久違的機場,蔡予軒手拿護照等待登機,瞇起眼睛盯著手機上傳來的訊息,機票、住宿地點早訂好了,她並不認為何澄佑能隨意更改他們的行程,所以很放心的告訴他大概要去的地點,但她錯了。336Please respect copyright.PENANAAXLe6gxUPj
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當她看到對方傳來的行程後,無語的扯起嘴角:「這行程分明是按照我給他的來規劃吧。」336Please respect copyright.PENANAru6bztupQX
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不過就算大部分行程重疊,一群人與一個人的自由度相對還是比較拘束的,她可以不在乎時間,想逛哪就逛哪、想留多久就留多久,她決定按照原定計畫進行。336Please respect copyright.PENANA3PsB8gubkN
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坐在飛機上,座位剛好在窗戶邊,她回想這幾個月,何澄佑似乎滲透她的生活,但內心深處有個地方本能的抗拒,她太習慣一個人了,突然有人闖進她的周圍,每天與他相處,明明喜歡他,卻還是稍稍感到疲倦。336Please respect copyright.PENANAvAvc5uWYwo
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不太妙。她想。336Please respect copyright.PENANAdGQsJOBh8E
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是惡性循環,以前高中的記憶湧上心頭。高二的時後,為了合群,她選擇扮演一個與自身性格相反的傢伙,成天笑嘻嘻、跟同學說垃圾話,不管熟不熟,講就對了。放學道別後,她特地選擇比較遠的公車站,那裡沒有同校的學生,短短十分鐘的路程,卻異常空虛。336Please respect copyright.PENANAWoZyXQlvcG
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學期過後,她恢復以往的模樣,因為太累了。最後一年,遇到人際關係的狀況,本來要好的同學認為她不主動、認為她只顧著跟前面座位的人說話不顧她們,說開之前,敏感的她發現不對,寫紙條、通訊軟體詢問,結果都是說她想太多。336Please respect copyright.PENANAMkT2ziHa22
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看到回答,她冷笑一聲,既然是她想太多,那為何擦肩而過時裝作沒看到她、為何打招呼不予理會呢?蔡予軒不是笨蛋,有了國中的前車之鑑,她知道問題再次落在她身上。那時不只是同學間關係,連家裡也出現狀況,課業、家庭、同儕所有壓力集中在此爆發。336Please respect copyright.PENANAXP3wBcL8UF
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當天下著毛毛細雨,她收到一張紙條,面無表情看著紙條上同學寫著她也很累,只是沒爆發、明明是她表現出沒把她當朋友云云。蔡予軒長嘆一口氣,剎那間,她覺得好累好累,想著擺爛吧,不想管了。336Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1n6kuPoIu
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可惜,為了讓學校生活好過點,她向同學承認錯誤,說了多少次的對不起早忘了,但破裂的友情也回不到當初。就這樣吧,她不想再去彌補什麼,也沒必要,她非常清楚,畢業後,這些人就是過客罷了。336Please respect copyright.PENANAdWhkEIt7zh
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從那時候開始,她有一餐沒一餐,常常午餐是麵包,晚餐是零食、冰品,不肯再好好吃正餐。每天晚自習桌上擺了課本,心裡想的卻是很中二的問題,造成如此局面都是她的錯、這世界真糟、什麼時候才能脫離呢、什麼時候才能真正的死去。手上出現傷痕,見到同學們像看到怪物的神情,她隱藏了黑暗面,將傷痕刻在衣服遮得到的地方。336Please respect copyright.PENANAufiP5JeMze
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她不痛,只是驚覺好像缺少某種情緒,空空的,被腐蝕的一點都不剩。336Please respect copyright.PENANA5LkagRgHQN
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畢業當天,從禮堂回到教室,手撐著下巴,了無生趣看著同學製作的影片,有些人哭了,她卻不懂有什麼好哭的,跟老師擁抱後,便頭也不回的離開。336Please respect copyright.PENANA75PkKsQcwi
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姚可穎常說她本質是個冷漠的人,對於不喜歡、沒興趣的人、事、物是不會分一點關注給他們,除非不得已,她會裝得有那麼一回事,但都是假的。336Please respect copyright.PENANANDqfzHFmxa
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想到這她無聲的笑了,拍下一張凌駕於雲層的照片傳給何澄佑,既然累了就承認自己累了吧,面對喜歡的人她不想隱瞞,畢竟要是他們真的在一起,對方得知道事情的全貌。336Please respect copyright.PENANA8FHJlOu7yv
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何澄佑收到蔡予軒的照片,得知她已經起飛。他們比她早來一天,剛下飛機這群女人就拉著他們去購物,但好像還不夠,今天的行程還是購物,他搖搖頭,蔡予軒跟他說的行程裡完全沒有這選項,不禁有點好奇她是真的沒有安排還是沒說出口而已。336Please respect copyright.PENANAzaAM8rOZDS
