小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcHJmUMjCE
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYf4Ab57nSH
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是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxuIqmq0Az
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「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGweipu1CpP
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壓花書籤。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpXLuUrYw8
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紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqjT2zKcO5
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc443aadHm5
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDcjnttCFx
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初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamhC7gmYeX
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難道是老伴的來信？412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lMschVpOT
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是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDW0RtvkmY
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEwKW9XOcV
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwOuxRQmo6
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdp3LHJbIAf
或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEjGGleacp
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1UnVs9HvO
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY59G5lNPWZ
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡro1NpRDu39
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQUngVJu29
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowXvqnDnCh
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhb6btUm4e
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUkABU198J
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBx2HnJ0PAd
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ785Wd99vYh
努力活著，只為失去？412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOr6b81Tnfy
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jYbqHhRg5
放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4AxmRJoUG
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpAtbfO7vZ
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiYZdtvF0c
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很累。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNY7ubXbvLs
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Jxc2GcDxt
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPie8dODsR
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想睡。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiFQLD402U
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QOdnvwaZg
放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59uBhAwVmd
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonS2q62A2U
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5wF62r11f
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該要馬上包紥傷口。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQza2JzYpl
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但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQLfsVPGHu
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0jneMmvi8
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUpg8dGyxI
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdnPit0Mmi
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdrcODdo3O
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LeYTw3uY6
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydhR7FeLp5
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBzvpdjVLb
她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwz3NXCRrew
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他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXmsU2LBWV
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被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0MBeWd5KM
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFp6tyZ6Cy
她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQYWFHqC4h
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現在呢？412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGuuYva9if
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她主動放棄記住他。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrU8Tq0URC
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxX70oWzug
上天或她更可惡可恨？412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQJB3sZmK0
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYzxm21SmO
世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiThxKYdgy0
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8RzPRpUzN
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkc4vU7D0q
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5t2WsGA1F
迴光返照。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW07Ai9AGzn
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLibS2pgAp
她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUa0IeIbvZ
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuZjSsEYRw
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFEKyYncXt
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT54qs80rLf
是她將一切與他扣上關連。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8uI4bxfc5
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pTaWaLwu6
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOND0FUDmX4
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWsbjvHa7I
手腕倏忽劇痛。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w0bnLCZhK
醫院。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKsYJ42EGv
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病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZytAlVe3z
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzreJi0pxD
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTpeJaTtki
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtipa1LPaNp
當時是否不該報警求救呢？412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAmfE9jerX
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljoDaQQXtv
這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdUBVvzRMM
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjN5IlCg25q
「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0X4u4PMnL
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHde6Ur4cW
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡua4tWFFfTE
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUzrdNRqb6
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3tQXlhElh
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0CP6lCva2
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhIk0VT2Tx
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaP8BW9G9k
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI01tlZHOJE
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcSGDMJUal
這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqh2EZTzvRx
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原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSUVrkI2na
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十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qSkPnhOQU
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSgIBWig0j
「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcZ02x3VIs
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfiDk4B8Ms
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0wzH8LZGv
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qyKBBxxwn
右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlypKMH1i1
412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAcb56G7qQ
活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqD9qu4F8i
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她打算怎麼處理？412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kfc9e66YA
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未決定。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9A8rYw6MS
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那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3oF211oy8
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活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
