
Cut9Please respect copyright.PENANASOycp5mSdh
真是刺激,是我的⼿指,⽽不是洋蔥。指尖尖端已分離,除了剩下的⽪膚紐帶。9Please respect copyright.PENANAYrnROorP8F
每次巧婷在⽤⼑⽚的時候,都會在⼼中翻譯這⾸詩。那個早逝的女詩⼈,明⽩⼑⽚刺穿⽪膚帶來的9Please respect copyright.PENANAJMdjTywkuV
刺激,跟之後的平靜。what a thrill,my thumb instead a onion。巧婷的濕疹經常讓她癢得受不了,9Please respect copyright.PENANAHjnUDM7eN9
她對⾃⼰的⽪膚⽣氣,⼑⽚刺穿不聽話的⽪膚,⼀群紅⽪膚的⼩印第安⼈,沖出來教訓討⼈厭的⽩9Please respect copyright.PENANAvqf6ageUua
⾊濕疹,巧婷看著這場⾃⼰挑起的戰爭,抬⾼那條成爲戰場的腿,讓⼀點點的⼩⾎球到處逃竄。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJZB4bNxUUj
機器發出「嗶嗶,嗶嗶」的聲響,打斷了巧婷的沈思,她慵懶地走到聲⾳的源頭。⺟親⼜壓到了她9Please respect copyright.PENANALtKLFALXsY
的睡眠窒息機的氣喉。巧婷移開⺟親壓住氣喉的⼿臂,⺟親翻了個⾝,⼿腕軟軟地吊在床邊。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJAx7XJUhd5
巧婷沿床邊坐到地上,冰冷的地板讓她安⼼。⺟親的⼿腕也佈滿跟她相似的抓痕,巧婷趨前,模仿9Please respect copyright.PENANAwQiLyQNxpB
⺟親⼿的動作,就像那幅出名的畫。⺟親是創造她的源頭,她的將來也會跟她⼀樣嗎?巧婷不喜歡9Please respect copyright.PENANAUIAQ45QqTt
她眼前的將來。9Please respect copyright.PENANAycNbHqcsjY
頸與氦氣9Please respect copyright.PENANAzJUUv6RztA
那個前座的女孩有漂亮的頸背,她把巧婷的作業本傳了過來,厭惡地瞄了巧婷結痂的⼿背,迅速地9Please respect copyright.PENANAsQlX1eu3Ll
抽回⾃⼰的⼿。她弯下腰,在⾃⼰的書包取消毒液,優雅修長的頸項,尖下巴上的嘴⾓不屑地下垂9Please respect copyright.PENANANb76I7S3op
著。巧婷想像,如果著這條頸背上佈滿濕疹的痕跡,她還會這麽趾⾼氣揚嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANA8KXc5gc7KL
巧婷低下頭看⾃⼰的電話短訊,有名字是「派對⽤品賣家」的回覆。「氦氣暫時沒貨」,巧婷反射9Please respect copyright.PENANA1CU7OelA8E
動作般的抓了下頸項,看起來更不耐煩了。9Please respect copyright.PENANArFk5rNIJ9k
「嘭」的⼀聲巨響,打斷了她偏激的沈思。遲到的同學恬不知恥地撞向課室的⾨。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqTeNNFafQH
在第⼆堂開始了⼀半,李嘉誠終於來上堂了。他的⼿肘貼著誇張的⼤膠布,他跟老師解釋,這是他9Please respect copyright.PENANAyJuYu9XNT7
遲到的原因。他在遲到鈴響起之前已經進入學校,在熱⼼的醫療室老師的照顧下,才會這麼晚回課9Please respect copyright.PENANAvzokOy7mFX
室。對於這個遲到的常客,物理老師沒有興趣聽完他的辯解,轉⾝寫完被打斷了的⽜頓第三定律。9Please respect copyright.PENANAl8Y9jlQb7f
嘉誠經過巧婷的位⼦,他⼿肘的膠布鬆脫,露出完好無缺的⽪膚。9Please respect copyright.PENANAfJhCn8Al4A
物理老師轉過⾝來,⼤聲説到:「還有兩個星期就要交報告,你們都想到⾃⼰的⼩組主題了嗎?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAWJRGsMmpl7
巧婷全⾝的⽑都豎了起來,她這個課室裡⾯的⼤象,每個⼈都想忘卻她的存在,跟本沒⼈想跟她9Please respect copyright.PENANAgNGHBNAs2o
同組。9Please respect copyright.PENANAffdq1C3w52
