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有人在海濱長廊放下白色蠟燭，悼念去年於此蹈海殉情的同性戀人。告訴亡者，世界會因為他們的捨生表態而變得寬容大同，生者會因為他們的犧牲而有所覺悟，肩負起消弭歧視、追求平等的責任。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOxgatUqY5
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蜿蜒曲折的岸堤石壆上排滿白燭。綿延燭光在海風吹拂下或搖或擺，於無盡黑暗中顯得脆弱渺小無力。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBDUyVOoj0
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我嗤之以鼻，默默走開——過去一年，世界依舊，生者依舊，歧視依舊。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjh6t94TV5
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重於生命的責任同時輕如燭火。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VmBnOBTJM
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海風忽勁，呼，燭火滅了。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8THjFfPJgZ
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甚麼都不在了。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiH2oOKnRq
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燭火不在，責任不在，生命不在。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6ZVU9zqTR
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我繼續走。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG34FPVun0M
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有人在家等我。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgYB9ZxLBx
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家人端出蛋糕，送上禮物，為我的存在而高興。蛋糕上插有一根紅蠟燭，燭上有火，火光脆弱渺小無力，經不起我的輕輕一吹。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbOuhI9TXb
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家人祝我生日快樂。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRezblPlAa
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我笑。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmOp1kf1h0
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是儀式，是象徵，是寄託。如禱告，如誦經，如許願。上天不會因此動容，地面不會因此和平，人生不會因此一帆風順。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0tkRZxMbR
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可笑。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEybY3oPRnG
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我笑，卻不道破。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7IwlHkIV0
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道破了，不就得要面對自身的無能無力無奈。自身的無、生命的幻、意義的虛，不是每個人都承受得來。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LDSSsRILO
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寧願相信點亮燭光就是盡責的表現。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpsWzsYGp4
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寧願相信拋頭灑血就能改變世界。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bC92Ptokn
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寧願相信改變世界就是一種偉大。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4muQBHrGcv
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我笑，笑著入睡。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1vJ7hAwyZ
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夢裡，西西弗斯仍在推石上山。他告訴我，他知道大石總會在到達終點前滾下來，他知道他的努力不可能改變結果，他知道這是無法打破的循環。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3W2H4V3wSj
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「既然明知所作所為毫無意義，何解不停止？」248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNi7Xr2fDWS
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「停止這種行為才是真正沒意義，連被傳揚的價值也沒有。」248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4v56DyKoWH
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「故事傳揚開去又會帶來甚麼意義或價值？」248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLApbRLo7f
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「目的不是帶來意義或價值，而是被傳揚就是意義或價值本身——不被傳揚，也就不被知道。不被知道，也就等於不曾存在。」248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2fIaANQ6a
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「『存在』真的那麼重要？」248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHelanhcx6
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「於我，我存在與否不是那麼重要，但是尼采真的很需要我繼續做這沒有意義或價值的行為，否則他的觀點理論就不會精彩、發人深省。」248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUArD6wAK1
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恍然大悟。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpP09LhO9ha
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重點不是事情本身是否有意義，而是事情必須被說成有意義，否則所有事情均沒意義，生命也就沒意義，自身同樣沒意義。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNoOLzHJvc
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我笑，笑得從夢中醒來。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lgM4D3lJ6
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睡不了，散步去。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3vZp1V9M0
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岸堤石壆上，燭光點點，浮魂處處。一魂附一燭，一燭牽一魂。魂魄不滿我對他們的否定。聲聲不忿，句句帶怨。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYPEMENsZB
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「即便你們不曾存在，人類文明依可推進如儀。總會有人代替你們本身的位置。你們絕非唯一而必須的存在。」我淡然莞爾，開步前行。步步生風，風吹，燭滅，魂散。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uQlT0hekO
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燭光盡處，一個老者的魂朝我微笑。他是唯一沒有對我不滿的魂。我好奇，停下腳步，免得步風滅了他的燭火。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn79nv71DTF
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「『無』是『有』的另一面向，『有』是『無』的另一面向。『無』『有』並存，兩面一體。他們在『無』中尋找『有』，你在『有』中發現『無』。道不同，不相為謀，毋須同謀。順心而行，順其自然。」話畢，老者化蝶拍翼，翼風滅掉最後的燭火。蝶飛，飛往天海之間、暮晨交界，再無覓處。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzo18YCd8R
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天海如常，暮晨如常，世界如常，不在乎有無意義。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5zaMUSQFt
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我笑，笑我多管閒事，專制橫蠻。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSBeZI6kB7
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輕聲對壆上蠟塊講句對不起。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBWFYaTYSq
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蠟塊不瞅不睬，繼續以奇特而自然的姿態躺臥於天地之間。248Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLn8WLU5ilH
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