#1 Entry: Why I Started This.971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2XgACRxXT
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9dCuA4wWm
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMJaKCt9ON
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQIaTHDclY
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZs1wNbqpV
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0Ioibbjzg
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYovtJW9CQ
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zq1EKWdwS
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVZOMRXMeE
...971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEg1kVn9JDu
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lbFbQ0fCM
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYpQOyrE0Q
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZld6G8FsZ
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXefVrbpsG
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRtz4FGj3f
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoafi2392V
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NzGIDx7ex
So calling it off, was it that bad?971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfDuehGYnf
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ940k9facwf
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hHWBdRiay
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9F1eH5swHH
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7oVYuzlGP
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPpz3NfCrv
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPSye3rO8N
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQa3jbsw3Mh
Henceforth, we have this. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4j536zEmI
Thanks for bearing with me. 971Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOooQMCqNH
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