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人生苦短——死
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電視仍然亮著,新聞報導員正在講述關於疫情的新聞和消息。內容千篇一律,悶人又煩人。520Please respect copyright.PENANAtJx3ed9mdb
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他打個呵欠,伸個懶腰。雙掌使勁按壓梳化,借力撐起整個人,避免膝頭過份受力。許是在凹陷的梳化坐得太長時間,大腿和臀部均感到少許麻痺。不至於會跌倒的程度,但他下意識地一邊倚扶著傢具,一邊拖著腳步走向浴室。520Please respect copyright.PENANAqZrURWMVnC
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人老了,身體差了,動作遲緩了,連小便如此簡單和基本的本能也變得困難。甭提總是瞄不準便器,尿液還要是逐滴逐滴慢慢滴出來,彷彿要滴乾他的尊嚴。520Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZLxZLb5nC
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怎麼辦?可以怎麼辦?吹口哨吧。口吹曲子,耳邊響起熟悉的歌聲,心裡默唸自勵自欺的歌詞。520Please respect copyright.PENANA1rkjiLtcIm
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莫再悲 莫再傷 遇到悲哀休誇張520Please respect copyright.PENANAQWqwoQyaQu
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誰亦要經風與浪 誰遇挫敗不受傷520Please respect copyright.PENANABZc29fZDGu
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逝去的 莫再想 路正崎嶇更漫長520Please respect copyright.PENANArlKHLLsfhG
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何用嘆息風裏望 寶貴光陰笑著量520Please respect copyright.PENANADaIUSoFm4A
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小便後,步出浴室,再次聽到報導員的沉悶腔調。520Please respect copyright.PENANA14d0kxwxky
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抵不住。520Please respect copyright.PENANAvLxZd17rjY
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他決定到公園散步。520Please respect copyright.PENANA6IqKogiJOC
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望望手錶,是上午十時半。難怪放眼所見多是上年紀的人。520Please respect copyright.PENANAlRj4fCp4Gh
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好福氣的,或是三五成群談天說地,或是在家傭的攙扶下散步。福薄的,或是推著購物車奔波買餸,或是顫巍巍地被送上療養院的巴士。520Please respect copyright.PENANApcbTqk2sYW
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自己有福氣嗎?托賴。能走能動能講能吃,與兒孫同住。雖偶有口角,卻也沒有特別煩心事。520Please respect copyright.PENANA4TtSl0Es3b
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他知道自己該要感恩,奈何始終沒能衷心感謝上天。520Please respect copyright.PENANATWlv6lf0zh
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輕嘆一聲。繼續走。520Please respect copyright.PENANACQnFdRZT7w
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。520Please respect copyright.PENANAXs70e5QnSe
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他不自已憶起亡妻……520Please respect copyright.PENANArdyPNnXRZQ
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三年前的夏天,她在家跌倒,傷及腿部筋骨,自此總是步履不穩,走路時偶爾會突然腳軟跌倒。兒子勸她多休息,不要外出。她明白兒子苦心,奈何整天悶在家中令她心情抑鬱,精神越益差勁。520Please respect copyright.PENANAcQsSsneZkc
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他偷偷帶她到公園散步散心。520Please respect copyright.PENANADTV9pG2TTe
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「我的腿康復不了,是嗎?」520Please respect copyright.PENANAUfkMlsOkP0
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「不是。你向來身體強健,這小小傷勢不是大問題。」520Please respect copyright.PENANA36JJk54HBJ
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「我何時可以痊癒?我想去探望朋友。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAqBwqDnNSPq
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「快了、快了。不用著急!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAkUQsyA35Tt
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「即是何時?」520Please respect copyright.PENANAJtESt8cV8Y
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「下一個夏天。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAy92Ki48qgJ
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她幽幽回望,驚訝丈夫斬釘截鐵交出一個確實答案——醫生也不敢斷言她會否康復。520Please respect copyright.PENANAq31YNetq5d
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。520Please respect copyright.PENANA0PKqIMvAEN
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感動,明明眼前只有絕望。520Please respect copyright.PENANABfZLWproXH
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她的手忽爾不再無力,牢牢緊挽住丈夫的臂膀。520Please respect copyright.PENANAe1p97gyuHb
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奇蹟?希望?不。僅是信念,難以言喻的,難以理解的。他不是神、不是醫生、不是專業人士。他僅是一個脾氣古怪的躁狂糟老頭。但她就是相信他。520Please respect copyright.PENANAJC510M8aIQ
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內心終於安定下來。520Please respect copyright.PENANAgKtyeeZPRp
