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Some of my colleagues 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEKfhpjJg9
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMIIZqSWrr
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ563vaFBugn
suggestion or hypnosis.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6v6Ht0nVW2
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wXHkBEDtW
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDUApuzobc
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHB7hIpfVH
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHj6VnqB4r
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBdoU9n1Ds
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm09DQbNf1P
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUpGaeGPbk
capabilities.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXRHJwjY9I
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CIfnnMufR
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David awakened. Not 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY1Sqa9Lk4
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyW2ldTXaL
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2qbUXf8AS
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb27clRxDR3
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0SdbII0rX
undamaged.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3VQ67Fti6
"Only your physical body539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCyTbWbWA6
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCA532nL5MY
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpIBkI6Mxf
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1CfjSqrdd
A shadowy form appeared.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHg5kWwly7
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSXYdcmf7K
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNZoY2X0ui
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxyeVDoiEo
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHC3zw3LMKf
"Am I in the...ether 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjS0ch3S85
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7Yci2iQ1m
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3h9s9ffCp
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPouem5JtR
David was tired, too 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUnwHrFYXo
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwxMWqu7R3
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsZ1RYTERW
The shadowy hood cocked 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QZbvYhqVO
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTRGrIkwtu
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpas0CYgYH
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYjW6hYnXi
more grateful."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrpQ7rN3Mt
"I..."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlM9N4rYyL
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzNXB73pGk
David groaned in 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScA4vo7NbY
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZIQBOwq2e
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUKpxaLx7F
falling point, that'd be fly."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5edQVKbjnb
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh49sAC7AA2
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSDEepmCV5
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3DOCUUNs2
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nikc3QrFK
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGo5INi8yTW
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYU69y9dcf
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUitWw26BiD
David shouted and 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbC0gtoASxN
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pwBhC4KZI
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRwK9GuMI6
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcMOFAfhEG
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLyCFF4Waf
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0zU41INE2
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5RzKnssXC
mist.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXwRDhCsmx
Jester's voice came from539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8KGAZOz5E
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomFgOriGHU
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaovS4FFA4
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDCBzh8ZpH
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkuMvyl6LO
creating a circle around Jester and David.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUWp5lTSSs
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0o24OTuBE3
"Shut up!" David 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnafDi8MyS9
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfChpotKhNY
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKiCQH5seY
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2K8A7vsA6
Jester gave another 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfjh6YNlBa
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtgiXW4Y3K
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBUBCRL7Dw
afraid of the truth?" 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEt5lJ1Mhml
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjycKV36Xql
"You're what? A 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIKmuf6MuD
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FkzicSjww
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gtUpu3A4D
you've done not matter." 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcAuHlwnGi
The shadows completely 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3tf5Gvz8q
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rGx0OBbJD
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVzxfkONwp
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uK1uMAuhB
eye and shadows swallowed him.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Or1GAfo9l
Shadows parting, David 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJrNNtQSeb
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjHmJZlUOj
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgS5w9qiEj
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1n5ofr3ED
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzr0jeNMAIM
mother539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVxsRj90we
"This is my memory." 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDPanLKMEB
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrJKWA9x3h
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOa04P6CPwF
David didn't reply to 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8rkqGvWyy
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZkPzGlcdO
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcp9cqDUeo
Unaware of what was 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEmJo1sdK2
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhdRIVpuLa
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcPC4fY2Va
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTaIyzPRSd
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5sTwO5hB5
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOefVIAUuCc
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1thsUcgTq
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbMuiL2Zjh
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9g2uUYIJm
Finally the screams of 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOxqxcjhPO
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwNowt1li3
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsOZJL2HHb
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3SA2jwaJp
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQrBdboQyc
the baby's throat and squeezed.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnt7JzfTHmK
David could feel his 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3Rhl54jgh
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYhwuWsdKq
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NOyKh3VV0
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnApgg4jz2
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMUwEGdbOo
stopped.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcr8x3zKVL
"Oh, nonononono." The 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWO1k6cC2c
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNb1mp59Rpq
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPt6umAEXwU
"You who were supposed 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ofwRVOpiy
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgqXOVt4Kf
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbG1z3GgVq6
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1hMRPPfme
Coughing David stood up 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWegn2gyXZa
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhM9NpJjgxc
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFGx20jAZP
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WT554n7Me
"No, it was a small 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxd5oiLApkd
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxY43GKiNX6
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T06jdo4wZ
He was staring at the 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRglggXjSrc
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxQ2UDLn4s
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuabJwlfjI1
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQsVs6bufU
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aNtzRNnI6
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJ2tBKKhRy
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9N7zHldkF5
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPT7dIcPkfl
"I will!" Came a squeaky539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7vzdJgfD5
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAojy7WC7wy
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoy0zXLu60
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwR54EUW3Ot
was an adult.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZEuoTKkf3
A knock came from a door539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaYvGKPKPM
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtwH3YqwpY
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFndOebTGn
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplonE4bUSX
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YTgLVBfaK
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciqCUBVOhi
being a bad boy.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntHO4N2Em9
That's why he didn't 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkCvdJQsh1
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsG0suZq3I
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQaIxJPiZU
"D..david" the answer 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxFnuCll3D
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2TIcsYZ4N
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hauXoDo17
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJnHjTxlJc
The man put his hands on539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9WGo5mCIr
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6H507tmKA
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJJL4GtdjW
David meekly shook his 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LLvYKCgCy
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKb7mGCPdOr
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJ3CoWFu95
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLNjgGZZg3
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qNl2pMXYU
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MJFKgGqFG
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGy8d9YZbSL
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Su0SHcvis
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTI9tHSLyuD
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfm5sbxikGA
Davids body.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0JctCWcMM
