I’m tired.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3LQ16JGGu
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSeXjia3h0
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkAXsv9uNN
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaVEbQcPE8
to pick them up and set them back down.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyCFwZRg9o
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQBNTI9iyw
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUIg3LifmW
like a normal person, thank you.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRe9ryRvbo
I try.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2kDkIBXHY
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9IYmYrBkq
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVfwhVHG6u
just barely making it from one place to another667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNXow5Yjet
without damage.
I’m tired.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVz9ABcYNf
Just this Wednesday I was driving home667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjFhmvrAUl
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHSzMsNq9f
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYGUI7PJtO
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJ4kAEL9I8
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpm6Hsf3Hx
for those I’m not sure how to help667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeWoY5l7ZG
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGthInJmVGI
And while I was driving down the highway667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5KzTiqtr3
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnKS9JAU8X
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1qKxjuFMP
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1T8gg82ZS
collide with the wall, break through and destroy667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBcSTnZmwQ
the other side.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgkFoMBaVk
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnIqxR5I2v
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJievG9mpc
harm anyone else in the process. But I667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q6lQvlwhQ
didn’t do either, even though I667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ErPk7GxAC
got so scared for a minute667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1flgeP0xK
that I would.
I’m tired.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoCwjM2NrC
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqO3vPTUqOH
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUZUOzTtyB
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EsUUlXjjq
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB852OUJdjY
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrQRlKxANp
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1twUmFaW6v
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMA9rBlsXx9
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WbuvZ8fUB
draw blood, but it was the first time667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDubisRUrO
I had allowed myself to667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNvHpdCEb9
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHvUXHco8Q
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLQZl8KNKN
actually reach out and go through with it667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyG7JjKp0Y
I think because I’m afraid of not existing667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhLzTkva2i
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQGSNgSdta
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6VRXrpG6c
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIeO3AGrSN
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypf4x98QYw
and give up. I have thought about dying every day667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5l6gHE89M
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjFgH6BTQt
go through with it.
I’m tired.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEUFUnIgVg
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1Zr027cWW
for people to care about me when they should667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYzUnDV15b
care about me on their own. I often think that667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24wAOEkeOz
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5LSkbZlCU
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1A7OcJUZax
She often hurts me more than she improves my life667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2duzsiqzjo
but I’m too afraid to say anything because667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFK5Lm0EUBN
I need her. I need her to exist667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYp1jmHZrF
in my existence, and I need her to667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnv3wW3yLKk
be by my side.667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpyBcOhREJ
But I’m tired.
I’m tired667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1kDXG8pAF
of being tired667Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtwvuXKX2T
in this tiring life.
