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我的名字是,羅倫佐‧李杜斯。624Please respect copyright.PENANAWagsEeHBrl
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曾住在艾德菲市,因為在九歲時遭人性侵,所以全家搬到平克斯鎮上。624Please respect copyright.PENANAtHblbhOKJf
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在那裡,我展開新的生活。624Please respect copyright.PENANAE8BrmOmrWx
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因為我異樣的眼睛,所以總會引人注目。624Please respect copyright.PENANA9aCn2v7Lu6
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我試著將自己隱形,不讓任何人發現我,然後平安度過小學階段。624Please respect copyright.PENANAHwumEegbID
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到了初中,我的眼睛吸引了女孩們的注意,她們會來包圍我,問我一些沒有意義的問題,那時,我才開始注意到自己有些問題,無法對女生有感覺。624Please respect copyright.PENANASnoh8DzSq3
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我試著遠離她們,躲到美術教室,至於原因嘛!美術老師是男的,而且有一頭耀眼的紅髮。624Please respect copyright.PENANAfguyQWXL37
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不知為何,紅色總能吸引我的目光。因此,我向老師學習繪畫,學習畫出,紅髮的男子。624Please respect copyright.PENANAhPKLNw5WB4
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到了高中,我進了私立美術學校,原因是這裡的師資優秀,我打算一路走向藝術大學,當一位畫家。624Please respect copyright.PENANAhbp6Nigzp3
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總是在繪畫比賽擁得第一名的我,在這裡戀愛了。624Please respect copyright.PENANAPw18y8BWuX
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愛上同班的他,艾瑞克‧阿爾瓦。624Please respect copyright.PENANAStDE3CaEAD
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我好喜歡他,每次他坐在我旁邊,我都無法專心上課。624Please respect copyright.PENANA8qyQVucdzP
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他比我高,總是喜歡逗我,他在籃球場的英姿,不只吸引女孩子的喝采,也吸引著我的目光。624Please respect copyright.PENANAbaEzpca8qA
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他英俊,聰明,是全班的焦點,如此優秀的他,願意和這樣的我做朋友,當我受到欺負時,他總是挺身出來保護我,當我受挫時,他也在我身邊安慰我。624Please respect copyright.PENANALETwupIuws
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這樣的他,叫我怎麼不去愛。624Please respect copyright.PENANACVObEGEqD1
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暗戀著他,整整三年,一直試著當他是朋友,好痛苦,這種感覺好痛苦。624Please respect copyright.PENANASQ2czhvnhb
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好想牽住他的手,好想被他擁抱,好想告訴他,我的感覺。624Please respect copyright.PENANAVuxA8HnJOw
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總算在畢業前夕告白了,原本以為會被當眾羞辱,但他只是吃驚了一下,然後笑著抱住我。624Please respect copyright.PENANA8kiFbtc1ky
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「我也喜歡你。」624Please respect copyright.PENANAnGpmhTVuoX
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聽到這句話,我哭了。624Please respect copyright.PENANATELKgOyGGq
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當天,他拉著我的手,在深夜的美術教室,做了。624Please respect copyright.PENANAlaGuBZpZSt
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之後的我們會一起去圖書館讀書,準備大學的考試,休息時間,他會牽著我的手,緊緊抱住我。624Please respect copyright.PENANAoTghlpmy33
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接著,我們的事瞞不過彼此的父母,我們的父母要我們分手,但是我們不願意,然後艾瑞克就帶著我離開,離開平克斯鎮。624Please respect copyright.PENANAsYBBHaNiYl
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我們的新生活在一個破小的租屋開始,我們去找了工作,半工半讀,日子到這裡都還很美好,雖然每天都很疲憊,但我們還有彼此,我是這麼想的。624Please respect copyright.PENANAdJm86lkmv3
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直到艾瑞克的學校將他退學,艾瑞克白天上課晚上當酒店的服務生,在店裡,他與某位客人發生爭執,那位客人舉報到學校去,校方因此將他退學。624Please respect copyright.PENANAja8jh3z4Wp
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我可憐的艾瑞克,他開始一蹶不振,不再去找工作,整天待在家喝酒,我試著勸他,安慰他,起出他還會有反應,會去試著找工作,但是每每都碰壁,於是他放棄。624Please respect copyright.PENANA1VSLSjExqX
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他開始拿我的錢,不只這樣,他還會責怪我,嫌棄我,抱怨我,有時喝脆了,他甚至會毆打我,強行侵害我。624Please respect copyright.PENANAItP9znXqVi
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我是否該離開他,但是是我先愛上他的,是我讓他離開家,是我讓他與家人分開的,所以我休學,把時間投入在工作和他身上。他偶爾會在睡夢中哭泣,他會跟我道歉,我怎麼捨得他。624Please respect copyright.PENANAVioThVHqOK
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然後,我把自己推向惡夢的牢籠,承受著他的毆打,默許他拿我的錢去喝酒,獨自,清理家中一切。624Please respect copyright.PENANAZvX2jSWXbX
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這是愛嗎?624Please respect copyright.PENANAC1g1DUGB1l
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我自問著,我還愛著他嗎?624Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5r8zmhigl
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他還愛我嗎?624Please respect copyright.PENANA3Lg4YiENLz
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這個問題在不久之後得到答案。624Please respect copyright.PENANA6RklQdmM6D
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當工作一整天的我,拖著疲憊的身體回到我們的租屋,卻發現家裡多了其他人。624Please respect copyright.PENANAhAdTaZI9M8
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「李杜斯,接工作了。」624Please respect copyright.PENANASX2vCx1xR7
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他這麼說,然後那群男人逼近我,我試著掙扎,哭喊他的名字,而他卻只是抽著菸冷冷的在一旁看。624Please respect copyright.PENANAzvqMFajuwP
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沒了,什麼都沒了,不管是他對我的愛,還是我對他的愛,全都沒了。624Please respect copyright.PENANA4gEL3TIREw
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留下的,只有憤怒。624Please respect copyright.PENANABBWUXCgXrm
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於是我,殺了他。624Please respect copyright.PENANAOyWapm3NBw