「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」115Please respect copyright.PENANACG3VYOLefo
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩115Please respect copyright.PENANAM42xAhFkHf
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路115Please respect copyright.PENANAEAXn4MvNno
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」115Please respect copyright.PENANAonKAHKRzV7
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。115Please respect copyright.PENANAQd2YTtPKm0
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫115Please respect copyright.PENANA2XsGRYJlcR
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了115Please respect copyright.PENANAv4n7qdDLfV
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫115Please respect copyright.PENANA02dyHEzEgH
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯115Please respect copyright.PENANALq3LIazem2
拿起手機看了看日期115Please respect copyright.PENANAhdQHoC40oq
今天是2月28日115Please respect copyright.PENANAVqHmIlX6e5
於是我換上了運動服115Please respect copyright.PENANA87YnYtzq06
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服115Please respect copyright.PENANAjWIkT9MkpM
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子115Please respect copyright.PENANAepmfkG0NcW
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。115Please respect copyright.PENANAIcfpu2PxQF
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進115Please respect copyright.PENANArsO3PhJfqN
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應115Please respect copyright.PENANA6lM0hU34O2
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受115Please respect copyright.PENANATCATYKdut0
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問115Please respect copyright.PENANA3btC2h8syx
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想115Please respect copyright.PENANAKPbtTwknwP
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想115Please respect copyright.PENANAPMQdwv4SNL
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道115Please respect copyright.PENANArubXwlPer2
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天115Please respect copyright.PENANAqbFApFpTPJ
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲115Please respect copyright.PENANAWZE1sLP46X
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門115Please respect copyright.PENANADE3fhYAKfg
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的115Please respect copyright.PENANA1rO6jCVNBz
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色115Please respect copyright.PENANABQhiuPjNOU
對我來說那便是理想115Please respect copyright.PENANAP6AnV9FYFd
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色115Please respect copyright.PENANAVEoXVfbx4w
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼115Please respect copyright.PENANASeMFkUEU5C
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見115Please respect copyright.PENANAc6SqPxbUwq
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心115Please respect copyright.PENANACJkXCW7iWr
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身115Please respect copyright.PENANAPGoP5bFvFm
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般115Please respect copyright.PENANA5U2RyWdbb8
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話115Please respect copyright.PENANARplgudX8vK
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。115Please respect copyright.PENANA4fQvO6tF33
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說115Please respect copyright.PENANAgN122l532S
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流115Please respect copyright.PENANAwwcJaXYt3b
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息115Please respect copyright.PENANAJfJi60SwsM
「跟理想完全不同呢。」115Please respect copyright.PENANAjf2Sa2KM3u
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館115Please respect copyright.PENANAZOQEkOHL4Q
我喜歡圖書館115Please respect copyright.PENANAawc2PogNFY
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般115Please respect copyright.PENANAx1m1TfNV28
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?115Please respect copyright.PENANAuu6qhdI026
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?115Please respect copyright.PENANAcA6mCCxkNK
找到了、找到了、找到了?115Please respect copyright.PENANAyX01ZVdTF9
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出115Please respect copyright.PENANAIcjbTqZtKU
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般115Please respect copyright.PENANAffQkgRS8D3
這種行為讓我露出了笑容115Please respect copyright.PENANAZaD1ekreGk
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容115Please respect copyright.PENANAFYww732ycn
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來115Please respect copyright.PENANAnM9OVatJZi
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿115Please respect copyright.PENANAjViH1NqGtk
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子115Please respect copyright.PENANAVtjLKJZF0T
我似乎迷上了那種血腥115Please respect copyright.PENANAzNrNKLGaXb
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)115Please respect copyright.PENANAmjxsIMwdwd
