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「我想她一定會原諒你的。」
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那人佇足原地，思緒被稱不上朋友的同學單單一句善意話語給侵佔，久久不能自己。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGvCYBOCiu
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白雪輕降，灑落一片冰涼，覆蓋在排列整齊的墓碑上、少年輕眨的睫毛上、已無溫度的心頭上。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJvYseeLz2
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即使安高愛已經祭拜完離去多時，獨人仍跪在墓前。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqySeq3Iw4R
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「茉紅梨，妳願意原諒我嗎……」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNY4h4ezNJl
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呢喃中摻有些許哽咽以及沙啞，這是時流獨人這輩子第一次如此向人示弱。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKTwihr89u
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……卻得不到任何回應。
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這一天可真漫長，他感覺渡過了數日，天色卻僅僅只是由亮白轉為暗橘。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBHp9YqPp5
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「獨人？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGbbJQEUgO
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又是他，是只要來此處便能遇見的那人。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40B563XVu4
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伊堂春菅，一名低調過了頭的英雄，無法排解喪妻之痛而長期駐守墓園。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNB4pCi8sjD
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「真少見，竟然在傍晚看到你。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmre38VDohW
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「我出獄了。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nLkJXopKE
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春菅愣了一瞬，眼前這名少年太常出沒了，導致他根本就沒有散發受刑人的氣質，而且一般也不可能如此自由。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOiWup6kMr
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不過殺人可是重罪，身為英雄、親自將多名敵人送入監獄的春菅對這點觀念還是有的。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoZKj5nfUJ
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡka02dBEV51
恢復了平靜眼神，本想道聲恭喜的，卻馬上意識到他們兩人身於何處，而少年又是為了何事才入獄又出獄。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbvFF5MgWm
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOMy7AKxM4
想到這，春菅就吞回原本的祝賀，改成沒什麼起伏的回應，「這樣啊。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqrcINzSyp
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtU8jpRfjmJ
兩人呼著白色霧氣，吸入相同的冰冷，位於此處的他們有著相同的孤寂。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiStKFvNuzo
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6Xr4Shn5Y
沈默維持著，明明見過數次面卻沒話可聊，但春菅也不是會為此感到尷尬的人，他就是生性活潑健談。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qdrlfYuSC
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6S9vPu7gDj
在只剩彼此鼻息的無語寧靜中細細思考，該開什麼話題才好呢？69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzxB7lvDne
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNzB0Fbci9
思念之人？不，對獨人來說這可是禁忌話題。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCNAVMVYTq
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRN7oHnY22L
仔細想想他還真是對獨人一無所知，那談談經歷吧？嗯……還是算了，對過去最後悔莫及的人肯定非獨人莫屬了。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2WOWf8lK7
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRF1jnp2UYv
最後，春菅無奈輕笑，嘆了一口白煙。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVr3axydM6i
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8EupoQFnP
「獨人，你未來想做什麼？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjvt7TU0FR
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQ6kynLyc8
原來他最終也只能問這種大人的制式問題，春菅不禁覺得想笑。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uKyfDy4ad
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「……未來？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuALS45oCbY
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「對啊，既然順利出獄了，得到重啟人生的機會，那更應該想清楚未來的出路吧？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NQWcIK1Vd
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJ62vTR6hr
獨人瞪大了眼，像是腦袋當機般發愣著。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gCVJLPaYX
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他從未思考過未來。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSFAJAycE3
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因為他眼裡只有回到過去的路。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhY9qeOeaBF
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsMDbsqos2
