Matt154Please respect copyright.PENANAlpUDY1uIzv
My head is spinning. Between the weed, the vodka, and the blood trickling from my arm.154Please respect copyright.PENANARnB3Dx1nS3
You should just kill yourself.154Please respect copyright.PENANA49lxIOMXDT
No no no no.....154Please respect copyright.PENANAYFWgCRTbzN
Once those thoughts intrude, it's over.
Fuck.154Please respect copyright.PENANA1eM4cba1b5
The one person who liked you, the one person who wanted you, doesn't want you anymore. Now what? my inner voice reminds me.154Please respect copyright.PENANAXsTBWljhly
I grab the bottle of vodka and take another swig, hoping to drown out the thoughts, knowing damn well, alcohol will make it worst.154Please respect copyright.PENANABOWkSMrUeR
Why would she do that to me? I fucking hate her.154Please respect copyright.PENANAmEKsvsY9ZH
But I love her so, so much.
I want her right now.
I need her so badly.154Please respect copyright.PENANAsyC5ztotJb
I can feel my mind caving in. Too many emotions are pouring down on me, like a never-ending rainstorm.
I haven't shed one tear since I got here, and it's getting awfully hard to hold back. I feel like sobbing for days on end, but I know if I start......I'll never stop.154Please respect copyright.PENANAWTpwLYyiwj
I hear Novah's voice in my head.154Please respect copyright.PENANAzdzRQbyNz4
My beautiful boy......154Please respect copyright.PENANAvKsHuMvygM
It gave me so much hope that she thought I was beautiful. That she thought I was good. All my life, I've been told I was bad. A suspect.154Please respect copyright.PENANAn1ndbrJEKP
Someone finally thought I was worthy. The way she would look into my eyes and run her fingers through my hair. She would kiss my lips so gently like she was afraid to break me or something. She treated me like I was precious.
And now......now.......she doesn't want me anymore.
I'm discarded trash just like I was before.
That thought is so painful. I get that sinking feeling in my gut and it starts to get hard to breathe.
My hands are trembling and the cuts I just recently made are still bleeding, I didn't even bother to clean them or anything. I'm letting the blood flow freely.154Please respect copyright.PENANA1LvrjZJXNH
Just then, something dawns on me.
What if I just end it all, right now?
All my suffering would be over.
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