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秋意綿綿，涼風颯颯，樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道，有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙，聽來已然粉身碎骨，看來完好無缺。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZw70VmUJtT
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「完好？」現在的她問。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ505mPtysVe
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「無缺？」曾經的他問。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3P3C9ce3e
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很多人說他生活美滿。家境富裕，頭腦聰明，五官英氣，身材高大。聞言他總是假笑，笑對方客氣得過份。奈何對方從未察覺他的笑容雖假，情感卻是真實而強烈的：他的確認為對方很過份。他想要的從不是這種生活，可惜每次對此表示厭棄時，總有人批評他不知足。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8aF5eUvRQ
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輕嘆一聲，繼續前行。踏踏踏，沙沙沙，聲聲撕心裂肺。像父母的哭罵，令人痛，也令人愧疚不安。無論他們如何呼天搶地，他終究永遠不會回來。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiK7iEIrzab
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遷入新居，展開新生。吃力，困難。已然表達得很清楚，對方還是假裝不知該使用哪個稱謂。有人說不介意，有人說很平常，話題和目光卻只停留在胯下之物。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLxrU3y8HO
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無處訴說的孤獨日夜縈繞不散。曾發誓永不後悔，曾以為自己是多麼堅毅勇敢，曾相信世界其實不是那麼單一而絕情……176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1ArspHCCY
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步出公園，拐了幾個街口，來到醫院門前。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppGKGEFfk2
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「醫生，早晨。」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI95DcocdqY
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「早晨。近來身體好嗎？」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdFheenqJA
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「好……不過……」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhtRikBDf5
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「不過甚麼？」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWcJhIvGAb
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「我想再做手術。」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYa8kZkeib
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「為甚麼？」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3r1tY4VxoX
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「不適應現在的生活。」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9msKEpx1r
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「不適應身體的變化或是有其他困難？」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83OcbY5jfP
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「是生活上的困難……其實我很滿意現在的身體，我覺得這才是真正的自己！過往的我根本不是我！可惜旁人都不是這麼認為……」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdF3BpgroNx
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「所以你想要回以前的性別？」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd368v4GbeS
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「不——我是不想要任何性別。」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotMlqm7Bx7
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「噢……抱歉我還未能捕捉到你的思路。」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0FlvkTatD
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「這些日子，我遇到的問題大都源於旁人無法定徹底認同我是男或女。如果我沒有特定性別，可以在『男』、『女』、『跨性別』、『無性別』幾個類別之間遊走，可能會更自由！」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC910n9IphB
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「依我看來，你再次做手術之後，將要面對的問題會更多更嚴重。」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTCwE1NUIn
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「我理解你的意思，但我還是想要放手一搏——我堅信每次改變都會帶來新的可能、新的希望。」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnetdH3RN0
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「既然你堅持，我會按程序寫信轉介你去心理輔導部門作專業評估。」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqeiZ3HTmd0
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「謝謝你。」176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mhfyD1yW9
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跟醫生多聊一會後，她步出醫院，再次走經公園。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59mesnf8uj
176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1kuAZnD1T
秋意綿綿，涼風颯颯，樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。她慢步於公園大道，有意無意踏在枯葉上。沙沙沙，聽來已然粉身碎骨，看來完好無缺。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aZjj2koiG
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「以前未完好。」現在的她說。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iTXEfcc1g
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「將來會無缺。」曾經的他說。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUfybB6wwF
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她笑了，笑自己傻，笑自己依然沉浸在幻想世界當中，相信自己的人生將來一定會變得完好無缺。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLT2iqGnQH
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明知無人能斷言明天一定會更好。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheZ2tWIteL
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奈何人總需要一個努力的原因、一個繼續活下去的原因。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIIGe7XAd3
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那個原因名為「希望」。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYiUbZKuE9
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「我定要繼續努力。」現在的她說。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAuMlpm3GD
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「好好活下去吧。」曾經的他說。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8WNogrhTT
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秋意綿綿，涼風颯颯，樹梢偶爾掉下幾片黃。176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSj60V5Caiw
176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AzYHJNVXT
她慢步於公園大道，放眼欣賞沿路風景，不再留意地上的枯葉。
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