「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcJrPSCmxZ
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXc17lmUDB
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJpW0onzdn
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幼小我的父母就離異，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQu2BdScsp
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIFvfxoYBW
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對母親的記憶還是有，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdrDcs9OQu
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記得她很常酗酒，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vyzBA8hBe
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後來的日子，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZLkOUyEjo
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEySQtd3px
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忙於工作的他，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRYcBSo1k9
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rfN4IJm8K
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到了上課時間再直接上課，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJPMha3UZq
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFZcFIlbfP
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UtzcNxXv5
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbSbvcF7Br
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrteOivmCKR
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsFeKBzbC8
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父親工作的地方不一定，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TPQ244beM
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輾轉的換了三所小學，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UxjbirJq2
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4EQFMJe6W
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他開始會喜怒無常，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡME9G8RPlSY
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPZAe6pY0A
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmwK4z6ILb
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很小我就與異性交往，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnA4GtRp2lj
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuSsk6D3If
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Gil62cv8z
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1RYNzjVnW
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我會睡在工地，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKVGJMZIJz
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fwuB2umy5
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlrNyhrD4K
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkr1sqTSqV
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他開始會講貶低的話語，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKSzR8V7Ql
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那些原本用來工作的用具，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVSoz3OCwS
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSL4mjPIBUP
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdXH9Ejv5n
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKE9hzoemYF
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PA4GJlgsO
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要我轉告給老師，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmItC80YC4
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJ5314Zl7o
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YZzIi5tI5
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SuJjow3At
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRC7dEburZ5
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細細去回想每個片段，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KWJj6sRrf
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikltfg50qq
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwDiXTjGuF
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1ZnKZ6hJp
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwq5FCuUbxf
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6LKQdxL0b
卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLKT7YUWxU
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dBgejNdBZ
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEhF9YctJT
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDEsQf3ple
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTVnXYiFML
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfdZYlYZdz
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzB7OXWZev
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正準備吃下第一口時，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWY3X9bR9a
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkEDjiASRt
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCatLpt0oS
