他原來在酒吧裡,喝了一點酒,這會站在雨裡,又被趕到酒吧窄小的屋簷下。146Please respect copyright.PENANAp7S93tV8Fk
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「為甚麼來這裡喝酒?」眼前的男人打著一把傘,輕輕冷冷的問著他,緊握著傘柄的指節泛著白,他把大部分的傘給了淋濕的自己。146Please respect copyright.PENANAk0mDUIJJ4M
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林森然知道自己答應過對方,不獨自到外面的酒吧喝酒,自從他倆在一起的時候就說好的。146Please respect copyright.PENANAUcWSkbPKXo
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「我不是故意的......我真不是故意的!」林森然怕冷,淋濕的身體讓他渾身發抖,禁不住抱緊自己,試圖挽留那一點點的體溫。146Please respect copyright.PENANArzcLgRKcjw
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對方沒有說話,就是看著、聽著,他想知道這個傻瓜到底在想甚麼。146Please respect copyright.PENANA95klfBdWKC
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「但是你也不能就這樣離開!甚麼也不說的離開,你這樣和丟下我的伏羲有甚麼兩樣!」林森然忍不住怒吼,趙伏羲是他單戀了十二年,好不容易在一起了卻又分開了的人,是傷他最深的人。146Please respect copyright.PENANAzkzAxJuJ8A
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「不要跟我提他!」146Please respect copyright.PENANAQTSK7DE6aE
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「你......你兇甚麼?」對方一聲怒吼,林森然明顯嚇了一跳,平日裡儘管他怎麼胡鬧,莊瑾言絕對不會這樣朝他大吼。146Please respect copyright.PENANAzLevAmwDZC
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「我終於能體會他為甚麼離開你......」莊瑾言說著。146Please respect copyright.PENANAY7NIjT0LpM
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「甚麼?你說甚麼?」林森然以為自己聽錯了。146Please respect copyright.PENANAoUjtcfgwUH
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當初,好不容易和趙伏羲在一起,卻因為想法上的不合常常鬧起矛盾,林森然花了十二年才追上這麼個人,他不可能與趙伏羲爭吵,他很聽話,幾乎是委曲求全,只求趙伏羲待在他身邊,還能揚起嘴角朝他笑、還能與他說上幾句話,融入他的生活。146Please respect copyright.PENANAGrU4oDIvnF
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只是委屈久了,配合對方成了習慣,林森然幾乎忘了自己原來是甚麼樣子,他不知道胸口的鬱悶從何而來?精神疲憊又是為甚麼那麼巨大,他一直撐著、撐著,一直笑著,然後憂鬱症就發作了。146Please respect copyright.PENANALUzIGZq8Lf
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為甚麼藥沒用了?他不是每天都吃著的嗎?146Please respect copyright.PENANAPEgDMVWx9e
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林森然一下子,對許多事都沒了興趣,就是上班睡覺、上班又睡覺,他甚至不吃飯。渾然不覺也食之無味,他都瘦了一圈,就在他不注意的時候,趙伏羲說了一句話,「我知道你能照顧好自己,你能照顧好自己的......」,之後這個人再也沒有出現。146Please respect copyright.PENANAp9B5G3Uo92
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「跟我在一起你過得並不好。」趙伏羲是這樣說的,因為他看著森然一天天憔悴,毒一般的慢性自殺。146Please respect copyright.PENANA8jZfueZVrR
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甚麼也不說的就離開了,獨留他一人。146Please respect copyright.PENANAk1ekUvBrXx
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所以他很害怕,莊瑾言會向趙伏羲一樣離開,他不允許,但是莊瑾言卻說了這樣的話。146Please respect copyright.PENANAq6k4FRhcbH
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「所以你也要走嗎?我們說好不分手的......你不能。」林森然開始慌了,這是他第一次,發現莊瑾言對他來說有多麼重要。146Please respect copyright.PENANAYqcxfNHTOO
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"我終於能體會趙伏羲為甚麼離開你。"
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這並不是一句殘忍的話,莊瑾言只是一個感慨,一直以來與他爭搶的趙伏羲原來是這樣的感覺。然而從林森然這裡聽到的意思卻不同,那就好像一根針,紮著他的心臟,諷刺他整個人。146Please respect copyright.PENANAT1IuXGeanw
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好傷人。146Please respect copyright.PENANATzJBA1HgH1
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莊瑾言看著林森然搖著頭,水滴從臉頰滑落,像是不知道自己做錯甚麼事,卻被大人狠狠教訓的孩子,那樣可憐又無助的慌張。146Please respect copyright.PENANA7MXgabTKMY
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「對我就能發脾氣,像這樣任性嗎?」莊瑾言面龐冷冽,他不笑時就是那麼無情,皺起眉就是那樣兇惡,他覺得林森然真的鬧過火了。146Please respect copyright.PENANA0qGAPMwEvk
