「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76qySyzlz2
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtb70BDh1an
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4zxGy43CA
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幼小我的父母就離異，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVBQnxRJSx
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyzTpH6R8v
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對母親的記憶還是有，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3U89wA2RE4
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記得她很常酗酒，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaqgv60NNG
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後來的日子，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGrfPVN69A
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFllw8FVtN9
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忙於工作的他，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNSBdwFdo5
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoirA0pYTq
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到了上課時間再直接上課，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaMwxNs0om
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5RoY6uEbO
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQC8E53B6J
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6SQsXhD2o
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Kqc84Fh2y
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bAd1Y2YKz
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父親工作的地方不一定，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFmdaOVi4J
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輾轉的換了三所小學，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bBhQXfYTM
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPNKu00fjo
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他開始會喜怒無常，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrL4H4uVGA4
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTlifIOoWC
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGKEiqugAh
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很小我就與異性交往，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOP36umeq8
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjllQfgJTS6
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrW9IiDqWP
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRvbSueRhz
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我會睡在工地，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3KsIrYInZ
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ107ikPsxdG
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBo5yGZeAlc
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRmXuTK2zu
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他開始會講貶低的話語，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcOAq4yiHQ
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那些原本用來工作的用具，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qp6B1U34G
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnps7aZgySd
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKmQdM0HGJ
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMS6HIGws1V
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uet2XOrwR
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要我轉告給老師，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRnvw7yvyF
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kWcRSfbEq
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFA7zNFV49d
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBkqJlqTeZ
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonQo6I6gOW
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細細去回想每個片段，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpWnlQ7SkM
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjX1g62MqpU
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoOr5zRuym
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJIOneJYIL
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSydHTmV0Wt
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXwxQTI3VY
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeH2UzX6Ie
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgJ1Xlhbtl
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrBkFooA6O
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqU2Zfogiu
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1h5rG9yre
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwOKDUnISI
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正準備吃下第一口時，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeqoMIYBAh
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDR8kgKdOw
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKA2pYM4NX
