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對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑，害怕著自己那面具被扯下，醜陋的臉龐被看見149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrQwzBJHcx
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「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9OSY6l0XQ
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學校-人間煉獄，為了朝向理想的我穿著制服，坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhGHTACUG3
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「跟理想完全不同呢。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobqB7ZHZkd
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我喜歡圖書館149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNzT63VoAF
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(阿，這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEyroVMoFQ
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眼前一黑149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBl3JKlyxG
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笑?149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrkeJ7jD3J
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「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVRIBEpnr9
「同學，在圖書館請保持安靜」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWe09uFoIf
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我本來就是為了借書而來149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNPQ7JnqAq
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFYNBGSyN7
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「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7rCufVlv0
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看見了149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBkRANoOxC
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奇怪的夢境149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAGE5n7Vs9
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雖說我曾想過自殺，但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eEaGTI8pu
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抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
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「2月2日」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0USpdMxUCJ