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她沒再糾結於健康問題,開始向丈夫講述她的未來夏日大計:「探望朋友前,我要先辦一件十分要緊的事——吃『菠蘿油』!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAqC6r5RXaQL
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「但你的血糖……」520Please respect copyright.PENANA49uOGaOhEB
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「我向來身體強健,這小小血糖問題不是大問題。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAA6EaX36JXP
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他會心一笑,笑她依舊貪吃如豬。520Please respect copyright.PENANABZcNKgXpKA
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下一個夏天到來。她的腿傷還是沒能康復,走路時拐得更嚴重。520Please respect copyright.PENANAg81h8OUQsu
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兒子送她一根拐杖。520Please respect copyright.PENANA6aVddfFLGO
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當晚,她躲在浴室裡啜泣。他沒有上前安慰,因為所有安慰說話都沒能扭轉衰老之勢,倒不如讓她盡情宣洩情緒。520Please respect copyright.PENANAU42ok5eVOG
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她不知道,整個晚上,丈夫徹夜無眠,眼睜睜望著天花,細聽她的哭聲,細想她的未來。520Please respect copyright.PENANAFQSxpE1txA
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天亮,兒子和媳婦準時離家上班去。他送孫兒到學校後,馬上回家慫恿妻子一起外出逛街。「夏天嘛!當然要吃『菠蘿油』!」520Please respect copyright.PENANArblWqupsZY
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妻子笑了,連忙穿上最漂亮的衣褲鞋襪,戴上最喜歡的髮夾,塗上最鮮色的紅唇膏。她沒有使用兒子送她的拐杖,因為丈夫就是世上最好的拐杖——依著他、靠著他,她安然走到今時今日的七十高齡。520Please respect copyright.PENANA1F3OxIJUM5
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鐵路車站裡,人流如鯽,彷彿有股無形的強力水流在背後催促著。他懶理,繼續保持慢調,只知自己不僅是自己。520Please respect copyright.PENANACxvgyo7TlN
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終於來到馳名的冰廳,二人各點一客「菠蘿油」。不好吃,亦不是回憶中的味道。520Please respect copyright.PENANAwGvX2Vjhs2
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不要緊,反正「菠蘿油」僅是一個名目而已。520Please respect copyright.PENANAFurN52V1UP
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夫婦相視而笑。笑甚麼,不知道,大概是完成了十分重要的事情吧。520Please respect copyright.PENANA8ODd19iq5A
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於願足矣。520Please respect copyright.PENANAkU7nfAfB2P
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沒過幾天,還未開始探望朋友,她已於睡夢中悄然離世……520Please respect copyright.PENANANJSkWrVnHS
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公園裡,樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。520Please respect copyright.PENANA6MvYnjKJEY
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他不動聲息,藏起思念,繼續開步走。520Please respect copyright.PENANAtv2p5o2bJr
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總得走下去,不是嗎?520Please respect copyright.PENANAtnykp8gbBO
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不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。520Please respect copyright.PENANAGO7j35XAcx
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走到涼亭,看見熟悉的棋友正在對弈。520Please respect copyright.PENANAf0u54MOCyR
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棋局中,事事分明,步步無情。520Please respect copyright.PENANA0sJj8Ezpo7
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他專注觀賽,全然忘記身後的樹影鳥蟲。
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人生苦短——病520Please respect copyright.PENANAd3MpzF8U3m
他在床上徐徐張眼。520Please respect copyright.PENANAchN5OfL4Tc
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床褥太軟,腰骨微痛。這不是家裡的床。520Please respect copyright.PENANA75xKQLaKRl
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暈眩冉退,目光聚焦。看見多張整齊排列的病床和面無血色的老者,他瞬間得出以下結論——醫院。520Please respect copyright.PENANA1ot1g4p25p
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嗯。醫院。520Please respect copyright.PENANAICwTGTnR79
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接受醫生的檢查,證實無恙後,獲告知可以隨時出院。護士根據過往紀錄,已通知兒子和媳婦,只待他們前來接送。520Please respect copyright.PENANAaNa4DzdHZS
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醫生離開後,護士也去忙別的。520Please respect copyright.PENANAAVy0tRC56o
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他呆坐床上,默默看著醫護人員在多張病床之間來來回回,感覺實在又虛幻——活到這個年紀,總得要到醫院走幾趟,實屬平常不過的事情,對吧?520Please respect copyright.PENANAm6f3mO88OS
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如他所料,兒子在晚上八時許現身。一臉倦容。520Please respect copyright.PENANA5wPMDtBQpN
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「醫生說我沒大礙。可能是公園太熱,熱昏了。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAsUdp4B43Td