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩115Please respect copyright.PENANAW6Iwy0jU0g
眼前一黑115Please respect copyright.PENANA2je4gI5nVR
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧115Please respect copyright.PENANA5jko85N33F
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼115Please respect copyright.PENANA23S3cvHIio
強光...?115Please respect copyright.PENANAyRkf7iJ2Fo
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。115Please respect copyright.PENANAvk5RjVDj8Y
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光115Please respect copyright.PENANA5EpFRfoe6g
睜開眼看見開闊的草原115Please respect copyright.PENANAhXFVQQX7XX
草原?115Please respect copyright.PENANAP4ZSpB58vC
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能115Please respect copyright.PENANAGV5r0bWXUm
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?115Please respect copyright.PENANA1QpGazCjY4
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著115Please respect copyright.PENANAHmN6g8NFXR
笑?115Please respect copyright.PENANArSVwdHjfgw
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?115Please respect copyright.PENANA4X7n8qprkF
狂笑著115Please respect copyright.PENANA3XvJYAjfcp
打從生下來第一次的115Please respect copyright.PENANAjtrCz8QWtt
扭曲的狂笑115Please respect copyright.PENANA6d3jRrSygg
醜陋的狂笑115Please respect copyright.PENANAATvyyjPA3C
像個小丑一般舞蹈著115Please respect copyright.PENANANHsCsMhbMH
純白的毛球向我撲來115Please respect copyright.PENANAH3cCLLkPXr
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音115Please respect copyright.PENANAsksfA70Prv
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去115Please respect copyright.PENANAiPjPrcaKdI
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色115Please respect copyright.PENANAeumiAIv1vm
右手感到重量,看向自己的手115Please respect copyright.PENANARGwfAPF0TJ
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀115Please respect copyright.PENANAdvq4cQCDqm
又來了,又笑了115Please respect copyright.PENANAzENbbxfo3K
笑了、笑了、笑了?115Please respect copyright.PENANAYGTbWFkvSC
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆115Please respect copyright.PENANAXS0E6N14LZ
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」115Please respect copyright.PENANAHttSEMxbcD
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」115Please respect copyright.PENANA2BkHuj5CWT
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存115Please respect copyright.PENANAywz640kQWN
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去115Please respect copyright.PENANAbzOEQOSZ0O
我本來就是為了借書而來115Please respect copyright.PENANANyC3BEcvyU
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物115Please respect copyright.PENANAcWfzFVC7Xk
血液四散、內臟也散落一地115Please respect copyright.PENANAE5lNKQO64i
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道115Please respect copyright.PENANAUJiZjvL2ov
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉115Please respect copyright.PENANAxJn3aJktV7
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣115Please respect copyright.PENANAw7yrINvD92
我仍穿著高中制服115Please respect copyright.PENANANkO5CFqgbK
但步伐變得輕盈115Please respect copyright.PENANAtd76H0RLDc
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界115Please respect copyright.PENANAvCNZUNJHT1
走在草原上與一群人相遇115Please respect copyright.PENANA3OvyWxOKSI
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人115Please respect copyright.PENANAsY7i02o8Nk
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外115Please respect copyright.PENANACUORxM22za
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫115Please respect copyright.PENANAlxql6Qoz56
嘈雜。115Please respect copyright.PENANAqNhJUevOyW
好討厭阿,好吵阿115Please respect copyright.PENANAh48M2tlyO1
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」115Please respect copyright.PENANAcBfOkLje8u
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道115Please respect copyright.PENANAWomDQtE7O8
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙115Please respect copyright.PENANA6PskxSR8dz
一名少女獨自站著?115Please respect copyright.PENANAtxaUl3iG7a
靜謐。115Please respect copyright.PENANA2KLtFEvM8R
不再有人發問115Please respect copyright.PENANADndsUb6Y2X
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀115Please respect copyright.PENANAuoE39ZdL4Y
看見自己的笑容115Please respect copyright.PENANA7o9m6QtXT4
看見了人類的頭顱115Please respect copyright.PENANAhu1hT6AFuY
看見了115Please respect copyright.PENANAv8TO3Hbzhu
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般115Please respect copyright.PENANAOElj4SR0Jg
奇怪的夢境115Please respect copyright.PENANAsDvs4BLjYN
我果然是瘋了吧115Please respect copyright.PENANAWHETkgxd32
但我再怎麼瘋狂115Please respect copyright.PENANAydIUJQDTDV
應該也不會去殺人115Please respect copyright.PENANA7eaZSybnXK
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有115Please respect copyright.PENANA8w5yRtpJyB
夢中的我在笑115Please respect copyright.PENANAbVUVtu7Jr0
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道115Please respect copyright.PENANAdBtRngjZhb
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著115Please respect copyright.PENANAfyedxDGoi0
「2月2日」115Please respect copyright.PENANAmVNnKHkDBY