「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」114Please respect copyright.PENANAI0UsuCTwUd
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩114Please respect copyright.PENANAyc0PZu2ybN
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路114Please respect copyright.PENANAxRVCZwVsO9
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」114Please respect copyright.PENANACJnZsOhNJa
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。114Please respect copyright.PENANAWyhqpRTaNY
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫114Please respect copyright.PENANAgKOZWLdDSY
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了114Please respect copyright.PENANAMtE2JzsMPh
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫114Please respect copyright.PENANArOC0kOSTXQ
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯114Please respect copyright.PENANAkE2W8cbYce
拿起手機看了看日期114Please respect copyright.PENANAcG8qR16OTY
今天是2月28日114Please respect copyright.PENANAOtWKAzDRcf
於是我換上了運動服114Please respect copyright.PENANAXUtG7Q8RUO
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服114Please respect copyright.PENANAfKkG3Rq8FY
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子114Please respect copyright.PENANAEuelZiRAqU
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。114Please respect copyright.PENANAM38MzJj130
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進114Please respect copyright.PENANARhp0SMsGvW
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應114Please respect copyright.PENANAIUZWKgBqUJ
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受114Please respect copyright.PENANALUwbZMqBqY
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問114Please respect copyright.PENANAOrneBmL3A1
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想114Please respect copyright.PENANAlEYg97iKbz
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想114Please respect copyright.PENANAeKI7XkmpEG
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道114Please respect copyright.PENANArh2rP0eHby
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天114Please respect copyright.PENANA0wbz5gxi7g
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲114Please respect copyright.PENANAT5PlnCAgkT
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門114Please respect copyright.PENANAFt5d3XV9jy
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的114Please respect copyright.PENANABMbzrVKhni
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色114Please respect copyright.PENANAJOcVF094q6
對我來說那便是理想114Please respect copyright.PENANA0oeBjKzni1
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色114Please respect copyright.PENANArH33aBzrLi
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼114Please respect copyright.PENANAWHL5CPApiG
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見114Please respect copyright.PENANAhTkiKW5h9q
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心114Please respect copyright.PENANAH219RKwGEf
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身114Please respect copyright.PENANAjUhF6uimag
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般114Please respect copyright.PENANApkMfEBCZ8J
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話114Please respect copyright.PENANAvoZXqCDwCS
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。114Please respect copyright.PENANAoOdrLlKfNm
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說114Please respect copyright.PENANAE53JYekyqs
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流114Please respect copyright.PENANAuhWGefFnDk
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息114Please respect copyright.PENANAS0CKIsyfSA
「跟理想完全不同呢。」114Please respect copyright.PENANAFPELGBtwgX
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館114Please respect copyright.PENANAOvFMTsXNVY
我喜歡圖書館114Please respect copyright.PENANA6nHYGLUB1R
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般114Please respect copyright.PENANA017agHbCFh
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?114Please respect copyright.PENANAkyVuAEDMm2
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?114Please respect copyright.PENANAvFDgdnlTWS
找到了、找到了、找到了?114Please respect copyright.PENANAAZcRle8YWq
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出114Please respect copyright.PENANAJKQuG1pZiU
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般114Please respect copyright.PENANAoqwHlwisPa
這種行為讓我露出了笑容114Please respect copyright.PENANAqMTJRUtpCc
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容114Please respect copyright.PENANAodU95vfwLB
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來114Please respect copyright.PENANAAS0xhvLDH1
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿114Please respect copyright.PENANAUZ4Zq7Zhd4
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子114Please respect copyright.PENANA0LWQiAJPHy
我似乎迷上了那種血腥114Please respect copyright.PENANA2WFFbfZ8R3
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)114Please respect copyright.PENANAwSpJ7vNaQg