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「阿佑,幫忙拿啦。」張尚仁將手裡的一個提袋遞給他,不滿的抱怨:「到底有什麼好買的,不都一樣嗎?」336Please respect copyright.PENANAaj1mznqfps
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「難怪你交不到女朋友啊。」林宜欣挑了挑眉,露出一抹諷刺的微笑。336Please respect copyright.PENANA4huaJbYLtr
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「喂!」336Please respect copyright.PENANAKiWH2IhcZ4
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「予軒應該在上飛機了吧,要去機場接她嗎?」336Please respect copyright.PENANA62JdYy1eE5
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「嗯,我是想,但你們……」336Please respect copyright.PENANA54xDdfuRMW
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「去吧,電話聯絡就好,今天予軒也沒什麼安排不是嗎?一起吃飯吧。」林宜欣揮揮手,把他趕走,轉頭對其他人解釋。336Please respect copyright.PENANAr0JVXDtvRP
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蔡予軒從機場走出來,便看到何澄佑陽光的笑容,她愣了一下,雖然預料到他可能會來接,但免不了還是感到驚訝。336Please respect copyright.PENANAtmQAGGgmll
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「你怎麼會來?」336Please respect copyright.PENANADB2u8r5sCD
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「這兩天全是購物行程,我沒興趣,宜欣說一起吃個飯吧。」他順手拉走她的行李,解釋道。336Please respect copyright.PENANAlu2Dju3vVt
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因為何澄佑的安排,她與他們是同間飯店,他站在一旁,看著她用流利的日文和英文與櫃台人員溝通,不禁想著,一個人出國到底是什麼感覺,在人生地不熟、語言不通的情況,難道不會慌張嗎?他對蔡予軒的印象仍留在說幾句話就害羞的模樣,更加無法想像。336Please respect copyright.PENANAzLD4o4zVoJ
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放好行李,何澄佑帶著她到約好的餐廳,剛坐下,她就瞄到他們身邊大包小包的提袋,不難想像這群女人買了多少東西,這群男人又陪著她們走了多久,這種時候什麼話都不說是最好的。336Please respect copyright.PENANAi1t2TKbsp2
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「予軒,等下一起逛。」336Please respect copyright.PENANAgtbad4peug
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「你們買了很多東西,還能逛嗎?很重吧。」336Please respect copyright.PENANANnBQjmUPPv
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「予軒小姐,妳說對了,超重。」張尚仁從頭到尾兩手都拿得滿滿的,忍不住抱怨。336Please respect copyright.PENANAa2KuX5iogh
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「你閉嘴。」林宜欣惡狠狠瞪了一眼,再換上溫柔的神情對她說:「當然可以,有想逛的嗎?」336Please respect copyright.PENANA47L1uIyugh
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「其實我沒什麼要買的。」336Please respect copyright.PENANA6c8dGZbFM0
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游雅晶接收到林怡欣的暗示,開口提議:「予軒姐,要去看文具嗎?」336Please respect copyright.PENANAr8lFx4wfHK
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何澄佑無奈的看著聽到文具雙眼立刻發亮的人,那副想要又怕他們無聊的樣子,可愛極了,輕笑的揉揉她的頭:「想去就去吧。」336Please respect copyright.PENANAVct9XzGOV2
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「可是……」336Please respect copyright.PENANA9Bl5Mpb39T
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「我們下一站也打算去文具店,沒問題的。」336Please respect copyright.PENANANFSdSHz4e7
