I’m tired.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJnKO6IqMB
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgt33WHtUFN
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRFqa0mETo
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cRaRm75B6
to pick them up and set them back down.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAKX5ttIR1
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1HPei1JMF
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtTd3ilkbw
like a normal person, thank you.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71HJwkAe2L
I try.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcBKXWb3LG
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeRG7p1oSP
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdk3E8cfXx
just barely making it from one place to another680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2VbWStZFU
without damage.
I’m tired.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtDplod2Jd
Just this Wednesday I was driving home680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pgD87sRsm
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvNREoEGn4
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ooHKHGACd
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5y9t0thYa
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtYLRV5xQa
for those I’m not sure how to help680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwxFNt6L04
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4968hXLVt
And while I was driving down the highway680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczsezPNy9W
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHr7qTlUCT
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfb0lxBBSjr
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYu7LtZpuN
collide with the wall, break through and destroy680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagmfoRNEyg
the other side.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OZBLfSNUr
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvw6bac6G8p
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qxy84qOtB
harm anyone else in the process. But I680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRB6FHb5rQd
didn’t do either, even though I680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiFNi0ZszH
got so scared for a minute680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmbyuVs1UI
that I would.
I’m tired.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78nmNAIIjL
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9q8tURj99m
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmHoneZCp4
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjG1SqrQBzZ
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRjTtyRQW5
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxpcBNAMH4
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBmtmcHeUY
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2geoZgkSzZ
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49xlOSjL47
draw blood, but it was the first time680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gOflJZTJC
I had allowed myself to680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8s4nEcEd6J
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArVVZIP227
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvP1bdaAoF
actually reach out and go through with it680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbv0KF9kTBr
I think because I’m afraid of not existing680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiIgRTamg1
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkTilQsQsQ
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPDtKzpqaF
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhtnkjOJwO
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV3z8GTmzb
and give up. I have thought about dying every day680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwDNFMPDqR
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxhFk48q2F
go through with it.
I’m tired.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnpCNxvk7B
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9mprMdjEC
for people to care about me when they should680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1MEaWD8vy
care about me on their own. I often think that680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZ6qrrlkVn
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiidTrjaQUn
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfB7wGErQe
She often hurts me more than she improves my life680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJvv4QKLZP
but I’m too afraid to say anything because680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZPbpqw8dQ
I need her. I need her to exist680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ijVVTpFVh
in my existence, and I need her to680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJGaKPxZnM
be by my side.680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKXCq537Ti
But I’m tired.
I’m tired680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13I31dvKhC
of being tired680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBefGLKMgN
in this tiring life.
