「登登登……」煩人嘅iphone鬧鐘鈴聲響起,我熄咗個鬧鐘,望住個天花版望左成分鐘,先慢慢爬起床,雖然話係起床,但係我成晚都冇訓著過。我行出間房,個廳一粒聲都冇,唯一嘅聲音就係窗外傳來嘅車聲,我老豆老母應該已經出左去返工。我行入廁所,求其梳洗一下,換套衫就出門口。
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今日係DSE放榜日,對大部分嘅中六學生嚟講,亦都係十二年強制教育嘅終點。
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返到學校,我算係比較遲返嘅人,好多同學都已經攞咗佢地嘅成績,有啲同學攞住張成績表,不快不慢咁踏出校門,雖然全部人都戴著口罩,但從佢地嘅眼神都可以估到係咩情況,籃球場嗰邊主要分左做兩批人:一批人攬住一齊癲咗咁大笑,如果佢哋喺街度分分鐘比人拉去精神病院。而另一批人都係癲咗咁,不過係癲左咁喊,當中仲有個人比幾個老師同埋社工圍住,聽人講佢好似收到成績之後就不斷話想去自殺。
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冇錯,教育局就係咁勁,可以利用一張紙改變大部分學生之後嘅命運
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我冇比呢啲人影響我嘅心情,繼續毫無表情咁,行上樓梯攞成績
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名稱:陳若男
中文:4
英文:3
數學:2
中國文學:2
中國歷史:2
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攞住呢個成績,基本上同入大學無望了。最多只可以去讀「香江大學太空」或者副學士,我想喊,不過一滴眼淚都流唔到出嚟。因為我尋日訓喺張床上面已經估到呢個結果,畢竟DSE之前我喺度做緊啲乜嘢……得我一個人知,我只可以
自嘲咁笑一笑
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「阿藍!成績點啊?」我聽到有把女聲喺我7點鐘方向嗌,我下意識回頭,嗌緊嗰個係同班嘅A同學,不過佢唔係叫緊我,佢叫緊嘅係我三點鐘方向嘅李若藍,我暗戀左三年嘅女仔。我望住佢,佢矮矮地,有秋水盈盈嘅眼,帶住一副圓形幼框眼鏡,紮住個馬尾,着住純白色嘅校服同埋淺藍色嘅短裙,濯清漣而不妖。
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聽到A同學叫佢之後,佢即刻回頭,露出一個甜美嘅笑容。呢個係佢嘅招牌笑容,佢笑嘅時候兩隻眼會彎起來,可愛而不做作,我最鍾意見到佢咁樣笑,因為佢每次咁樣笑就代表佢好開心。
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未答A同學,我已經知道佢考到一個好好嘅成績。我同佢係兩個唔同世界嘅人:我係一個讀書好差嘅學渣,而佢係一個讀書好好嘅學霸。如果我只係一個街邊唔起眼嘅露宿者,佢就係一個受萬人矚目嘅明星。我地只有三個共通點,第一就係我地喺同一班——因為我地學校冇精英班呢個殘忍嘅制度。第二就係我地嘅選修科都有中國文學——不過我係因為成績太差被迫讀,而佢就係自願讀。最後就係我地個名都叫若藍
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我攞住張成績表,爬上去學校嘅天台。當然,我唔係想高空擲物,從天台跳落去自殺。我坐喺天台邊個圍牆上面,一邊感受陽光嘅溫暖,一邊諗下我嘅未來應該點行
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坐左15分鐘,我咩都冇諗到,反而比陽光照到有啲眼訓。
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「後生仔,諗緊咩啊?」有把粗獷嘅聲音從我右邊傳來,我望過去,係一個阿叔,望落去四五十歲度,留左鬚,塊面紅晒咁,好似飲酒飲到醉醉地咁。
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「邊個會喺咁早飲酒…..」雖然我都覺得佢係個怪人,不過我當時冇心情諗佢係邊個
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「冇啊,純粹諗下自己應該行嘅方向」我求其答佢
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「考得好差?」佢望一望我手上面嘅成績表講
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「嗯。」我應左一聲:「不過冇得怨,邊個叫我DSE仲喺度周圍玩」
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「嗯……」個阿伯好似諗緊啲咩,大約半分鐘之後佢喺褲袋攞左啲嘢出嚟:「拎住。」
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其實我本身唔係幾想拎,不過見佢嘅眼神同語氣先遞手從阿伯嘅手上拎過嚟
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我低頭望住個野,係一個信封,摸到入面好似有張紙,我正諗住拆開個信封嘅時候……
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「加油。」個阿伯突然喺我耳邊講,跟住,佢將我從天台推左落去。
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「啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!」我就咁樣從天台跌落去,我唔知點解佢要咁做。呢個時候,我腦海出現左好多人:有李若藍,我阿爸阿媽,我阿哥,我啲朋友……..跟住我個腦不斷重播返我由細到大經歷過嘅事。呢個應該就係所謂既「人身走馬燈」,成日聽人講,今日終於親自感受到
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喺我跌到落地嗰一刻,我眼前只剩低一片黑色,但係我冇感覺到任何痛楚。我以為自己已經死左,不過我仲可以諗到野。
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我擘大隻眼,出現喺我眼前嘅,唔係咩天堂地獄定係奈何橋,而係我間房嘅天花板。
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「頂,原來係夢……」但係啱啱發生嘅嘢太過真實,我仲係心有餘悸,等左成分鐘先揭開張被起床。但係呢個時候,我感覺到我隻右手入面有啲嘢,我攞起佢,望一望,我即刻嚇得直冒冷汗。喺我隻右手入面嘅,唔係咩人頭斷手等恐怖嘅野,而係個「夢」入面個阿伯比我嘅嗰封信……