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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGk5f13OXHD
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiCWZG2qFv
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfqBxUuPfw
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZHHNXmEnS
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZfGFZyQpJ
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxAlwRqp85
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNSYMjehsM
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SbaHDmlPc
One day, I will be killed by myself
177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3SxqWtSU6There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfqBxUuPfw
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZHHNXmEnS
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZfGFZyQpJ
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxAlwRqp85
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNSYMjehsM
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SbaHDmlPc
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIj2bbwBQP
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmUh1iuVoW
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuo8W1ZKjG
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV20Dp5cmC2
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZtbxnp2fx
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqvbwfiIwL
However, if I really wanted to177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMciZuCNC1
I can answer those ramblings177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWU9jS4lF2
As easy as conducting an experiment177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGpqW2rwUu
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfmwW44Xv3
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWW6z7y9EL
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk5k1G8ElNForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmUh1iuVoW
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuo8W1ZKjG
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV20Dp5cmC2
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZtbxnp2fx
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqvbwfiIwL
However, if I really wanted to177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMciZuCNC1
I can answer those ramblings177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWU9jS4lF2
As easy as conducting an experiment177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGpqW2rwUu
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfmwW44Xv3
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWW6z7y9EL
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlRHeN8lCd
"This is all my fault"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUjZ01a0wq
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg77W1LtF0v
I have already gone crazy and mad177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTF7HK4bOO
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDT8ihfGruJ
"It is alright"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJtM88Ae9I
And it became alright for me177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbAGiIEfYe
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipjWBluekh
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDMj6hVHdM
Though, does it matter anymore ?177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGLP5eggNe
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCK1xbkGLe
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyF9ratf3JV
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Am I the weird one here? 177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVDnc4pprc
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO76qE64mBD
Am I the wrong one here?177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbb2y2IL9uc
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0zFgJfkNu
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQmpGOvBUY
I have already lost it all
177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N0k5OHQeM"This is all my fault"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUjZ01a0wq
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg77W1LtF0v
I have already gone crazy and mad177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTF7HK4bOO
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDT8ihfGruJ
"It is alright"177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJtM88Ae9I
And it became alright for me177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbAGiIEfYe
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipjWBluekh
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDMj6hVHdM
Though, does it matter anymore ?177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGLP5eggNe
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCK1xbkGLe
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyF9ratf3JV
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Am I the weird one here? 177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVDnc4pprc
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Am I the wrong one here?177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbb2y2IL9uc
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0zFgJfkNu
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQmpGOvBUY
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAIq16xjCk
Days without worry and doubts177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05l2HrrNGc
Times that are as pure as crystal clear177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKz3FWzVaPE
I was happy before177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouJp2UUwmX
And on that day, when the light went off177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7tNr2ueML
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANN2sjAxmi
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMCYICwLJ5
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tjTasbD1Q
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChFXveuT2N
There was someone who love me177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbEGxlt43B
Taught me unconditional love177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqdGspakwz
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAIq16xjCk
Days without worry and doubts177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05l2HrrNGc
Times that are as pure as crystal clear177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKz3FWzVaPE
I was happy before177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouJp2UUwmX
And on that day, when the light went off177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7tNr2ueML
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANN2sjAxmi
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMCYICwLJ5
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tjTasbD1Q
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChFXveuT2N
There was someone who love me177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbEGxlt43B
Taught me unconditional love177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqdGspakwz
She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning177Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RVWuJWjfe
