「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCghAhtP4o
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvtG9xc2JC
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDdPGOzdyf
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幼小我的父母就離異，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1046H42EDf
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mXRA78tll
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對母親的記憶還是有，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3gHgUwJSi
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記得她很常酗酒，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclULhxGwHH
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後來的日子，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmc8OTcCPpw
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPp0GWRwKAb
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忙於工作的他，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTk7Fmb0a0D
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZ0lcrTbcL
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到了上課時間再直接上課，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ukNu5PpLb
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZG2ZMfFgs
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgUlwah9Vb
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBnREWY6zo
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPtyXErKnX
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdW7x2IbknL
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父親工作的地方不一定，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSCKYOWqQe
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輾轉的換了三所小學，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrfaLxfpto
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtq5GCOT6Bo
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他開始會喜怒無常，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgW1DAcgWNg
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpkDT5f5iB
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUbcVpWJLA
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很小我就與異性交往，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKsVNC8TsN
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtollcgqN5
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqZjfn1EbV
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93HwREcdo4
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我會睡在工地，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJHuVXrCwA
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyarGJoF0Ey
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFNAwbdMWp
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXBrjXswSL
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他開始會講貶低的話語，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Hz1qnN2TX
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那些原本用來工作的用具，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4rlXl1nds
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhHjG0LKEB
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZ6AUz4SAn
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlx5E7QePa
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCxGTZqb57
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要我轉告給老師，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5KLOsTQEf
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6Zld7drdr
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dzsjN6XBE
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlW6iJJGAPc
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8enySj3TB
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細細去回想每個片段，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4G6hOHpwi
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCmhJUC0Gs
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDnNArs4pE
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIilKKux69
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN50twhP87z
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxkEMt8uVf
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4zwMZ0hy8
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qzUs6wBoT
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEk0sCntpCu
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFd0pYFRT9
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG70VCHJUMZ
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZG3Krmtzk
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正準備吃下第一口時，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPE5fY9ewY
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEMrBeXdSi
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。597Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM31godJN0T