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「那就多待在家裡避暑,不要外出四處走動。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAEkd3IIa9UO
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「知道。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAMXIc4C1mkG
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兒子攙扶他走出醫院,在街邊截下的士,直驅住所。520Please respect copyright.PENANAJgqv2DokkF
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車廂裡,二人不發一言,各自對著窗外景物發愣。520Please respect copyright.PENANANbVJBBoQO8
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沒有怨氣或鬱結,只有緩解不了的疲憊。身心俱疲。520Please respect copyright.PENANAoraHmaz3we
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黃色街燈在夜幕下迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。520Please respect copyright.PENANAvDqQb8ZQao
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兒子倏忽開口,神色惘然。520Please respect copyright.PENANAonXXNYvQDO
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「我有末期肝癌,剩半年壽命。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAto8GSaoXw3
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「她知道了沒?」520Please respect copyright.PENANA4HWxaWaT0X
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「不打算告訴她。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAevnc4JJkhS
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「你如何在她不知情的情況下抽時間接受治療?」520Please respect copyright.PENANAaTITSQhKp0
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兒子笑而不語。520Please respect copyright.PENANAipm3n3FBdp
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他愣住片刻,良久才道:「明白。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAnHmAUZQhnW
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兒子輕拍他的肩膊,以示感謝。520Please respect copyright.PENANAvqOVSu5gWX
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抵家。兒子依舊朝妻兒溫柔地微笑。他沒作聲,逕自到浴室洗澡去。520Please respect copyright.PENANAG2H3bOSzLi
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蒸氣瀰漫,看得見,抓不著。甚麼也抓不著。抓不著開始,也抓不著終結。520Please respect copyright.PENANAtgm1uC21T0
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沒選擇的情況下被生產下來,沒能選擇長大與否,沒選擇的情況下經歷病痛,沒選擇的情況下死去。生老病死,全是沒能選擇的。520Please respect copyright.PENANAkvoioXDG0U
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翌日,兒子和媳婦如常上班,孫兒如常上學,家裡只餘他一人。百無聊賴。520Please respect copyright.PENANANfdZBVFu02
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他決定到公園走走。520Please respect copyright.PENANAXvrGU4rsAi
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。520Please respect copyright.PENANAER1saXGtQ8
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此樹是否去年那樹?此鳥是否去年那鳥?此蟲是否去年那蟲?要緊,不要緊。在意,沒能在意。520Please respect copyright.PENANArfWjWKWSc9
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幽幽踏步,皆因內心焦躁。520Please respect copyright.PENANAKzGj5Txxpu
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來到涼亭,棋友們向他問好。他笑說自己比年輕人更健康。棋友們以為再也看不見他,感到難過。他認為無論難過與否,該死的時候總得要死。520Please respect copyright.PENANAR38kmhHjQt
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全場一片默然。520Please respect copyright.PENANAUCzcLV9uV0
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聊聊笑笑罷。下棋耍樂罷。520Please respect copyright.PENANAlVYUM9UEiy
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不要問為何。不要問感受。520Please respect copyright.PENANAyo3tfvHo5T
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有如那樹那鳥那蟲。沒能在意。520Please respect copyright.PENANAYQHKZmo5jD
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正午,他前去學校接送孫兒。孫兒說吃過同學送的怪味糖果後身體輕微不適。他不以為然。下午,孫兒痾嘔不止。聯絡不上兒子和媳婦,他只好獨個兒帶孫兒到醫院去。輪候期間,一張發白的熟悉臉孔癱軟在擔架床上,被匆匆推送入急症室深處。520Please respect copyright.PENANAZGkeDCJrJy
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那是今早與他談笑風生的其中一位棋友。520Please respect copyright.PENANA6gnTMVz8V5
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數個身穿便服的男女先後抵達護士站,然後按指示守在急症室外。沒多久,醫生步出急症室,宣告棋友的死訊。男男女女隨即哭作一團。520Please respect copyright.PENANA3B5e08KxlV
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他默默將孫兒擁入懷裡。520Please respect copyright.PENANA9cyov14qtC
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心慌的極致原來是平靜和淡然,皆因透徹體悟到自身的無能無力無奈。520Please respect copyright.PENANAZCQDMtIVd4
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「爺爺,很熱啊!」不知袖裡的孫兒輕輕推開他。520Please respect copyright.PENANAmtIrqfJWho
