沖繩一役，那新加坡男生一席話繞在心頭，重重纏上了蠢蠢欲動的主意，五月，六月，七月，破繭而出。以送自己一份生日禮物為名，報了潛水班。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHV5BKMiBN
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一切只是藉口。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6phmizkwj
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我當然清楚，所以才找上最瑰麗堂皇的藉口堵住我媽的嘴。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfHIOGfKza
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「別吵，這是我的自費生日禮物。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5PSppD8oQ
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常言道：無仇不父子。我跟我媽大概就是女的版本。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfy1Ihbg2iU
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我媽總是很怕我玩水上活動，我爸倒是聽我要去滑浪才有反應，對擅水性的我來講這種怕很莫名其妙。「欺山莫欺水。」這句老話也成為了他們反對的理由。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EBbOXWaZb
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其實我知道不無道理。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAWTR3YPCG
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溺水死的人往往亦是擅水性的人。因為無懼，也因為習慣，繼而一心二用、三用，忽略了潛在危險。那蟄伏於暗處的毒蛇將看準時機，在你自曝其短時，牠忍一時讓你被興奮蒙蔽雙目，退一步任你在身邊得意忘形躺下，當致命點滿身露出時利齒狠狠咬噬，恐慌擴張你的毛孔，毒即躥入骨髓。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhaqHm8WHZ
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當我在看書本理論時，我已經跟朋友說：「他講的危險在我來講不算什麼，我很大機會因此死在海裡。但請記緊，我甘願。」 朋友苦笑望著我，無話可說。
對於大海眷戀我不欲再多費筆墨解釋，畢竟在《大海，我的母親！》已將話說盡。直到同學一句：「你怎麼想學潛水？」才驚覺我對他人學潛水的原因了無興趣。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tZ1hO96sW
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當然，沒天真的以為大家都因為喜歡才報名。只是同時也不在意別人因為什麼而報名。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxcQv0M7fb
我的目標筆直且堅定一如千年高杉木直指天際，風吹亦改不了方向。人生苦短，世界無道，一想到終身亦得鞠身聽某君意見，側耳受某人教晦，慢慢地顧慮太多，迷失方向，成了園景松樹，曲撓屈折，便無法忍受。故此，我不愛別人左右我，自己同樣不欲為難他人，乾脆觀察細聽。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzArtiZIhqT
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「有後悔學潛水嗎？」考試後教練邊啃著泰式豬扒飯邊問。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUfD12AZSm
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年少輕狂時，我會答：「後悔？我的字典裡沒有後悔。」我爸總說：「做了決定就別後悔！」將它套入我固執的個性中，一如完美盔甲。但人生總有遺憾！有時你難免會想——336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQbPaj69YO
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如果當日沒做這決定一切會不一樣嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkIT53SSoS
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如果當日我沒對你坦誠，今日我們依舊親密如初嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDLpHnG7rg
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如果當日我講話婉轉些許，今日你我就能和睦相處嗎？
但人生沒那麼多如果。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdMGV0XZtm
甚至如果真的發生了，結局也許差距不大。人和人之間不盡是誤會，有時候根本性的問題擋在關係之間許久，只是我們視若無睹。時機不對，問題未解，怎麼轉換選擇亦是無果。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxH4Fe4Q4WM
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我只答了句：「我很清楚自己要什麼。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnNkfbamOb
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教練點點頭，啜了口椰青「那你為什麼學潛水？因為沒人有礙著你，可以清靜思考嗎？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjLUtVhQPG
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聽罷，我半頓。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdisMsNOspp
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這問題我倒是沒想過。倒是今天同學上海時講了句：「在海底很適合冥想。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtW00JZ1ZX
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思考不在於環境，在於傾聽與回應內心。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUp5He9NRZV
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我沒將想法告之教練，轉而告訴了他我在沖繩的經歷，教練點點頭，反向問了我好幾個問題，言語間我隱隱望見自己在他心裡的形象：先想後做真需要才問，惜字如金。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW5hC3LPBr
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「其實這樣不就和潛水很相同嗎？」我笑了笑，拌著青檸梳打「海底生物活命本事在於處變不驚，一不動，一動則快狠準。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4Hed0ktIb
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教練笑了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPb0DNUbF44
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對話也纏在腳腕下沉。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp37HMowxLT
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下沉，冒泡，隨水流飄揚。
