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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dB9tobFXa
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUzg6dh4Wj
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvF7bwHTEa
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XdCbk3Emi
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NVdayqr12
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lLKsSROXX
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2bG3uWYWn
One day, I will be killed by myself
184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BJO728WPVThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUzg6dh4Wj
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvF7bwHTEa
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XdCbk3Emi
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NVdayqr12
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lLKsSROXX
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2bG3uWYWn
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3FzhwRD9V
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmi6nmyw6se
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yO8eVVDPv
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAXwEkDIuG
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGl2dGzzHgw
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEf9voYunAa
However, if I really wanted to184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YwrRIQkLz
I can answer those ramblings184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQic5wQ2S5
As easy as conducting an experiment184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfADDjejxlk
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0RJQzXD9i
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6903JvfODo
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
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Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yO8eVVDPv
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAXwEkDIuG
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGl2dGzzHgw
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEf9voYunAa
However, if I really wanted to184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YwrRIQkLz
I can answer those ramblings184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQic5wQ2S5
As easy as conducting an experiment184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfADDjejxlk
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0RJQzXD9i
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6903JvfODo
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcGF0PjlSh
"This is all my fault"184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NJSnuDVaG
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExmu5jLR69
I have already gone crazy and mad184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHZsfmlDEz
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QLppyMw3E
"It is alright"184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUuDOY5pkO
And it became alright for me184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpXufwH6dt
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOssvy3A6mG
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXdsUU3pLn
Though, does it matter anymore ?184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3KUOqKQ3X
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As my author said, I could not live happily ever after184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeJj0J9iRC
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I have already lost it all
184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSuJC4JwRt"This is all my fault"184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NJSnuDVaG
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExmu5jLR69
I have already gone crazy and mad184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHZsfmlDEz
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QLppyMw3E
"It is alright"184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUuDOY5pkO
And it became alright for me184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpXufwH6dt
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOssvy3A6mG
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXdsUU3pLn
Though, does it matter anymore ?184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3KUOqKQ3X
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSrCnsdQ1N
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeJj0J9iRC
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Am I the weird one here? 184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQwsPuRY0d
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Am I the wrong one here?184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSo4xiRshd4
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Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuqKsmlGzz
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxBor4QSw4
Days without worry and doubts184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFw2uk7qPD
Times that are as pure as crystal clear184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHl6clfoDI3
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And on that day, when the light went off184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWmmY4Lpe4
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There was someone who love me184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQuOEXh6wF
Taught me unconditional love184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdmPAYPzD0
She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFw2uk7qPD
Times that are as pure as crystal clear184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHl6clfoDI3
I was happy before184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAQETQ6IlO
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Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOvxzRd3F6
There was someone who love me184Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQuOEXh6wF
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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