Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9C0SqGdZB9
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNx4LGJfYV
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9RgdvrzoX
It's been four months since that day.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVIkahD7Tj
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO74dcpum42
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmz9mtjdBU
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIS1CgLRdiM
Only loneliness.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAe5FuYTExW
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nhYAg5Esu
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroh7Wa9JGD
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgshmbS6OuC
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnlFj9iNOn
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoatGhRCXw
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVll2XB4hzG
They remind me of home. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vN350WEQ5
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksK0zQlclO
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpesO2v0wxC
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9TuRaQLK5
I don't want to be here. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRo4DCURLC5
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadiyaarDo2
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCb932cqvAT
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtq8FyU0pV9
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSckhHZ8iQ
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1X9DktLJW
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCog4SHpUY
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34ZauDmPcW
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1ZbAmBpWZ
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGDmcnslXL
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqeCl8qH0V
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiBfIKIZyV
I want it to make sense.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUM0IEmzix0
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZ4cghkVC3
The PaperGarden.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjivw5dCB5
To be Continued...674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNW4K9xqI4z