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「那是你、我......」林森然不知道說什麼好,因為他確實如此,對趙伏羲是百依百順,面對追求他的莊瑾言倒是任性妄為,一個不開心就撒潑,脾氣大一點還會動手打人。146Please respect copyright.PENANAd8UwasO4yS
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是莊瑾言太寵他了。146Please respect copyright.PENANArkxa1v9Ayb
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「拿著,你自己回家,我累了......」莊瑾言看著不知所措的人,只是嘆了口氣,把傘舉給了他,本來也就一直替他撐傘,來的時候一身乾爽,現在兩人都濕透了。146Please respect copyright.PENANA6MuL8r8hmp
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林森然愣著,莊瑾言要他自己回家?不跟他一起回家?累了是什麼意思?146Please respect copyright.PENANAz4zFZYlHQC
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他不接傘。146Please respect copyright.PENANAhShb4XFGY3
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「......不撐傘就算了,我幫你叫車。」其實這裡離林森然的家不遠,走路大概十五根鐘就能到,但是林森然不想走也沒關係,他也不是第一次這樣。146Please respect copyright.PENANAOFz2uYdMcx
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「不能!」林森然抓住莊瑾言握著手機的手,他怕他回去了莊瑾言就不見了,他怕他再難找到他,就像趙伏羲一樣,好像根本就沒進過他的人生裡,卻占據了他整個年華。146Please respect copyright.PENANAWBvAxzWUKu
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林森然抓住莊瑾言的雙手,他不想他離開,不能讓他走了,他走了他要怎麼辦?說起來林森然也只是自私,他需要一個依靠的對象。146Please respect copyright.PENANA7XmfkVMVn4
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「我......我醉了。」林森然用力看了莊瑾言一眼,抓住他,又慌張的垂下眼簾,一瞬間眨眼,眼淚就一滴滴落下。146Please respect copyright.PENANAPvUjUEyuZW
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他是真的慌了,他害怕,他已經失去趙伏羲,不能再失去莊瑾言,所以他握得很大力,莊瑾言能感受到林森然緊握的雙手是那麼用力,他在雨中哆哆嗦嗦,聲音都在顫抖。146Please respect copyright.PENANA6NhyvrvJQY
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莊瑾言知道林森然在挽留他,但是他又不知道林森然是不是真的知道錯了,他慢慢的,用力掙開手,傘都掉了,乘風吹翻。146Please respect copyright.PENANAW8WqCBnqTv
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「謹言......我、我醉了,你不能不管我......」林森然很少會叫莊瑾言的名字,但是他知道莊瑾言愛聽。146Please respect copyright.PENANA8genw2HOmb
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「你不能丟下我......我、知道我錯了。」林森然忍不住無聲哭泣。146Please respect copyright.PENANA0Cs8ajqYid
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莊瑾言真的看不下去,他能忍受林森然多少,就愛他多少,但不能觸碰他的底線。莊瑾言陪著林森然淋雨,不忍心林森然淋雨,要是著涼了怎麼辦?他不放心林森然一個人喝酒,他醉了怎麼辦?他最受不了林森然哭了,他的心疼死了。146Please respect copyright.PENANAMG1gXGeGu3
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「那你就不要胡鬧!」莊瑾言大吼,抓起林森然的右手,包著紗布,那是他割腕的痕跡。146Please respect copyright.PENANAQxOfknejxR
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「過去再難受都給我忍著!誰來挑撥你也給我忍著!」146Please respect copyright.PENANAqTmTMfQ877
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「只要我在身邊你就忍著!別打任何主意,給你飯就好好吃、酒也不准喝!」146Please respect copyright.PENANAYico8s2Jee
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「我不讓你出去你就不准出門!哪裡丟別想去,不然我就不要你了!」146Please respect copyright.PENANAUbtMkyN4wH
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莊瑾言大喊,大雨稀釋了他的聲音,但是面前的人聽得分明。146Please respect copyright.PENANAig4vVSdVQB
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林森然止不住哭泣,像個孩子一樣亂糟糟的亂抹眼淚,他分不清哪些是雨哪些是淚,但他就是顫抖著雙手抹著眼睛,雨聲大,他就哭得大聲,反正只有莊瑾言一個人聽見。146Please respect copyright.PENANA2Vg9WYz9Y7
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莊瑾言很少這樣大吼大叫,平時甚至不會大聲說話,他覺得喉嚨都嘶啞了,於是他緊緊閉上嘴巴,牽著林森然的手就把他帶進車裡。146Please respect copyright.PENANAbL09dramSP
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「進去。」146Please respect copyright.PENANA41VFoUup07