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩114Please respect copyright.PENANADT7R4TqFh6
眼前一黑114Please respect copyright.PENANA3M0kuVs2Xz
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧114Please respect copyright.PENANABUmPGwomJy
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼114Please respect copyright.PENANAOSWnw2ZWNC
強光...?114Please respect copyright.PENANAJBEaFZKkEH
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。114Please respect copyright.PENANAikPSahF1cb
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光114Please respect copyright.PENANAZrfhnzdjWZ
睜開眼看見開闊的草原114Please respect copyright.PENANAdr8aaGMlBR
草原?114Please respect copyright.PENANAdENzRNrrIY
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能114Please respect copyright.PENANAx7MjunVQhJ
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?114Please respect copyright.PENANAaIUrvinChc
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著114Please respect copyright.PENANAyKWcfZnwBJ
笑?114Please respect copyright.PENANABnrITnF0Sf
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?114Please respect copyright.PENANAuWJ24m9YH2
狂笑著114Please respect copyright.PENANAXODxlKN2QF
打從生下來第一次的114Please respect copyright.PENANA3ufTuKWfxl
扭曲的狂笑114Please respect copyright.PENANAUWvysGLwdj
醜陋的狂笑114Please respect copyright.PENANAlvPemE4Kmo
像個小丑一般舞蹈著114Please respect copyright.PENANA5CqasIGROp
純白的毛球向我撲來114Please respect copyright.PENANATsw2U8oUqR
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音114Please respect copyright.PENANAYc8H1ehSou
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去114Please respect copyright.PENANAwXncBKsnK9
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色114Please respect copyright.PENANAVQQDHU1yCz
右手感到重量,看向自己的手114Please respect copyright.PENANAmLYUTBV0U1
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀114Please respect copyright.PENANAdZ5W0d6YbZ
又來了,又笑了114Please respect copyright.PENANA3vbitUj2a4
笑了、笑了、笑了?114Please respect copyright.PENANAgwFnehtvMS
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆114Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8UoVwS8GD
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」114Please respect copyright.PENANAs3zua2G9je
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」114Please respect copyright.PENANAipnweNlXlA
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存114Please respect copyright.PENANALfSMAcKBZN
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去114Please respect copyright.PENANAyLnktrNzyq
我本來就是為了借書而來114Please respect copyright.PENANA7YPzDQr13g
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物114Please respect copyright.PENANAOstoNZKCAB
血液四散、內臟也散落一地114Please respect copyright.PENANAXtDkeNe4DM
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道114Please respect copyright.PENANAT7HCTfdBIK
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉114Please respect copyright.PENANAeeFMgn2Mf8
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣114Please respect copyright.PENANA9mUIkJUxTQ
我仍穿著高中制服114Please respect copyright.PENANANf27bW6GO8
但步伐變得輕盈114Please respect copyright.PENANAKG4PGi4qnf
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界114Please respect copyright.PENANAZf8KDIXRpq
走在草原上與一群人相遇114Please respect copyright.PENANAEtEtz7k1oY
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人114Please respect copyright.PENANAjlLKRTi3iA
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外114Please respect copyright.PENANAbDo3ZmXMuB
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫114Please respect copyright.PENANAQpT3C5sEX6
嘈雜。114Please respect copyright.PENANA5pOMAZDgiG
好討厭阿,好吵阿114Please respect copyright.PENANAf7hySaiaX8
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」114Please respect copyright.PENANA8thPFQlWmu
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道114Please respect copyright.PENANAVwr6Ua6jne
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙114Please respect copyright.PENANAfD8qa0SnOv
一名少女獨自站著?114Please respect copyright.PENANATYOxRtJdT8
靜謐。114Please respect copyright.PENANAweaheHl1wY
不再有人發問114Please respect copyright.PENANAlRoQgOvp2k
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀114Please respect copyright.PENANAe8TVMAmvU7
看見自己的笑容114Please respect copyright.PENANAKaccdhRVnd
看見了人類的頭顱114Please respect copyright.PENANAHD5LdHRPm0
看見了114Please respect copyright.PENANA1FRHaDiOvp
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般114Please respect copyright.PENANAbysxBIFMLr
奇怪的夢境114Please respect copyright.PENANA8ncGvcxzRy
我果然是瘋了吧114Please respect copyright.PENANAbjdEtEQLez
但我再怎麼瘋狂114Please respect copyright.PENANAJOFtYXCc59
應該也不會去殺人114Please respect copyright.PENANAZQD74UPR5u
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有114Please respect copyright.PENANAh3gfBlHZgg
夢中的我在笑114Please respect copyright.PENANAIVlaQerW8N
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道114Please respect copyright.PENANAopRKKRgeQw
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著114Please respect copyright.PENANAYnIlSO0y6S
「2月2日」114Please respect copyright.PENANA8azOIjp5Hf