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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmehFqSCY8l
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One day, I will be killed by myself
211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySYZrGwHrWThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1dfd758uk
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPEvRNZouC
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4lp8WiKic
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgKIx1l8my
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroRQRA2uoN
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2szZOO4x7
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNliE22T1c
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoprg1MhrU
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VeOUTymhp
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mYZFZsinI
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvRTDGpAcX
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I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6EqlRk2MjForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoprg1MhrU
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VeOUTymhp
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mYZFZsinI
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvRTDGpAcX
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62fS45iHxD
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As easy as conducting an experiment211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNypW0kgwyf
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwODD59v6k
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgecsWmGiQ
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
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My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBT2fQgw6O
Though, does it matter anymore ?211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2yMiRLN90
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Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nBbIeIZZ7
I have already lost it all
211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoaSffhuox"This is all my fault"211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXH7hL69Eu
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSEtngQYdq
I have already gone crazy and mad211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nRxFPQW2k
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRwwOyx03d
"It is alright"211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcr94Tar0Tb
And it became alright for me211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqb2xtoGgs
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjyLxQlKA0
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBT2fQgw6O
Though, does it matter anymore ?211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2yMiRLN90
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzBbAvttx6
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGh1Bwq0zis
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Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nBbIeIZZ7
I have already lost it all
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyFGA32kAc
