「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」116Please respect copyright.PENANAF7IxeXR3bG
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩116Please respect copyright.PENANAsVoiG78gyP
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路116Please respect copyright.PENANArDO3FA5Ot0
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」116Please respect copyright.PENANAdqDSdj4c68
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。116Please respect copyright.PENANAZfF2gXFhTw
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫116Please respect copyright.PENANALE1Wk5wMYm
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了116Please respect copyright.PENANAF71BtTZgAN
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫116Please respect copyright.PENANA3KvNQa96us
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯116Please respect copyright.PENANAkMGB6ydUkp
拿起手機看了看日期116Please respect copyright.PENANAOaQsDE5HRL
今天是2月28日116Please respect copyright.PENANAxMArDxx0bH
於是我換上了運動服116Please respect copyright.PENANAWBTQWu2Bog
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服116Please respect copyright.PENANA73T8fuzsu1
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子116Please respect copyright.PENANAn0niWHaGqG
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。116Please respect copyright.PENANAtlLh8YX95E
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進116Please respect copyright.PENANAYPc4HdTzFb
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應116Please respect copyright.PENANAL4ytNTx7Ax
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受116Please respect copyright.PENANAfBWKiRetda
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問116Please respect copyright.PENANA9CvXe9Hlki
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想116Please respect copyright.PENANALdJRnt0yE3
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想116Please respect copyright.PENANARTaPjJvYF5
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道116Please respect copyright.PENANAj2D3MYdA3H
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天116Please respect copyright.PENANA9ltYP0NbM2
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲116Please respect copyright.PENANARdyiQPFto9
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門116Please respect copyright.PENANA6lnr4Nj7CA
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的116Please respect copyright.PENANAzlQzJpJxPL
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色116Please respect copyright.PENANAmJEiZLINEp
對我來說那便是理想116Please respect copyright.PENANAtXnieSbMbV
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色116Please respect copyright.PENANAr5JpX0VmMr
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼116Please respect copyright.PENANANk1EBo53CC
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見116Please respect copyright.PENANABuo6kve1a3
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心116Please respect copyright.PENANAakjuxQmaDO
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身116Please respect copyright.PENANAkzKRk0TrjY
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般116Please respect copyright.PENANAMvR2guuG68
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話116Please respect copyright.PENANAFJjNfkLr79
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。116Please respect copyright.PENANAgsKYu3yWoJ
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說116Please respect copyright.PENANAu3TNSARBmn
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流116Please respect copyright.PENANAW8mVegD98c
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息116Please respect copyright.PENANAWLouCgsmOu
「跟理想完全不同呢。」116Please respect copyright.PENANAs6S5kKBKMW
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館116Please respect copyright.PENANAPwKJkhG9cc
我喜歡圖書館116Please respect copyright.PENANAKYj2Gba4m3
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般116Please respect copyright.PENANAWFOnCyVsGW
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?116Please respect copyright.PENANAuioRLL4pBu
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?116Please respect copyright.PENANAsAqbaxZJpW
找到了、找到了、找到了?116Please respect copyright.PENANAiLfPcwhW9c
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出116Please respect copyright.PENANAuzuV65DUzB
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般116Please respect copyright.PENANAPctX9gnC2o
這種行為讓我露出了笑容116Please respect copyright.PENANAoZwNFBpDN0
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容116Please respect copyright.PENANA2Yi9z2NeId
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來116Please respect copyright.PENANAPjv3ukQLIU
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿116Please respect copyright.PENANAEPyslSTRIj
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子116Please respect copyright.PENANARAvqvTmkYT
我似乎迷上了那種血腥116Please respect copyright.PENANAJJe59BM4vC
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)116Please respect copyright.PENANA0H86GN1glS
