一起床已到九時，要還的時間未免太多了吧。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIazN6BE4FZ
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我換好衣服出門，在等待升降機時發了「投降」的短訊給上司。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahPZ9t8xJB
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到車上也是一直的休息。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUja0KFaGV
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看來世事還真的是等價交換，你總不可能永遠的利用著時間而放棄休息。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOVaLBcVcf
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回到公司也沒甚麼特別的事，但「自由兼職者」的工作由我要來善後，太多的錯處。我也有疏忽監管的責任。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoog5Nsc6c
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由於工作的關係，我盡量也沒有找她，忍耐着。也沒有什麼想太多，也做着一些閒事、加入同事說關於無聊的話題。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziJMg3sK82
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無聊的應對。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zD5LPCwI9
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心底裏整天都在思考「愛」的問題。究竟愛是什麼？我的愛和她的愛又是什麼？那是因為昨日聽到初中女孩們對話的因由。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8iy4VDpkg
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因為我對愛的觀念很不同，對我來說找到愛的人、對的人我就會非常珍惜，儘管美麗的誘惑或者好感，我也覺得比不上她。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUiyz8Vxie
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那是確確實實我真誠的答案。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHSyxeVmMX
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是十多年來得出的答案。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSDivAxBHl
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與在我讀設計後，我很清楚自己的需要，也很相信自己的眼光。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUS0opfElN4
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而我相信現在的她需要的應該是熱戀的感覺，看到她的反應，就和我了解的她一樣，寫到這裏嘆了一口氣。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb30xCc0QRT
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我也很相信是我「離開」了十個月的報應。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIAUmsR2oV
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我很清楚她需要的是什麼，就是原本我會做的東西：493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55bMzx3ZME
精心設計的旅程；493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGRbVjXVOa
驚喜的禮物；493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwOZ6jwfol
做給她的手工藝；493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1jvEvMCk6
畫給她的畫；493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhRP17qiH4
還有勇敢果斷有正義感的「本我」。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFVw2FgTFm
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結果整天都在思考，也想起MLA的歌，內容說着不同的偉人對於愛的解讀：493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKFAd9YhY8
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「耶穌說的愛是無條件的、獻身的，493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnd9FlqwQmJ
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奧修說的愛是能量的互動、是自由的、無束縛的，493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5p3DylGPa
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昆德拉說的愛是機遇的、偶然的、命定的，493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJmG8G6Oqn
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高達說的愛是刺激的、好玩的、有今生沒來世的、哲學的，493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9QC6IlKGs
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小津安二郎說的愛是溫柔的、隱藏的、非愛的，493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2a5EVoo2o
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畢卡索說的愛是經驗的、性慾的、美好的，493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XhZ7Xvje8
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夏卡爾說的愛是聖潔的、救贖的、唯一的。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJvztyTC6J
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聽着也很難理解。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuqxC4dEF3
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晚上九時，我到運動場跑步時，查了一下維基百科，「愛」和「既視感」。「本我」是對我有感覺的字，很喜歡。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEf63ZshLN1
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既視感也是其中之一，因為我是一個很愛做夢的人。做夢時，常會看到一些似曾相識又毫無記憶的事物。現實時，看到一些在夢中看過的事物感到似曾相識。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuGWkh8JcZ
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我會感覺到很神奇，很浪漫。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEMx5NnelX
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而「愛」在我看完維基百科，理解的是「人類的本能」，過於複雜是因為人性。基本有寫到愛情三角論：親密、激情、承諾。而衍生出的一個「元素表」，直白而又殘酷。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaI5pm2P8b
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愛的風格比較有趣的是利他的愛：493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgEC6de4fh
「完全無私的愛，可不惜傷害自己或捨棄任何東西，重視神交。現代多半喜歡稱呼這種愛為『真愛』。」493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVFv6GL7Us
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我大概對她就是這一種愛。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDO5YndRo7
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愛的階段說出來就像她在我「離開」短短時間的轉變過程。情慾、吸引、最後依附，到情消失後，由熱愛轉為友愛，由浪漫轉為好感。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7jczOq8lr
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和她那一天告訴我的一樣。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeum8mOgMV
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回家洗澡後，我拿出為她畫的貓畫簿，那是我很久之前已經開始畫的畫簿，那是我想念她的方式。而我不否認很久也沒有畫新作品，可能是覺得我和她的時間還有很多，可以慢慢到一起生活時才畫我們一起養的貓而特意留給牠們幾頁。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjY7XSHwrV
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也可能是這兩年我對於貓沒有太大的靈感，在我生活的地方，流浪貓走的也走了，而她養的一隻貓也同樣走了，這也是令我很傷心的事。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAd1Ufmq3t
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在夜裏，我畫的貓是我在「第四天」拍下的照片作參考──即是她家裏的貓。那張照片是我的左手摸貓貓的頭，而貓貓也很溫馴地把頭向左貼着我的手。而我用了我很少用的木顏色作畫，那木顏色是她和我一起買的。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOp158DiXR
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靈感也到了，影響了挑選顏色的感覺。用了紅色代表我，藍色代表貓貓，取代了鉛筆的黑色。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6vAa3PhDZ
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我就這樣坐在工作台前，在殘黃的坐枱燈下作畫，直至太陽升起。493Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRd3OvgJ8T
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完成一張畫。
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