說來可笑，費盡心思博取他人的敬重，嘔心瀝血才換來了「天才」的稱號，獨人卻從未想過自己究竟想做什麼。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNAyfPAk1C
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmPaRYg3z9
國小作文課在全班面前發表的題目——我的夢想——當時寫了什麼？他似乎不記得了，反正肯定是寫了個會讓眾人羨慕的職業吧。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh4nGq8gHV
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那此刻的他呢？69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRxH0NWwyh
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTWp0hTfIP
腦袋一片空白，他想不出任何答案，而且越是努力探索內心，腦海越會深刻浮現出茉紅梨不諒解的面容。
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「我已經沒有未來了，你憑什麼有呢？」
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Gf5HpKDaH
喉頭發出吞嚥口水的聲音，獨人沒有任何回應。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwSUzxoZFi
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPe19cg4NKV
春菅無法靠這片沈默理解對方內心，於是繼續道，「那你的個性呢？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90J6L81dMW
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「……」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWHxXJGiHo
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「如果沒有想做的工作，也可以找跟自己個性相關的來考慮。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBycfp8es9
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33TS7g7E8v
「一般人要取得英雄執照才能對他人使用個性，這是常識，對吧？但很多時候如果個性可以運用在工作上，也能由公司去申請許可證。其實電力公司裡面一堆電氣系個性的人，真羨慕那些傢伙，哈哈！」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Y7iwjUiNI
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5fH8XMx2q
雖然知道自己講這些很像愛管閒事的老人，但這也正是成年人的諫言，春菅希望這名已經悔過的少年，能夠光明磊落走完剩下的人生。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyDS17zzZJ
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「……我沒有個性。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXnujeX9An
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只是他完全沒有料到會得到這樣的回應。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6kqcE7vGu
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkv4zFQsl9o
「這、這樣啊，不過沒關係啦，大部分的人個性也沒有運用在工作上。就像我要是做一般工作，這個性大概頂多也只能讓我睡過頭也不會遲到吧。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDBUrvm59g
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdEfJxNssN
春菅平常就看得出來性格隨和多話，只是今天明顯是拼命在找話題，這反而讓獨人不太能理解。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aMLycZ79C
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0uUxBNMdR
他們又不是什麼朋友，安慰自己對春菅可沒有好處。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2uQ4wX7rk
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剛剛對未來的提問已經讓獨人煩心，現在已經完全沒心力理會春菅了。他沒有回話，甚至將頭轉回，繼續凝視茉紅梨的墓碑。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59VU3gClNS
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw88JsP6kGL
「唉，不過，我最羨慕的果然還是『回到過去』的個性呀。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJWibAmDy9
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTZ80IY8pm
「……？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxgewjvkwU
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頭皮瞬間發麻，獨人像是卡榫生鏽的機械一頓一頓地看向春菅，他已經在妻子的墓前盤腿坐好，為彼此各倒一杯酒，握起小酒杯搖動，瞧著在容器內泛起漣漪的透明液體。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0zC2RSriI
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「要是能回到過去，我肯定會想盡辦法阻止我妻子的悲劇。」春菅將酒杯高舉至眼前，無高光的暗綠雙眸將所有期望寄託於杯中反射的光芒，「就算犧牲這條命也在所不惜。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyDKJzdYuf
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最後那句話甚至刺進獨人心底深處，嘲笑著他只顧著反悔，卻沒有一點覺悟的窩囊樣。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1dhA9Cmd8
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欲言又止了一番，獨人最終鼓起勇氣啟動雙唇，「伊堂先生你……難道不會害怕嗎？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmXdT4YW4b
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhE2yGsVuYQ
「害怕？為什麼？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWgChz19ds
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1F25n3w1NM
「害怕回到過去之後，你妻子怪罪你為什麼沒來得及救她……」獨人越說越沒自信，音量逐漸減小。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8TPMHA5lO
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「都回到她還沒出事的時候了怎麼可能會怪我啦？」春菅笑道，一口飲盡小酒杯裡的清酒，「不過倒可能怪我馬桶蓋又沒放下來就是了。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCTwy18K2K
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幽默緩頰沒有奏效，獨人仍被困在自我怪罪的循環裡，微弱卻快速地喘著氣。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSgbZi1C9D
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「我也想回去，一直都想……是真的真的很想回到過去……」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYoh91rJj9