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吃完飯,一行人到了文具店,張尚仁望向終於放慢腳步的女人們,再看看蔡予軒正在挑選的背影,感嘆道:「予軒一來,整個變文青團,早上這群傢伙可是拉著我們東跑西跑的。」336Please respect copyright.PENANAEEv7jhCPn6
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「這種地方本來就是這樣,你說得太誇張了。」336Please respect copyright.PENANAQQZ1vH69p6
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「不,阿佑哥,我贊同阿仁哥的看法。」阿耀難得表示張尚仁說得都對。336Please respect copyright.PENANALX3yy7F3ug
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何澄佑失笑揮揮手,走到蔡予軒身旁,一堆鋼筆看得他頭昏眼花,但瞥到一旁的人微微皺起眉頭,似乎正在考慮哪一支比較好。336Please respect copyright.PENANAmK6N6cFTQn
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「有想買的?」336Please respect copyright.PENANAOtKcMrnXdU
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「有,之前在台灣原本要買,但想說要來日本就忍了。」336Please respect copyright.PENANAgTrGC7tSF0
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蔡予軒決定好某一支鋼筆,何澄佑從她手裡接過,說:「我買給妳。」336Please respect copyright.PENANAzV9KI6rrLy
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「欸,不好吧。」她想搶回鋼筆,奈何身高差距,她癟著嘴想說什麼,卻看到對方笑容滿面,便說不出。336Please respect copyright.PENANAnKIBN1ypDG
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「當作生日禮物吧,今年生日我們沒碰到,我也沒買禮物給妳。」336Please respect copyright.PENANAN33qqIHCr0
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「沒關……」336Please respect copyright.PENANAXMuKBGZy4P
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「予軒小姐,請對自己上心一點。」何澄佑寵溺中帶著無可奈何,拍拍她的頭嘆著氣。336Please respect copyright.PENANAWir3mtxgeS
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其實在小學時,他就很想吐槽,蔡予軒記得他的生日、情人節、聖誕節,偏偏自己的生日不記得,好像是因為以往家裡的人對她的生日不上心,等到她與母親單獨搬出去後,也不曾慶祝生日,久而久之習慣了,因此何澄佑很喜歡看她收到禮物才想起自己生日的表情。336Please respect copyright.PENANA9VdF4z8bV6
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「好了,就決定以後每年幫妳慶祝生日,要不然妳肯定全忘了。」何澄佑輕輕攬住她的肩膀,抵擋來來往往的人群。336Please respect copyright.PENANALMhnpnSbtu
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她不好意思的笑了,被他說中了,尤其是進入高中後,不曾把生日當作是重要的事,反正沒有特意拿出來,日子仍然是日子,普通的過就行了。336Please respect copyright.PENANAPyXLF6ZGaK
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明明是陪蔡予軒逛的,林宜欣她們買的卻比她多,讓張尚仁直喊到底買那麼多文具做什麼,想當然被她們輪流砲轟了。336Please respect copyright.PENANAqDcbwaryVw
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回到飯店,她婉拒他們要繼續玩的邀請,回到房間,回歸一個人的寧靜,頓時無法回過神。很久周圍沒有這種吵吵鬧鬧的感覺了,尤其是旅行,她不太喜歡跟別人一起過夜,房間是很私密的,她無法與人共享這樣的空間,跟姚可穎兩人出去,一定得吃比平常更多的藥才能夠入睡,儘管是很要好的朋友,她仍然無法安心。336Please respect copyright.PENANADLjqJXnMNq
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手機上不斷傳來的訊息,後知後覺想起她被加入群組,看著每個人上傳的照片,嘴角掛上輕淺的微笑,直到她收到何澄佑的私訊,同樣是一張照片,但主角是她正在挑選文具的側臉,微愣幾秒,對方再次傳來訊息,簡短的一句話卻讓她燒紅了臉。336Please respect copyright.PENANAvDh4Dz1CXr
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「妳認識嗎?她是我喜歡的人。」336Please respect copyright.PENANAnXqa4vLOdU
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她雙手微微顫抖,隨後將臉埋在枕頭裡,大喊:「可惡,不要突然投直球啊,何澄佑。」336Please respect copyright.PENANA8mEVvpT7rl