7 維尼
Washing dishes, and my brain chirps8964 copyright protection477PENANAtbICZQg4nJ 維尼
“he helped your grandparents move a shelf”8964 copyright protection477PENANAsf7fSG9K53 維尼
showering, and all I can see8964 copyright protection477PENANA6oGIoeu8Dr 維尼
are faces8964 copyright protection477PENANA0eXVCTVtAH 維尼
An endless cycle of regret8964 copyright protection477PENANA2D9UPNeGhP 維尼
Everyday my brain resurrects 8964 copyright protection477PENANAvDSHvy6UNz 維尼
a new ghost to haunt me8964 copyright protection477PENANAGCGjCsjeBv 維尼
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Your way of thinking will change.8964 copyright protection477PENANAaUD8CegYnr 維尼
No one talks about that.8964 copyright protection477PENANACYiEDalTx5 維尼
You’ll realize it too late8964 copyright protection477PENANAfUc8tnKEnw 維尼
and it’ll be another thing you’ve lost. 8964 copyright protection477PENANATzH164DZJG 維尼
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There’ll be a joke8964 copyright protection477PENANADFnY7lHu2o 維尼
someone always makes one8964 copyright protection477PENANAzOztaRNDhX 維尼
and it’ll take almost breaking 8964 copyright protection477PENANAXlkgIHBxbk 維尼
your teeth8964 copyright protection477PENANAZbG7dg7iOc 維尼
to stay quiet8964 copyright protection477PENANA1EJiumsiUE 維尼
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This thing that happened to you8964 copyright protection477PENANA3jK5hfUTrL 維尼
is used as a plot twist in movies.8964 copyright protection477PENANA2l88CO6rJO 維尼
You’ll have this weird8964 copyright protection477PENANAKuoVRxil5D 維尼
understanding or knowledge8964 copyright protection477PENANAVkXR1zk2DY 維尼
that the rest of the audience won't. 8964 copyright protection477PENANAFKgH16vVp8 維尼
“I get why they froze.”8964 copyright protection477PENANAl6c456PE38 維尼
”The shower made sense.”8964 copyright protection477PENANAHtiHD8N6Zj 維尼
”I didn’t say anything either.”8964 copyright protection477PENANAk3LGGSVQHK 維尼
“Zoning out is normal.”8964 copyright protection477PENANA67GNksLwv3 維尼
“Ah, the random crying stage.”8964 copyright protection477PENANAyCBBw9p9h4 維尼
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People might not understand8964 copyright protection477PENANAfgorHbU4ps 維尼
why you connected to someone8964 copyright protection477PENANApWzU81J4fT 維尼
with ten minutes of screentime8964 copyright protection477PENANAjv7GoWWhDV 維尼
or some side character8964 copyright protection477PENANA6CRbFEuvdI 維尼
(but you’ll know)8964 copyright protection477PENANAwyofQlg5vO 維尼
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You may get help, justice, or pity8964 copyright protection477PENANAvIBHgVVzgY 維尼
but that only lasts for so long.8964 copyright protection477PENANAPvru2PuwLT 維尼
The world moves on8964 copyright protection477PENANA9cBK13pzSZ 維尼
with or without you.8964 copyright protection477PENANAi2ulIMJudb 維尼
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Eventually you have to stop8964 copyright protection477PENANAzKKYBjpknU 維尼
mentioning it8964 copyright protection477PENANABVyE1oItNo 維尼
or you’ll get left behind.8964 copyright protection477PENANAK5vWlFiErl 維尼
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I called ten offices8964 copyright protection477PENANAZGnk10emC6 維尼
there were no openings8964 copyright protection477PENANAZsWUWGQLTQ 維尼
when I was finally ready8964 copyright protection477PENANAOg5KqDAzpI 維尼
to tell my story8964 copyright protection477PENANAyFdhnFjOZh 維尼
there were no ears8964 copyright protection477PENANAyDurik8dmP 維尼
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I have to remind myself8964 copyright protection477PENANAqivoNLAi0z 維尼
to call him what he actually is8964 copyright protection477PENANAbqLRCJ5axu 維尼
a rapist8964 copyright protection477PENANAlHH9eirFFo 維尼
Monsters are the things from fairy tales8964 copyright protection477PENANAYbBQrre4rF 維尼
that show us darkness can be defeated8964 copyright protection477PENANAOzgcOMHEH0 維尼
Fantastical beings born into evil8964 copyright protection477PENANAac6wbf5vI7 維尼
He chose it in that moment8964 copyright protection477PENANAp0m4Q2soi4 維尼
and there wasn’t a sword for me8964 copyright protection477PENANA9nMQRwGWTx 維尼
I have to remind myself that he was nothing more than a man8964 copyright protection477PENANAKUj3P1ia1l 維尼
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481Please respect copyright.PENANA0JNOjN2CaN
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You can’t get raped in you’re not having sex.8964 copyright protection477PENANAbxTojfOQqr 維尼
So they don’t teach you about it.8964 copyright protection477PENANAZJkUR92DnL 維尼
Now that you know nothing 8964 copyright protection477PENANArvda5saHbP 維尼
how do you tell crime from nature?8964 copyright protection477PENANATW6LdxHdAQ 維尼
You don’t.481Please respect copyright.PENANAMAUQ1Gjlsy
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You learn about it in secret.8964 copyright protection477PENANA9xlBXSCbGg 維尼
On darkened screens where predators lurk8964 copyright protection477PENANAK3sqkI2JbT 維尼
and you get desensitized. 8964 copyright protection477PENANAh5QqyLYhw9 維尼
Violence=love8964 copyright protection477PENANAfMhgbkzsZR 維尼
or so the internet says.8964 copyright protection477PENANAzT8swXRZjm 維尼
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So when something violent happens you think everythings normal.8964 copyright protection477PENANAcvO1EOprnr 維尼
It takes years to figure out what went wrong.8964 copyright protection477PENANAvU7ICPyTZj 維尼
You blame yourself,8964 copyright protection477PENANAA0ZCRStEGA 維尼
for not realizing it sooner.8964 copyright protection477PENANAJWs6TYwyiC 維尼
They blame you,8964 copyright protection477PENANA3qyKi5r9fg 維尼
because how could you have been raped8964 copyright protection477PENANA1FdKp4EhcW 維尼
if you’re not having sex?8964 copyright protection477PENANAY1N1CJtmmU 維尼
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I vilified myself8964 copyright protection477PENANAcyADFWH678 維尼
ruined my own background8964 copyright protection477PENANAVjurpFjciU 維尼
lied to myself8964 copyright protection477PENANASBC96jbFi0 維尼
why would anyone believe me8964 copyright protection477PENANA0HhNqCusT6 維尼
if I didn’t for years8964 copyright protection477PENANAgdahOKYSal 維尼
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Seven years.8964 copyright protection477PENANACbjY1YFiuH 維尼
That’s how long I sang8964 copyright protection477PENANAvoxh9rWvZe 維尼
my song of denial.8964 copyright protection477PENANAQxGBIE5pt9 維尼
That could have been years8964 copyright protection477PENANAi860UCyUnP 維尼
of therapy, moving on,8964 copyright protection477PENANAgkaxSG2Z01 維尼
or at least acceptance.8964 copyright protection477PENANA8bJ5PR3LS3 維尼
Seven years8964 copyright protection477PENANAw2kmaiZssb 維尼
spent fighting myself8964 copyright protection477PENANAViUM6hugH9 維尼
while the real monster8964 copyright protection477PENANAIRmj1u4vEB 維尼
roamed free8964 copyright protection477PENANAvAzfASYbgG 維尼
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