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直到他們回到林森然的家,他們是這樣狼狽,邊角的咖啡廳卻是那麼溫柔,落地的玻璃窗,雨水灑在上面,微弱的一盞吊燈亮著,說著房子的主人出門了,小貓都縮在牆邊睡著,氣氛是那麼柔和。146Please respect copyright.PENANACX4iXa5ZbE
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進了屋,莊瑾言拉著林森然走過溫暖的咖啡廳,帶著他直上二樓,走過客廳再走到主臥室。146Please respect copyright.PENANA26bpr9EVza
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林森然還止不住哽咽,衣服都濕了,莊瑾言就冷著臉把林森然脫光,自己再脫光就進了浴室,等到水熱了就帶著林森然沖水,一系列動作好像他才是屋子的主人。146Please respect copyright.PENANAKAjZF6I6Qf
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從剛剛到現在他們一直沒說話,但是莊瑾言粗暴的動作卻告訴林森然他還很生氣。146Please respect copyright.PENANA52e0OxS7Be
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直到莊瑾言覺得林森然的身體夠暖了,拿了浴巾包裹就把人帶到床上,他跨在林森然身上,拿著毛巾擦拭林森然才了剪的短髮,擦頭髮的動作依然是那麼熟悉,林森然眨著紅了的眼睛,他終於不哭了,但是身體還在微微的發抖,不知道莊瑾言看出來了沒,只聽見頭頂傳來低啞的聲音,「還冷嗎?」146Please respect copyright.PENANAyhBkZ0Lsuk
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聽了這一句,林森然不知道為甚麼又好想哭,於是他又抖著聲音說不冷。146Please respect copyright.PENANAWAlyYD5DSE
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莊瑾言這會冷靜了不少,動作就小了,還在細細的擦拭林森然的頭髮。146Please respect copyright.PENANAurRqDoqVi9
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其實莊瑾言心裡頭胡亂地想了很多,也真的想過離開林森然,但是看著林森然他又捨不得,想起林森然第一次出現在他刺青店時的冷然,林森然在外給人一種高冷的感覺,然後在拖拖拉拉猶豫了四、五年才下定決心刺青時的目光,像是飽滿了心事,懇切又堅定。再來是即將下刺青針時林森然大叫了一句,問他會不會很痛?隱忍的樣子真的很可愛,先是盯著手機轉移注意力,比較痛的部位就用手摀住了嘴巴,眼睛還閉著顫抖,張開眼睛的時候就發現莊瑾言已經停下來盯著他瞧。146Please respect copyright.PENANArHjlzFdaqH
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林森然愣住了,莊瑾言被人發現他偷看,掩飾性的吐出一句話,「我以為你不會痛。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAJAyy6omVgl
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「......就是肋骨那邊比較痛......」林森然小聲的說著,被人看見他閉眼忍痛的樣子他覺得有點丟臉,礙著面子臉都紅了,林森然感到臉熱,耳朵更熱,他就拿手機遮住自己的臉,像個大近視一樣緊緊盯著手機,只是緊握的手指爆露了他的狀態。146Please respect copyright.PENANAaRwbynF7JE
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在一起了才發現林森然並不是那麼乖巧,更不像刺青時那般小兔子的模樣,反而是個防備心很重、脾氣很大、有憂鬱症、傲嬌又彆紐的人。146Please respect copyright.PENANADYklFQNfGY
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但是莊瑾言就是愛上了。146Please respect copyright.PENANAxtC2T0t4bX
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「別哭了。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAfbWyGnotxL
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「我不會離開你。」莊瑾言說出了這句話,是因為林森然還緊緊握著他的手臂。146Please respect copyright.PENANAByK604mCwO
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「但是不許你再做傻事,無論發生了甚麼。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAm2zGsvfiDC
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林森然含滿淚水的眼睛看著莊瑾言,像是在尋找答案一樣的瞧著。146Please respect copyright.PENANAisbcJsEi7R
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「我甚麼都可以讓著你,你愛怎麼樣我們就怎麼做,但是你不能再做出傷害自己的事。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAx74U88UWaO
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「我當你的避風港,所以不要怕,儘管忍不住負面的想法,有我在你身邊。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAA9FgIa0FPd
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有誰會像莊瑾言這樣寵溺自己,不怕諾言般的說當你的避風港?146Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6zahXhuZT
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莊瑾言從沒說過諾言一般的話,是因為他認為做到了才能是承諾,所以他甚麼也沒說的一直待在林森然身邊,如今才說出這麼一句。但是他發現林森然是那麼不安,那麼沒有安全感,幾乎是要用力的擁抱他,林森然才會舒一口氣。146Please respect copyright.PENANAgPa3YNZdHr
