「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YUsb6oigT
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpApSDeRrmm
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRczZuMeIrf
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幼小我的父母就離異，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKwXEJ5zkm
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfWR0NDvks
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對母親的記憶還是有，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLq8Wihm01
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記得她很常酗酒，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuePaH2Q10q
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後來的日子，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCMOMRyQmN
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLZiPEJaCn
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忙於工作的他，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmc6BBPvECi
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ddjTNh13f
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到了上課時間再直接上課，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAO8e9bLpG
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3S7fRNdxk
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVu0zOoX6NE
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOlOB5Z0q3
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wbbOUyZf3
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvah8Cru5i
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父親工作的地方不一定，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb99AVHLCFz
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輾轉的換了三所小學，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwszFx6A9Xc
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPytlLNunT0
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他開始會喜怒無常，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOIfXXI1oL
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuOs9wqrjL
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLW8PQL0vI
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很小我就與異性交往，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7Dbe4x8Bl
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeI9lujzqv
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iqlQqpmdN
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFd0R6pXhlC
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我會睡在工地，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFAHsLSDLi
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfSp1xGkyv
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EH0abD1Gy
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjO1aAaxFS
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他開始會講貶低的話語，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQqUva6nXN
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那些原本用來工作的用具，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibMzbEpFa9
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nfOjg082x
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOgn2dcB7r
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyPnjqHcrE
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfPT5taxOe
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要我轉告給老師，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjWVvPso55
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj28hMySDIp
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SQev1s8n2
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHSmFonoKr
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqGbUWof6A
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細細去回想每個片段，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDZRFhWLEK
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBd3BhkTp3d
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNR50tPzOx
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwI1RzXdn8S
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9KK0kRxtX
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnL7p98PGkF
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAbqKz79do
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7s3XqRAm47
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRCiZx1Evs
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDuhvYrpDF
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Wzs2NGPyl
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlmC5cj76D
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正準備吃下第一口時，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡym6bdNiNFI
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aU98zqpb8
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。767Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsO5yUUxS7
