「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIMHDczjJX
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQdSDPgI2c
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDa0qjUzyu
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幼小我的父母就離異，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilovm38Fue
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1tiBnUmgP
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對母親的記憶還是有，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xFurde1Me
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記得她很常酗酒，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOpIfHPTID
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後來的日子，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Nt4tlMUPH
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmIq99MALv
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忙於工作的他，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3FOV8Me1i
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WjWv5RBfk
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到了上課時間再直接上課，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEjG2Bb6o1
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZhI8nrqwx
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvoNQRmNpU
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIuACk8soo
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTjRHijwGP
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWubnv8ZOqI
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父親工作的地方不一定，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczvtPk9LV7
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輾轉的換了三所小學，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePK8jXlzAZ
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVXwErPI1o
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他開始會喜怒無常，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHdSqJZyWZ
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiP6NExjLX
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDB8FkVsLGz
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很小我就與異性交往，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5BTPNOQ4y
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7hmJO7fcH
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8t1BrP6ed
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zGHg2oQRq
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我會睡在工地，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96oKuPiQV4
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogtSCymVBp
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIvWn2bv7k
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcr6QIv1JG
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他開始會講貶低的話語，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSGXOWuXhY
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那些原本用來工作的用具，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiB3o5pCCq
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QAdVZPu5F
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx09ypaQija
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzMTA1NXpX
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIO2dxU9ia
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要我轉告給老師，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9k61R2ZGOw
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4H9lFQMZy
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAzLjKuk5l
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqmYfBuLbB
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTGxrjcCcX
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細細去回想每個片段，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjof7WsEZ9
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8kTpD4C0B
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ngdcB87Az
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiKw7BwYOR
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeR9E3mh4wJ
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3dB7lyo2T
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWK8Q673Le
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn06c6R0jzP
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TvwGZlvvx
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdl6FzWfb9
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWR50FDP0pp
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFy6wgCGMdp
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正準備吃下第一口時，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsnsjtbwdi
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7ktnw7dNp
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。598Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfFXmHgS0v
