神啊,求你可憐我,因為我軟弱。309Please respect copyright.PENANAJFiDWHZXdP
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自從段考完之後,我就沒有任何動力讀書,雖說休息是為了走更長遠的路,但已經段考完兩個禮拜了,還不讀書的我開始覺得有些慌張。309Please respect copyright.PENANAqlHQYj9PNI
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慌張又無力,畢竟各個老師都開始教新的課,而我的複習依舊停留在期中考的進度,還記得剛開學的時候,總是為自己立下好好讀書的志願,但似乎到了學期的一半以後,那種心情便慢慢消失殆盡。309Please respect copyright.PENANAgBalqgnpl0
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好像一切剛剛好就好。309Please respect copyright.PENANAAlkvC3cVLd
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我認為本科系最難的兩科大魔王——會計和微積分,期中考成績都陸續發下來了,會計原本擔心考得很差,沒想到出乎意料的及格;反而是我自認自己都會寫的微積分,居然考不及格,而且還比平均低。309Please respect copyright.PENANAYzWY8uRVt3
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然而其他科目的成績發下來,都是很普遍的分數,及格、卻不是最高。309Please respect copyright.PENANAzlyCFVszVj
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我的讀書意志像是隨著成績的到來,一個一個被磨滅,雖然並不是考差,但總覺得失去了我當初想要拿到前幾名的熱情。309Please respect copyright.PENANAG2V7e5Wrrh
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我每天沉迷在 ig,以發文來逃避現實、以跟朋友的互動來迴避讀書的疲累,我自己知道這樣只會越來越糟,但就是克制不了自己。309Please respect copyright.PENANAo0nrpYB8QM
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不想讀書、不想上課,什麼事都不想做,我就這麼被禁錮在消極的牢籠,連再多的夢想都無法幫忙解鎖。309Please respect copyright.PENANAttf5ZMuaXD
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好無力啊,不知道自己是怎麼了,也許是看到成績後的失落,又或者是對成績不再抱有期待,不管如何,我現在等同於沉浸在消極的世界,無法自拔。309Please respect copyright.PENANAoSERkFifOE
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當心靈枯解時,我唯一能找的,就是在掌權我生命的神。309Please respect copyright.PENANAR60P0gRgl3
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我禱告,我讀聖經,為的就是尋求一些動力,讓自己恢復以往的積極。309Please respect copyright.PENANAEps97gla4n
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“軟弱”一詞瞬間浮現在我眼裡。309Please respect copyright.PENANA4NyelI462u
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「耶和華啊,求你可憐我,因為我軟弱!耶和華啊,求你醫治我,因為我的骨頭髮戰!我心也大大地驚惶。」309Please respect copyright.PENANAsDP2e1WDnn
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「耶和華啊,你要到幾時才救我呢?耶和華啊,求你轉回搭救我;因你的慈愛拯救我。」309Please respect copyright.PENANA2Yaf8lbvTB
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這是詩篇第六篇二到四節,我看了太震撼人心了,原來毫無動力的理由,就是因為軟弱。309Please respect copyright.PENANAQxeyiPHZZp
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我太過軟弱,碰到一些不如意的事,或是接觸到一些心累的事,就想逃避。309Please respect copyright.PENANA1Q5wg6GTW3
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我的心乾涸,沒有上帝的滋養,才會淪落到這般現狀。309Please respect copyright.PENANAB1YKBe0et4
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所以說,我承認我很軟弱,我承認自己總是在需要的時候,沒有第一時間想起神,所以神啊!求祢可憐我,求祢原諒我,這樣的消極並不是我所願意的!309Please respect copyright.PENANAcd80RVQYXs
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你問我這樣跟神訴求有什麼用?309Please respect copyright.PENANAKvFJpaiF75
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當然有用,因為祂是慈愛的神,祂是聽人禱告的天父,無論最後有沒有動力,至少我承認自己的缺點,並大聲的發洩。上帝,我們的神,是唯一能接受一切心事的出口。309Please respect copyright.PENANAjEjRqdbhfA
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跟神傾訴完後,我輕輕的鬆了口氣。309Please respect copyright.PENANAc9oEfNE6IP
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會慢慢好起來的。309Please respect copyright.PENANA72dQNsY9t0
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近期真的不知道為什麼,考完試後都不想讀書,每看著自己一天一天的墮落,就有種進度落後的壓力、以及自己好頹廢的感覺。309Please respect copyright.PENANAWczVMyPbwA
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但真的,前天查了聖經,看到詩篇這句話,被深感安慰。309Please respect copyright.PENANAYUSyuirJ1j
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我們無力、我們難過,我們可以選擇悶不吭聲,也可以選擇說出口。309Please respect copyright.PENANAwyA0HMttKQ
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跟上帝說吧!把一切所有的心事,通通說出來。即便你的訴說對象不是上帝,但也沒關係,在你訴說的同時,上帝也在聆聽著。309Please respect copyright.PENANAytXPiPWia1
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願所有人,都能逃離消極的牢籠。