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPnZ6ilcrF
聲音哽咽著難以發出，摻雜些許啜泣，語氣裡盡是懊悔。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDQ0WMcMyM
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獨人因為劇烈心痛不自覺緊抓胸口，就算衣襟擠出深深皺摺仍得不到緩解，眼角堆積淚水，不用兩秒便溢出。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiK07DAh9vN
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSC3bVQxTH
「我想回到她還活著的時候……！」哽咽使他聲音變得尖銳，卻莫名令人心痛。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2mignWQva
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8fKigIM5w
春菅已經沒有剛才開玩笑時的笑容了，被獨人的悲傷渲染著他根本笑不出來，而且就算沒有提及也知道那個「她」指的是誰。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6uc56ZNTo
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「可是，就算回到過去，就算她還活著，我犯下的那些過錯也已經無法改變了。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwIdFDhVXx
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHO85X8qsJ
十幾年來的言語霸凌是何等程度的罪孽，心智早已成年的獨人再清楚不過了。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTLYS0NVtT
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUxjGYy7uk
他已經不討厭茉紅梨了，甚至想要補償她，但這只是獨人自己單方面的想法。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZIke3kCcW
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茉紅梨肯定很討厭自己，獨人打從心底畏懼，如果妹妹看著自己的眼神充滿憎恨，他真不敢面對。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKz38shzHm
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ727XsdG76g
其實也有想過如果回到更早呢？如果再次回到四歲，自己所做的一切就會歸零，那些罪孽就不存在了呀。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgS8eBOfSOF
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然後這數年來的「獨人」也將不復存在，所有努力白費只剩下空蕩蕩的軀殼，一切從頭來過，自己仍然什麼都不是，而茉紅梨依然被眾人擁戴。
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他感覺自己會再壞掉一次。
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「我希望茉紅梨能活著……但我害怕她的存——」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzn3rnnT0YM
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93K8nCk8Mi
「我不知道你們過去發生了什麼，不好隨便做評論啦。」春菅以他成熟的磁性嗓音打斷，隨後嘆了一口氣，「不過，會害怕是因為你承認自己的錯誤了吧？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuA5jyamLxg
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XBTppKCzJ
他慢悠悠地將給妻子的酒一口乾掉，隨後把兩個清酒杯酌滿，收回盤起的腿起身，拎著酒杯將其中之一放到茉紅梨墓前，「吭啷」的敲擊聲有些突兀。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfTnSggiYP
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfpagayIHD
春菅蹲下，這樣便能與跪在墓前的獨人平視。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6csvpevczG
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf40pfiKu9U
「既然承認做錯事了，後續再害怕都要勇敢面對，要當個負責任的男人嘛。」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWI9jHY6nB
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感受到手中傳來溫熱卻冰冷的觸感，獨人才發現春菅正把另一杯酒塞到自己手中。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYc8C4zeAPR
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpwFVrUKzD
春菅的手有些粗糙，壓緊獨人握杯的掌後連帶抬高，乍看之下獨人像在與茉紅梨敬酒。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBru37bXowd
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「茉紅梨她……在最後一定比你更害怕，是吧？」69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtj7iDmqX4k
69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0MVaEd84g
春菅的手一脫離，缺少了支撐，獨人握著杯的手便瘋狂顫抖，清酒隨著晃動不斷沿著杯口滲出。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZPzeC0Wzs
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是的。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVtTIaHY8A
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茉紅梨在最後肯定很驚恐，竟然被哥哥拿刀攻擊，怎麼可能不嚇到。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBKmTM6fpj
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——而且與自己不同，她再也沒有機會害怕了。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNf2hx0Jf7
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「……嗯。」獨人發不出聲音，只能用力點頭，擠出奇怪的悶哼。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxr9DpL9zy
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他將酒一口飲盡，咕嚕一聲，酒精順著喉結下滑。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61Is8uMlFe
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率先感受到的是來自喉嚨的灼燒感。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qWaJ6zFBn
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隨後則是沿著雙頰流入嘴角的鹹味。69Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIrQh5eWlr
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就像他的人生一樣既辛辣又死鹹，難以下嚥。
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而茉紅梨墓前的酒杯仍透著傍晚夕陽的暖橘，熠熠生輝。
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