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩116Please respect copyright.PENANAVQEP1lJdQC
眼前一黑116Please respect copyright.PENANAOfx2WsrxqZ
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧116Please respect copyright.PENANALCqaSpCDSX
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼116Please respect copyright.PENANAdzxDEnqFSy
強光...?116Please respect copyright.PENANAuZYvmCOSD0
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。116Please respect copyright.PENANATUvGYqcFX9
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光116Please respect copyright.PENANAPcbq0GAjoX
睜開眼看見開闊的草原116Please respect copyright.PENANA5W6elRunc9
草原?116Please respect copyright.PENANAVRAq8t3yGB
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能116Please respect copyright.PENANAv9mWcSEo5s
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?116Please respect copyright.PENANAl3sMV2BlYz
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著116Please respect copyright.PENANAHrhppXBGpU
笑?116Please respect copyright.PENANAoK93CZBd7d
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?116Please respect copyright.PENANArX7Hw1UxSC
狂笑著116Please respect copyright.PENANAXGcEmOb2Dt
打從生下來第一次的116Please respect copyright.PENANAeqavxuO2ZR
扭曲的狂笑116Please respect copyright.PENANAAmnfG0OQPk
醜陋的狂笑116Please respect copyright.PENANAWuunoFcJSS
像個小丑一般舞蹈著116Please respect copyright.PENANApkF19GMJrG
純白的毛球向我撲來116Please respect copyright.PENANAvaSzhCRSPJ
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音116Please respect copyright.PENANALnvCmkiBMD
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去116Please respect copyright.PENANA3n2skBIxhb
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色116Please respect copyright.PENANAzAZ40y91CA
右手感到重量,看向自己的手116Please respect copyright.PENANAhCPInZq7V2
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀116Please respect copyright.PENANAJAPE4aYsdZ
又來了,又笑了116Please respect copyright.PENANA7gJSf4uukt
笑了、笑了、笑了?116Please respect copyright.PENANAIJ3jhfKDed
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆116Please respect copyright.PENANAiJMxSs93ew
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」116Please respect copyright.PENANAP4CdPGw7uO
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」116Please respect copyright.PENANA9BVSQxStol
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存116Please respect copyright.PENANAkCKbuw4mLU
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去116Please respect copyright.PENANATYp70GcTBk
我本來就是為了借書而來116Please respect copyright.PENANAjVAfAYrhrY
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物116Please respect copyright.PENANAZod5bOSBRv
血液四散、內臟也散落一地116Please respect copyright.PENANAFk95z3ZyaU
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道116Please respect copyright.PENANAjRj72bAECn
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉116Please respect copyright.PENANA2BaTIhYYQl
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣116Please respect copyright.PENANAOIqJ0EuExw
我仍穿著高中制服116Please respect copyright.PENANAKnLGxi4PmB
但步伐變得輕盈116Please respect copyright.PENANACejcQz5IKp
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界116Please respect copyright.PENANApafZz2ji2n
走在草原上與一群人相遇116Please respect copyright.PENANAmh8ip4VghW
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人116Please respect copyright.PENANAtKVzI29kiO
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外116Please respect copyright.PENANAHctyj8H0vI
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫116Please respect copyright.PENANAiJ73lbDkLT
嘈雜。116Please respect copyright.PENANAv9HgJZAdMj
好討厭阿,好吵阿116Please respect copyright.PENANALQhvSmjGp8
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」116Please respect copyright.PENANAUbMOJEI4RJ
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道116Please respect copyright.PENANASnMx4Ttd6X
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙116Please respect copyright.PENANA0Y62MB5yG2
一名少女獨自站著?116Please respect copyright.PENANA5vsnRxAD9P
靜謐。116Please respect copyright.PENANAef8d3UdTw3
不再有人發問116Please respect copyright.PENANA1R7mfTFRJ6
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀116Please respect copyright.PENANASDjYlMCFui
看見自己的笑容116Please respect copyright.PENANAGp2XgweGLr
看見了人類的頭顱116Please respect copyright.PENANAiaeQnl13SM
看見了116Please respect copyright.PENANANZ88aE6T8O
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般116Please respect copyright.PENANAq9RsyAMn6R
奇怪的夢境116Please respect copyright.PENANAzwQJJBSflk
我果然是瘋了吧116Please respect copyright.PENANA1MAX4hANcy
但我再怎麼瘋狂116Please respect copyright.PENANA9gGmjvmUNg
應該也不會去殺人116Please respect copyright.PENANAbf8jZuHnVW
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有116Please respect copyright.PENANASKMJ6IBZDL
夢中的我在笑116Please respect copyright.PENANAQZw3E0tc4x
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道116Please respect copyright.PENANA3aOk7YD4zC
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著116Please respect copyright.PENANAboFBmV76iC
「2月2日」116Please respect copyright.PENANAqa3CUVkntK