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「你真的,不會走嗎?」林森然愣愣聽著莊瑾言那些話,卻像個孩子一樣問著。146Please respect copyright.PENANAnAisd9mCKd
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「絕對不會丟下我嗎?」146Please respect copyright.PENANAJz9hsHJJKB
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「不會。」莊瑾言把毛巾放到床頭櫃,看著林森然回應。146Please respect copyright.PENANAmD9xuNydxo
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「那......你可以親我嗎?」146Please respect copyright.PENANAKZHkuy9VK0
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林森然像個孩子般哭泣,直到哄著不哭了,就換著花樣一直向莊瑾言求一個肯定。莊瑾言俯身親吻,像以往那般溫柔。146Please respect copyright.PENANAc0PGpdWsJh
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「你可以一直抱著我嗎?」146Please respect copyright.PENANAwh9BvPnumk
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莊瑾言抱緊了林森然,撿了林森然鬢角的碎髮勾到耳後,溫柔的凝視著,再抬起林森然的下巴親吻。146Please respect copyright.PENANAqq0yvPBut8
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他吸了吸鼻子,好像滿意了又覺得不夠。146Please respect copyright.PENANAFT6ndrgETr
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「來做......來做嘛。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAPMfjmBp5Fc
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這是莊瑾言第一次看見林森然這樣對他撒嬌,好像終於完全對他卸下心防,他覺得心疼,一邊心又柔軟成一片春水。146Please respect copyright.PENANAfQr4evg2WC
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「好......你不要著急。」146Please respect copyright.PENANApfhgrtZG3L
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莊瑾言會這樣說,是因為他總會做足擴張跟前戲,他從來都是這樣溫柔,絕對不會強行進入。146Please respect copyright.PENANAt1UQy6avyq
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「如果哪裡不舒服你跟我說。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAdb9VpgLhn6
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林森然想他們都做幾次了,早就熟悉到爛了莊瑾言還是會問,只是這次林森然乖巧的應了。146Please respect copyright.PENANAT33V54rCLf
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一邊慢慢擴張,莊瑾言牽起林森然一隻手,在上面細細親吻。146Please respect copyright.PENANAAbRPkHrcKi
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「愛哭鬼不哭了?」莊瑾言輕輕一笑,林森然果然不依了。146Please respect copyright.PENANAXTUMrGFjbO
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「你才愛哭......」林森然這才發現,莊瑾言也早就紅了眼睛,只是他忍著沒讓眼淚落下。146Please respect copyright.PENANA2uD6cK6Phc
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「以後不要淋雨,反正你在哪我都會找到你,你就不要冒雨出來了。」莊瑾言叮囑著。146Please respect copyright.PENANAzJCl2FHI5u
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「要是不聽話,我就把你綁在房間裡。」儘管他就只是說說。146Please respect copyright.PENANA8B0paWbH4d
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「知道了嗎?......我要進來了。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAoFSLPZKnfl
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林森然才想應聲,卻發出模糊的呻吟,也不知道是不是回答。146Please respect copyright.PENANAfNWGkPcijJ
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「我知道了......謹言,你大力點。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAOKfE4eOQd7
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而後就是輕輕的呻吟,接著越來越浪蕩,大雨還在下著,也無法吞沒屋內的聲音。一直到朝陽落入屋裡,照亮半個房間,林森然緩緩睜開眼睛,看見莊瑾言熟睡的側臉,還是那麼好看,不像昨天的兇惡,如一般時溫柔。146Please respect copyright.PENANA3mrdRULTW0
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林森然握住莊瑾言的手,慢慢伸入五指緊握。146Please respect copyright.PENANAcwfH1P2j5P
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「我還醉著......在你的愛裡醉了。」146Please respect copyright.PENANAR46H0Qf9cF
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