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「嗯。」對於眼前一切,他花盡全身力氣發出渺小的一聲。520Please respect copyright.PENANAerk8SiTZdm
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晚餐後,兒子在露台抽菸,媳婦在廚房洗碗。孫兒是個好動的孩子,五分鐘前肚痾得雙腿發軟,此刻已然在梳化上跳個不停。520Please respect copyright.PENANA1CQjLUJjAH
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跳跳跳,有節奏地跳個不停,像心臟。520Please respect copyright.PENANADvVeBJ4TfQ
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心臟停止跳動當刻,棋友有何感受?掛念未完的棋局?掛念急症室外的男女親友?520Please respect copyright.PENANARTW10VSPWj
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他的目光不期然落瞄向露台,看著兒子呼出個個煙圈,圈圈復圈圈,冉升消散不復見。520Please respect copyright.PENANAUcppl6eJN9
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不復見。520Please respect copyright.PENANA95AeAB07fL
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他莫名的被深深憾動。520Please respect copyright.PENANAltHQ3x1SRj
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走到兒子身邊,告知棋友的死訊。520Please respect copyright.PENANA9ahZgwWZbZ
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毋須明言,兒子已猜測到他的用意。520Please respect copyright.PENANACjdi9tiQpl
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「我不怕死。」520Please respect copyright.PENANArwsSLImskY
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「我也不怕死——死亡並不可怕,只怕沒能完成想要完成的事。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAFa2WSbnww1
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「你有沒有想要完成的事?」520Please respect copyright.PENANAMgTskuZt78
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「每年夏天買『菠蘿油』給你媽。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAbhACyFOlW1
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「她的叮囑?」520Please respect copyright.PENANAZJohsMpFOL
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「不。她離開得太突然,我沒機會問她,只得按照她生前喜好去估計她的心思。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAKHpm5UKUeL
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「別傻!她不願看見你耿耿於懷!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAsEMeiHrX7Z
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「她沒這麼說。」520Please respect copyright.PENANABK0aSlvxeY
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兒子苦笑,笑他彆扭。520Please respect copyright.PENANAmQXpgB9mhU
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再次不了了之?他以為是,直至夜半聞得媳婦哭聲不絕。520Please respect copyright.PENANAXx5D3yMVuB
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無論大家怎樣勸說,兒子依然不願接受治療,堅持要盡量留下金錢予家人。520Please respect copyright.PENANApFTGNxmgyj
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半年後,兒子沒死去。一年後,兒子仍活著。三年半後,兒子依然沒斷氣。520Please respect copyright.PENANAdfDXpNhjiu
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問何解。醫生說原因不明,但癌細胞消失了。兒子說只想盡力工作賺錢養活家人。520Please respect copyright.PENANADagaa1qoSX
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離開醫院、歸家路上,兒子和他拐到公園散步去。520Please respect copyright.PENANASFLs0sn8vk
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。520Please respect copyright.PENANAxQ5V5Q723w
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「你多活了三年半。」520Please respect copyright.PENANA5nliMf8vhV
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「我多吃了三個『菠蘿油』。」520Please respect copyright.PENANA4CWvY1danV
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「想繼續吃?」520Please respect copyright.PENANAbYUQSD5VcO
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「是。期待下一個夏天。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAqO8lq0eJxm
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兒子認為這次大病是上天的提醒,希望他往後好好珍惜時間。打算辭職休養一段日子,在接下來的暑假與大家出國旅遊後,才重回職場繼續拼搏。520Please respect copyright.PENANArvil6yS7ve
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他為兒子衷心高興著,亦感謝上蒼的好生之德,沒有帶走……520Please respect copyright.PENANAl8k1I4mA1M
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兒子呢?520Please respect copyright.PENANACjpFnnHNwr
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悉才尚在身邊的兒子不見蹤影。520Please respect copyright.PENANAZkX9DIJwhF
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啊!記起來了。520Please respect copyright.PENANA1jgGPWLW7d
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兒子去年在暑假前遇上意外,下半身癱瘓。沒能出國旅遊,沒能重回職場,沒能享受期待已久的夏日。520Please respect copyright.PENANATbF8vyqXuu