老師⽊⽊地環視全班默不作聲的同學,⽬光與巧婷對視。「吳巧婷,你還沒組吧。」老師問。巧婷9Please respect copyright.PENANAeLsAUg510F
沒回應。老師其實已經知道問題的答案,他把⽬光投向正在亂揭書的李嘉誠。「李嘉誠,你也沒有9Please respect copyright.PENANAjC5zmUetvo
組吧?你就跟吳巧婷⼀組吧。你們兩個明天就要想好報告的主題。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAcZ8DKknhz2
嘉誠與巧婷,同樣⼀臉疑惑地看向對⽅。9Please respect copyright.PENANAdSgg6RYKVS
圖書館9Please respect copyright.PENANAVs9ssRSIbx
「吳巧婷,你全名真是吳巧婷?」李嘉誠問。巧婷冷漠地看著他,沒有回答的意向。「幫妳改這種9Please respect copyright.PENANAn5eAImChNu
名字的⼈⼀定很討厭你。」嘉誠認為⾃⼰找到了問題的答案。「改的⼈不會說廣東話⽽已,我們要9Please respect copyright.PENANAfFOjEa3m93
在今天想到我們的Project主題。」巧婷決定了,既然沒辦法逃避,就應該默默接受。「什麼主9Please respect copyright.PENANAXSUiXeN1dj
題?」嘉誠回答。巧婷不可置信地從課本上抬起頭來。嘉誠呆了半秒才意識到⾃⼰問的蠢問題,低9Please respect copyright.PENANAFgBKA8Irni
頭翻動物理書,嘗試消除尷尬。9Please respect copyright.PENANA3KdGdJfZ2B
巧婷跟物理學,也是做不了朋友,對於這次project的主題,她也是⼀頭霧⽔。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5CCF5d6e6I
她環視四週瞄到嘉誠的滑板,轉⾝在電腦鍵盤上打出skateboarding,physics,這兩個關鍵字。很9Please respect copyright.PENANASuXZKffBQ8
快,就有⼀條⽚彈了出來。電腦的聲⾳吸引了嘉誠的注意⼒。9Please respect copyright.PENANAquIPJ0l8Ae
「那是Olie啊!」他很罕有地安靜地把影⽚看完。「除了Olie,其他英⽂我都不知道他在說什麼。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAOcpCQfs4FC
「⽜頓第三定律,作⽤⼒同反作⽤⼒數值相等,但⽅向相反。」巧婷對著電話把搜尋結果讀出來,9Please respect copyright.PENANAtterInkPhH
嘉誠看起來⼀臉迷惘。9Please respect copyright.PENANApWtkZOoPxx
「我們沒必要真的理解這件事,我⽤這條⽚的內容,然後Google translate就好了。」巧婷平靜地回9Please respect copyright.PENANA046AoxJ4yF
答。「我可以Olie啊!」嘉誠興奮地說。「你想我拍低你玩滑板?」巧婷有點不耐煩。」9Please respect copyright.PENANA27W9svQjV0
「我們總不能直接⽤⼈家的⽚吧?」嘉誠回應。「為什麼不可以?」巧婷說。嘉誠懷疑地看著巧婷。9Please respect copyright.PENANAuJ2KCogk5T
巧婷嘆了⼀⼝氣。「我要尿尿。」她強⾏結束了這次對話。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5Dju8r7Brl
巧婷在經過書架時,看到坐她前座的女⽣,兩⼈的肩膀相撞,那女孩厭惡地拍拍⾃⼰的肩膀才離9Please respect copyright.PENANAdiNTTXMXyI
開。巧婷有點⽣氣地停在原地,嘆了⼝氣才繼續向前走。在走的時候,她瞄到書架上有個夾了廣⾓9Please respect copyright.PENANAreNJGHi92K
鏡的電話。巧婷聳了⼀下肩膀。9Please respect copyright.PENANAwqGEPYwaOA
巧婷從書架間伸出頭來,「喂,你是不是想拍⾃⼰玩滑板?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAsSM5PvfbFM
追逐9Please respect copyright.PENANA5tZdqbMBPQ
為甚麼要拿那個女孩的電話,巧婷⾃⼰也說不出原因。⼆⼈⼀起走到學校⼤⾨⼝,有⼈⼤叫「咪9Please respect copyright.PENANAoXFPd7KnF8