Please don't. Came adult David's voice539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvfz1uD3PL
Young David was scared; 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oPFnjusvQ
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpEPmY74EI
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ltDHUd3YU
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHXo13mgbH
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAExc801rl0
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dKrARwzBi
"Mummy, mummy!" David 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOn3nW541J
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2NOhTmnBF
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8uCLrpnjI
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75IcgUKOr3
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pC0TJA0w7
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8kHkzIM5a
David didn't even know 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEqjqwNfll
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpwtVF2DOI
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Twds1Dvsy
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qEOwJQVZH
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFG4evQfIo
David could barely hear 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8O3wRlPPxn
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkXpwIRiWu
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNmyYqOxgP
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVArf0mDu7
anger. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQTuIrNalz
"There are more 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmTNnqpFoz
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zb5ka0Ofe
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmgqHE1PHq
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QK1uRGoFQ
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLGd4aWiMg
"What else is there to 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwq4n25Kze
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5xuHZcN2J
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ863slkWyhP
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduLGef33k6
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKvWgOEPAe
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCiKt1H5b5
floor. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iONEZioxU
Even the pain didn't 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKCyw6838A
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCbRaM4mD8
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09GXTRBmLR
everything would be gone.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEEOLhtQm7
~Just like that, give up539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW92uV59S2u
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEWJEy3KXA
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6zLvFWFyp
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3g7KdcRHZd
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfEMz9pwQ3
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3ZRTbqxJr
than this."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUQQvliwDb
~STOP! ~ David dropped 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡempp8WubQJ
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyH7kFeuD3E
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAft2g1NbNx
survive. Survive and live.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQzlTw9oIY
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBubrMAs0Xs
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdYIQsja6A
"Indeed." Jester 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3z2rfb2cBZ
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrUcxFMIuG
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0dCnXkbrq
like his own did.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZpzUmIByD
"Why did you try 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gON2kVVqD
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12pRMPsDM9
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGNNJOVOYz
process the influx of memories.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35MhtwUv69
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoC4yp05zA2
"You expect me to believe that?"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRGe7qTDxH
"Believe what you want."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1DTlSIsKS
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLs9BQ6va3
Jester chuckled. "All of539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuXy5bBp4N
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJw7e9n62cv
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5m8qlp6vBD
"That just 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxE1cvlscEr
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBnXcl9csK
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVd9lkG1ts
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9acDy2rqkK
David nodded. "Do it."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZSmkMt0PJ
Everything shifted. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uDvbXKXsF
David was cleaning his 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfU9SevvtpZ
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1vYiOdLwf
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJf3B6WAbj
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fJDI6C7Gi
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0XnFjeAWA
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNm1YDsHbhv
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iC2wLrPiC
His last one was just 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16TDCL0n4C
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLv056hg39
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94l0pry5bW
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULKN9UJCOQ
Undamaged goods she loved to say.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmTL0PXKDy
Right on cue, David 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xmaN6d1vE
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fjENbgGI0
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwZIGZbFHu
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJogEFo10f
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlu3CfCl7Li
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwJRHinZIf
Why was this his life? 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaetmFw1i00
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfry5xyuxjI
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2X5DWnRC3
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qKfgJ9KHU
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUuQvD1K3x
vein trying to get his eyes. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwFr970ob5
~Enough David.~ A voice 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoe66KTyMwe
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpz4xXncmK
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6p5jctbnNu
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtolME4TuXM
and met resistance.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OHGrzLHWN
The scratching and 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzo9rBB10qA
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBa535TAGhR
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5Azt0tK8B
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPQFhfh7TD
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDkRFElVCR
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAVMCnjgmJ
Oh god what did he do? 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvSxQ7k3kD
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGRsSambE6
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzUo1Idax6
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWEedLoASb
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgLZpqkhb7
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPULCGltBuY
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wCgz1wKFc
blood.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtzcAPBG5q
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhiS8TKFD3
There was a pause and everything quieted down.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDspNVuNoyo
A boy named David just 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xENslm7Ht
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MQcoqNX3J
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbaGIPOacA
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dl8lGyay3
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiN69IGjO9
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX26RmkQ3U
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGtS8OtbIy
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUN4IvcoiJE
silly of him.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYzzWvOBRx
Remembering his 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48pSrpE9lA
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cHzMq3axa
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD9CJo6oHd
table preparing a meal. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJN2ivDOaMk
"There you are David!" 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEQ9N614aH
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMe24vCUkI8
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMmJislx8Y
This isn't the truth.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQsQsuOCHk
David obligingly sat 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMZAxtsKVE
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDzhyKLDzJ
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHxlC8QLCz
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDlPRZhjnk
A dream, nothing else.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxM5FzEPjE
They all thanked the 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIRbBrgJ9j
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms7PoHQQYX
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yd2CTVvhW
this lie.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFHonIEQov
A lie that has to end.539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9WELot8GP
David was standing at 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCYQaq3D5u
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGa6HDau97
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaoGntzcxK
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngrYBCTDtU
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5p94ZGajEN
Either way David hated 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjnOM8q5a2
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmZu9azPdM
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFDuyQhnjf
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclXig9lMlu
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRVWsQdQyq
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3YpVoPite
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ285GamlHlP
life this happy blissful life?539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcCTQb1fPb
The answer was so simple539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNE7taHl29F
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwD55U81Jq
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhHuwLyphm
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5XRK1Ra6J
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSE3Qh7vj1
David decided to start 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLRht5LrOO
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3K0Cx2JDMf
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG0Kf6fhDo
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3vkNyZKDj
mother. "No more mercy."539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbchRqZVYY
With the last stab 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTA0AVXdcFK
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgAYNb75IG
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ851F34fuC4
emptiness.
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