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果然。520Please respect copyright.PENANA2WqrrfzDtU
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不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。520Please respect copyright.PENANAq1jabjkVT1
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婆娑樹影之下、鳥叫蟲鳴之中,他繼續走。520Please respect copyright.PENANAI7p2Y5RoFc
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幽幽踏步慢慢走。
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死病老生——老520Please respect copyright.PENANAysFr5teoq7
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他在搖搖椅上猛然醒來。520Please respect copyright.PENANAxzlZc9EDIO
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望望掛鐘,七時半。該要喚醒孫兒。520Please respect copyright.PENANAOWFuy6FUCa
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輕敲孫兒房門,不聞回應。推門內進,不見孫兒身影。房內枱櫃床鋪依舊,掛牆照片卻變了樣——相中人稚嫩不再,五官英氣。他頓時意會到孫兒早已不再是黏人的小孩子,不需要他的照顧。520Please respect copyright.PENANAUNDrtyH06O
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若有所失。520Please respect copyright.PENANACZXXNP8Nmd
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到公園散心吧。520Please respect copyright.PENANAgv7TsGkElK
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公園裡,美好回憶俯拾皆是。520Please respect copyright.PENANADhLucN6i2D
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憶起跟妻子慢步於蟲鳴之中,憶起與兒子傻傻追尋鳥叫源頭,憶起和孫兒偷偷在樹身刻字。520Please respect copyright.PENANAKMOoh1a2lq
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離開緩步徑,闖入樹林。520Please respect copyright.PENANAC0WfB1LmF3
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找樹。找到那樹。520Please respect copyright.PENANANpGIoLQzLH
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不,不是它——因著樹身變得粗壯,刻記模糊難辨。520Please respect copyright.PENANA8SeOSSqWr9
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此樹不是當年那樹,正如現時的自己亦不是當年的自己。520Please respect copyright.PENANAyxrouGNyvk
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長大、老去、病倒、死亡,無論願意不願意。520Please respect copyright.PENANAl3yIJuIJgq
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不願意。520Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1b03IYGzz
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想逃。520Please respect copyright.PENANAyjR1PuKvlk
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逃!520Please respect copyright.PENANAIT6NnwHpuq
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逃出樹林。520Please respect copyright.PENANAK73JwBXIuN
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彷如隔世。520Please respect copyright.PENANAN37s1vBwOy
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陽光刺眼,氣溫熬人。不是回憶裡的現實。520Please respect copyright.PENANAl1ihi6S0YK
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倏忽忘了路,忘了如何走下去……520Please respect copyright.PENANAmicAs6VqFg
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一青年步入警署。520Please respect copyright.PENANAk2kpLCRFSU
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「你是誰?」520Please respect copyright.PENANAttp0asOFRN
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「我是你的孫兒。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAf9Ql7yqTla
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「嗯……」520Please respect copyright.PENANAmDASNwcY7g
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「爺爺,回家吧。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAlPxZfOkv1B
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「嗯……」520Please respect copyright.PENANAftxq2tMo1G
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家。他在搖搖椅上搖著、搖著,天花燈在眼前晃著、晃著,孫兒在廚房裡頭忙著、忙著。520Please respect copyright.PENANATDPEPOSFJ4
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一切近在眼前,卻又無比遙遠。反觀那些遠在天邊的,竟顯得如此接近。520Please respect copyright.PENANAnJnbUsdb76
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是否忘記了甚麼?520Please respect copyright.PENANAlACtVQu532
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目光無意間落在緊閉的主人房房門上——何解兒子沒有一起吃午餐?520Please respect copyright.PENANAfdAxpv8s20
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輕敲主人房房門,不聞回應。欲推門內進,卻發現房門上鎖——自己被兒子嫌棄了嗎?520Please respect copyright.PENANAWFA1lLJBrm
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激動。拍拍拍,踢踢踢,吵吵吵。520Please respect copyright.PENANAJQCUmBZwGx
