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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzN7A7pvvnG
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「嗡隆……」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPRiLNlb0M
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月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGMiNi7U0d
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錯過尾班車了…呢。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksTF4IIth8
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左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGby8evAu3v
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbnZSARgtM
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9pxeaDycP
真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTT71gtYLN
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心情壞透了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNUPLjELl7
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodIXOJvE9h
無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27su1Ua2qO
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……抱歉，我也不知道。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPnLInAq2s
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LyNTJAuV4
開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCw7O2v4DWd
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhU7mBhJxbg
「唉。」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WkQSNyqOK
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8VKanm3Vc
抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VNWzfKVjt
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUaFWrjYwU
溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvdMHLNJJk
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpI8ntis9aj
倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8J6lgudJEa
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsSLVENFut
「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwmzoIjDkC
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcb0dxPMivr
「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJUULemy9i
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dKQnvbJJp
「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUP50IKg4Bk
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZc5HbQiii
來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EubmfEruB
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7w80kwQN1W
我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0D4UHP6Em
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzKN8UAjSU
先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrBSebGe0m
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活成這個樣子，真抱歉。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2axb3OTA5o
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsyUVDJmPX
本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMyyIuVrJC
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zz4XTNNSl
「先生。」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHs2cT1n0X0
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一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqREV7jdkM
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrdFVYzAxc
「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymWcVYniou
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeDNBfc1My
「閂…站？」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPoMbeCJZA
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpPLu8mqVk
「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIHpw4LUtN
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYsGv4FaFm
要不是這條命是借來的話……784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4JXg3GtWm
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOK3wyPtTf
「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAiKhDFNPi
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjpEQNm8jw
「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33iBjsU0XY
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfPa7ThXs2
他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG4BBhszIF
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKcmIMDwl1
「咁……啊。」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoca9Lnxdm
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xY7smfS2b
「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5M396pBmKi
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「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQ5H8ZE6JW
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMNSwC43EW
「我帶你行。」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZ5Fs8jiUQ
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4bE1wQTu5
領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcNd3UVlrF
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDH0hJjoy6V
「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6KuXjaAYS
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ki5x76Q2P
「呃……算係。」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVwhYRKQJC
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不再是了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigFHG2WWf7
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRY7TqHRzi
意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiyjNn14wa
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupcn6msFYn
「好聲行啦，拜拜！」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrjS5AscQY
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavrinuZCPY
夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA9wWOBE2y
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQGhtoDkGM
抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaNPYWSbzr
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDkShnXInN
接下來，我還可以去哪兒？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMysFX1OQG
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhujc2PM7Vc
我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSjiSlH3X8
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6urpTNtoM
按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIoYqueDhj
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5s5GATnPm
因為我沒有。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuFz19V1g9
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUP8jA6i8y
我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0b11FMMow
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活該。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OYrF4G8Bm
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47NDvM1yfA
我活該。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDTq1kRrFD
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIqR7IRyzQ
正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjxvIntqIe
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPszp1XAXf
不想。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCPY26EJ6J
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgO3ZJilbc
我……我不想找她。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNZAk9emZ1
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7VyihxfQW
不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCiG8DczYX
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpBP5eTkFn
即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPvtkTr8oe
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwqnPkdhgz
我不想。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5E6EfrGcXH
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAu9QA6qGnL
回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dNs9dbvtg
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbsUF873zx
不就有了嗎？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqifLWWcEow
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZNbte98nR
掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfExQvOmKUs
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLInYqcMuyT
既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUUq5mEnsD
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而且，我連地圖都不用。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBF0cM1eyiV
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0THbaSfMf
容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutinASgQbN
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光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Z1NaRvZuY
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHpTQSkwTQ
出發吧。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14ueegt1AQ
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFLoxjeE6h
下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBEQRuqQwD
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucjEDnmVoK
漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iHMkdLEwh
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkqI3jBIwZ
從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpKdMZzQah
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5jyyjUvsO
步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMznty3Zbza
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcVOo8X4bR
「溫年柏。」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfZVKGYA7t
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1fRJAJG3h
拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDdpdc8K0E
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBY0692V8vN
俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7LXcqioCh
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6CFgEnbmW
沒有人。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9i53RU0vJi
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDq21RNYJlv
空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnFsFPXILE
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1WBNYNWpT
是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgPVeU9csC
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RMpgXwvLM
方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nMG8fEvwF
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cX1TmcZhT
要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vbH4kJEPd
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ132bLQ4FI1
這到底是……784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJE5aqejQxT
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvwVqsNuHY
我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCGZEPVnik
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUKfzj8ZIF
是…霧之類嗎……？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrubSe9354x
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5JuCYz1di
強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuXFnWLQEr
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXJA579pCE
但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcr8q7rqFGe
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很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGqXKbrdOz
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRw3pvDD1z
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCIU4aZerL
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFkeYXMzkn
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8pBeBsIOU
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNmP9WV5B8
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwlOPPuhGT
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