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「快開門!我要跟你聊天!快開門!來!快開門!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAUJNwT0YlpC
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孫兒應聲衝出廚房,上前阻止他吵鬧。拍門的手轉而搥打孫兒。孫兒逆來順受,硬生生吃痛。520Please respect copyright.PENANAkzE0dBZmJ0
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「爸爸不在房間裡。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAjHU4bIFtKM
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「你騙我!他一定在裡面!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAO0ccCgIIwM
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「爺爺,你看看掛鐘——爸爸尚未下班,還在公司。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAHw8flhnFwY
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未下班?在公司?他瞄向掛鐘——的確未到兒子下班時間。可是總覺得有甚麼不對勁……520Please respect copyright.PENANAdWqCp4VGfk
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見他愣住,孫兒馬上抓緊時機分散他的注意力:「爺爺,不如一起到公園散步。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAyurGRYSYsQ
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公園裡,美好回憶俯拾皆是。520Please respect copyright.PENANA6CCo9T9t3o
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他享受沿路的樹影鳥蟲,孫兒只著眼於面前的佝僂身影——希望他忘記剛才的亂局吧,那就不用向他解釋家庭現況……520Please respect copyright.PENANA9m3RuzsTBs
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爸爸癱瘓後,媽媽獨力扛起家庭重擔。數年以來,乳臭未乾的孩子、癱瘓的丈夫、腦部日漸退化的家翁以及工作壓力狠狠將她壓垮。她捱不下去,離家出走。爸爸難以接受愛妻的絕情,一直鬱鬱寡歡。520Please respect copyright.PENANAoCsjxKTfUW
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某個深夜,忽聞爺爺自言自語。起床查探,驚見爺爺對著垂頭不動的爸爸侃侃而談。窗戶半掩,冷風吹得爸爸頭髮凌亂,臉色慘白。滿房遍地都是涼透的菸屁股。淡淡的菸味在鼻腔彌留不散,卻偏偏嗅不出半絲生命的氣息……520Please respect copyright.PENANAF9OPpr8ChQ
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他輕拍孫兒肩膀。520Please respect copyright.PENANAMdo19Z8gNq
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「不用發愁啊!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAq0ZEGxHhTm
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「你知道我在愁甚麼?」520Please respect copyright.PENANAPeGrVqqyzu
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「考試成績嘛!」520Please respect copyright.PENANALbgvSnIV1C
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「對!我就是擔心考試成績!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAKunsoRq5de
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「傻孩子!考試只是人生的一小部份,毋須將成績看得過份重要!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAYN8x0qtFJw
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「嗯,我知道了……」520Please respect copyright.PENANAYhb3zICzrk
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孫兒唯唯諾諾,以假笑作結。520Please respect copyright.PENANAFpUKmXMSjP
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結伴走了又一段路。520Please respect copyright.PENANAr572VbKqty
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他望望孫兒——像曾經的兒子,也像曾經的他。520Please respect copyright.PENANA8ky05Vx3z6
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憶起關於兒子的一切,憶起關於自己的一切。520Please respect copyright.PENANAxDYWMRUuC7
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希望孫身兒能夠好好活下去,活得比兒子好,活得比他好。520Please respect copyright.PENANAXyUp3q2cLc
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絕不能重覆亡妻與兒子的錯誤,留下一堆永遠沒解的執著予孫兒。520Please respect copyright.PENANA2XMIY9OoPE
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他輕拍孫兒肩膀。520Please respect copyright.PENANAUrTBMkZr7Q
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「不用發愁啊!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAFkJcjYJLcI
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「爺爺放心!考試而已,難不倒我!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAxOazU2r7wB
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「對於考試也好、爺爺也好,如果你累了,就乾脆放下吧!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAKqq5DiZOSk
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他淡然一笑,笑孫兒長高長肉不長大。520Please respect copyright.PENANAYel8w1qOiw
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孫兒傻了眼——他是真瘋或是假傻?520Please respect copyright.PENANANeiZsKQPPp
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沒待孫兒辨清真假,他已然幽幽踏步開步走。520Please respect copyright.PENANAorl4HeiGFb
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孫兒沒有追上。知道自己該要追上,但雙腳偏偏誠實地佇立原地——多麼希望爺爺可以從此消失。520Please respect copyright.PENANAkK0X50VZYE
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佝僂身影幽幽遠去,沒入婆娑樹影當中不復見。520Please respect copyright.PENANAOdjtQnsnPk
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鳥繼續叫,蟲繼續鳴,不過往後的夏天從此走了調。520Please respect copyright.PENANAKtTSk5WmUD
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沒有在意的人,沒有在意自己的人,無論願意不願意。520Please respect copyright.PENANAYc7C5BiFDW
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幽幽踏步慢慢走。慢慢記起很多,慢慢忘記很多。520Please respect copyright.PENANANQqTR6i13r
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忘記為何自己會獨自一人走在樹林當中。520Please respect copyright.PENANAY9M605HODG
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找樹?找不到那樹。520Please respect copyright.PENANAay85jg5KRU
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樹不是當年那樹,正如現時的自己亦不是當年的自己。520Please respect copyright.PENANAD4SYOCLWrg
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長大、老去、病倒、死亡,無論願意不願意。520Please respect copyright.PENANAAK11j7AvRA
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願意。520Please respect copyright.PENANAxEKMjJgj3Z
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無謂白花力氣去逃避。無人能夠逃過生老病死。520Please respect copyright.PENANAEx2TLZ7KMU
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身累,心累。就此停下來,可以嗎……520Please respect copyright.PENANA8VT7AAnSS2
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一青年步入醫院。520Please respect copyright.PENANAWledRwDYmF
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「你是誰?」520Please respect copyright.PENANAAnzcuxiB94
520Please respect copyright.PENANAtHsFC9AD3C
「我是你的孫兒。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAEE9BAt3IfK
520Please respect copyright.PENANAozPzA00KsY
「嗯……」520Please respect copyright.PENANAuotfXNY7SD
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「爺爺,回家吧。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAcv1nIuokJ7
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「嗯……」
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死病老生——生520Please respect copyright.PENANAksifvli4EE
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他在輪椅上猛然醒來。520Please respect copyright.PENANA5c6rkNzjA1
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。520Please respect copyright.PENANAvdVyqk5nsw
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爺孫二人身處公園大道上。520Please respect copyright.PENANA85CCdREq87
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「口渴嗎?來,喝些許清水吧!」520Please respect copyright.PENANAx3xzmPR1i1
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孫兒停步,從背囊掏出保溫水壺,欠身將插於壺嘴的飲管置於他雙唇之間。520Please respect copyright.PENANAmvP0O5NbOI
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他沒有吸吮。520Please respect copyright.PENANAnSiog3mgBG
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孫兒保持這姿勢好一會,惟見他沒反應,也只好收起水壺。520Please respect copyright.PENANAWDYUSel08V
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罷。520Please respect copyright.PENANAAYyDhIz08u
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。520Please respect copyright.PENANA84Ze0ZUbJj
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他覺得這地方很眼熟,卻又苦苦想不起更多關於這地方的回應。520Please respect copyright.PENANALQpWqGtghu
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不要緊。520Please respect copyright.PENANAhXEeADc0i4
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反正該是不重要的事情——自己寶刀未老,才未糊塗得忘記重要事情。520Please respect copyright.PENANADSlP2qjjON
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他仍是那個身體健康的他,每天為養活妻兒勞碌奔波。妻子貪吃,尤愛「菠蘿油」,於是他偶爾會帶她到冰廳享用下午茶。兒子是個單純正直的小孩,深信「一分耕耘,一分收穫」,於是他一直暗暗為兒子籌謀、護航……他很自豪,自覺是個好丈夫、好爸爸。520Please respect copyright.PENANAoljEfuQvYb
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嘴角輕揚。520Please respect copyright.PENANAxtBwoj0sn5
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一。520Please respect copyright.PENANAZR0a6v68E4
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三。520Please respect copyright.PENANAtYCiFRiPy0
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那抹難以察覺的微笑僅維持了三秒。520Please respect copyright.PENANAaJd9SyTd7i
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三秒後,他忘記了前三秒的快樂,正如他忘記了大半生的重要人事物。520Please respect copyright.PENANAKFs4gXgg6B
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要緊的,不再要緊。520Please respect copyright.PENANAWtVsNK50ER
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罷。520Please respect copyright.PENANA3EkAoiwJh0
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。520Please respect copyright.PENANAfgDlKeINZX
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循著鳥蟲之聲,他的眼珠子微微往上瞄。葉間隙縫的陽光誘人卻刺眼。520Please respect copyright.PENANAfSRQRHas4e
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輪椅一直前進,映入眼簾的紛亂光影不斷交替、退去、消失。520Please respect copyright.PENANAtvaJznnp6m
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在最後的最後,他眼前只餘一盞佇立於公園外的交通燈。520Please respect copyright.PENANAAQY3xRvcFc
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紅燈。520Please respect copyright.PENANAq9K1yHgTQZ
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「爺爺,這可能是我們最後一次一起逛公園。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAXFIlP5gUmD
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孫兒彷彿自言自語。520Please respect copyright.PENANAynqr5EKiJu
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綠燈。520Please respect copyright.PENANALkGpp9TVbO
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孫兒沒有開步走。520Please respect copyright.PENANAPkp5AFQCBr
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紅燈。520Please respect copyright.PENANAUQIfBtnhEk
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「爺爺,我日後會盡量抽時間去探望你。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAVUgAjyhhJZ
520Please respect copyright.PENANAtH3fPAbOPl
孫兒彷彿對空氣許下諾言。520Please respect copyright.PENANAZn3MHQlJeX
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綠燈。520Please respect copyright.PENANAqk8lEFho1p
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孫兒仍然沒有開步走。520Please respect copyright.PENANAQcp0brI04u
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紅燈。520Please respect copyright.PENANAh8Z57kiLsc
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「爺爺,你會怪責我嗎?」520Please respect copyright.PENANAldqaqWKvrT
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孫兒問空氣,縱使知道空氣沒能回應。520Please respect copyright.PENANAcVq5sYN3MX
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綠燈。520Please respect copyright.PENANAgYU9NDexxk
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「爺爺,放心。我會努力繼續走。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAGiLVwasniX
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孫兒抿抿雙唇,藏起憂思,推著輪椅開步走。520Please respect copyright.PENANAZb6f3GDxeP
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總得走下去,不是嗎?不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。520Please respect copyright.PENANABmNTAAbHFh
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這是從他身上學懂的。520Please respect copyright.PENANAcZCac06THc
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一生受用。520Please respect copyright.PENANAp5U3DYN1VZ
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「爺爺,謝謝你。」520Please respect copyright.PENANAziyH3G6oI2
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孫兒的話猶如耳邊風,進不了他的耳,到不了他的心。520Please respect copyright.PENANAno5UXV6YHt
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要緊的,其實不要緊。520Please respect copyright.PENANAtnCHXwcfTs
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罷。520Please respect copyright.PENANATZ2kYa3EGY
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他被送上安老院專車。520Please respect copyright.PENANAcA4rdNUkSl
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車窗外,無光街燈迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。520Please respect copyright.PENANAfnvIBpbOHB
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腦海裡,無數樹影鳥蟲交替、退去、消失。520Please respect copyright.PENANAvFkMQEkL9i
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他被動地遠離昔日一切。520Please respect copyright.PENANAj7qhutU9cS
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要緊的,不再要緊。520Please respect copyright.PENANAzUSI444otB
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他克盡己任,沒有遺憾。520Please respect copyright.PENANAT4U4odt0h2
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他忘記前塵,沒有執著。520Please respect copyright.PENANAw79DQan7ZP
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有如被踐踏的梳化,有如被點燃的香菸,有如被吞吃的「菠蘿油」。520Please respect copyright.PENANASK4kDkUU1M
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毫不在意未來的每個夏日。