走!」巧婷拔腿就跑,嘉誠回頭看到學校從⼆樓指罵他們的女同學,後⾯還跟著兩個隨從,所以他9Please respect copyright.PENANA7YSJYDjCad
也尾隨巧婷,跟著跑起來。9Please respect copyright.PENANAT6V7aGzdfW
「為何他們要追著你?」嘉誠問。巧婷抽出裙袋中的電話,嘉誠看了就明⽩了,「為什麼?」嘉誠9Please respect copyright.PENANAorXCFmp9xF
還沒問完這句話,巧婷就拉著他向前跑。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjiTKkSBSoh
巧婷總喜歡繞遠路回家,學校到家的距離,有很多隧道,天橋,巧婷總想像⾃⼰是被圈養的倉鼠,9Please respect copyright.PENANAAY7XaebFe8
在這些半明,半暗的管道中穿⾏,等候主⼈厭倦的⼤⼿,伸進這個透明的籠⼦,把她撈起來,扔進9Please respect copyright.PENANAGxkmE81SXe
垃圾桶裡。這麼灰暗的想法,巧婷不敢告訴任何⼈,因為她厭倦了那些困惑⼜懷疑的⽬光,再聽⼀9Please respect copyright.PENANAvzk5p2g088
次「你樂觀⼀些吧!」,她保證會瘋掉。9Please respect copyright.PENANAu7yt6NQ0CQ
被⼈追著跑,這種⼩朋友會玩的遊戲,巧婷在這刻突然明⽩了這件事的意義。那種被追著的感覺,9Please respect copyright.PENANAkq07ewXQKb
上氣不接下氣,⼼臟在猛烈跳動,「怦怦」地在⾃⼰的耳邊抗議,提醒你還活著,⽽你的⾝體在努9Please respect copyright.PENANAwBMTRy4KUW
⼒⼯作,雖然世界想要把你抓住,你還是有逃走的機會。9Please respect copyright.PENANA8ACp9hSN1i
嘉誠則對這種追逐習以為常,喜歡守規矩的⼈玩不了滑板,玩滑板就要習慣被保安追的準備。⺟親9Please respect copyright.PENANA0hWiLbX7ap
還活著的時候,他反⽽會⼩⼼⼀點,因為⺟親總會為他⾝上的傷⼝⼤驚⼩怪,拿著酒精追著他跑。9Please respect copyright.PENANAuAmDvjdwTz
這麼⼩⼼的⼈,還是那麼早死,嘉誠認為還是不⽤那麼拘謹了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAaLB71VR7v2
結伴⼀起逃跑的感覺好有趣,嘉誠與巧婷,這兩隻在世界玻璃缸裡的⼩倉鼠,在管道裡,向著光源9Please respect copyright.PENANAnKbS0JLeR5
跑去。在三叉路⼝,⼆⼈有共識地跑向旋轉樓梯,在錯開的間隙裡偷看,那幾個追著他們的同學,9Please respect copyright.PENANA4MvTlIDi7S
汗流浹背地跑上斜路,慢慢消失在天橋盡頭。9Please respect copyright.PENANAytsD3wPA9H
為了防⽌抗議的⼈向橋下的公路及鐵路扔路障,天橋的欄杆被加上了等⼈⾝⾼的鐵絲網。天橋像⼀9Please respect copyright.PENANAbzD0ejSEG6
條長蛇,被裝上了氣焰囂張的刺,硬⽣⽣地滑破天空。火⾞在橋底通過,聲⾳聽起來像⼈的嗚咽。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJUOuJkHbjR
嘉誠突然爬上欄杆,向⾏駛的列⾞⼤叫「吃屎啦你!」巧婷先是嚇了⼀跳,但也⼀起爬上欄杆,⼤9Please respect copyright.PENANAdQbVaRZE5a
叫「吃賓州啦你!」嘉誠不可置信地看著巧婷,他向巧婷說著些什麼,但火⾞的聲⾳太⼤聲,兩⼈9Please respect copyright.PENANAm48cv6qqKd
都聽不到對⽅在說什麼。但兩⼈的臉上都帶著笑容。9Please respect copyright.PENANAP9r4o9UHgD
橋底滑板場9Please respect copyright.PENANAczWKPIM3Oy
巧婷⽤「借」回來的電話幫嘉誠拍滑板短⽚。嘉誠看著巧婷純熟地把⼈家的電話解鎖,決定了⼀定9Please respect copyright.PENANA8GMiw3PsjF
要去買塊防窺的玻璃貼。9Please respect copyright.PENANAybZvE4zsHa
嘉誠雖說⾃⼰會Olie,但他還是試了幾次才成功,中間還有幾次還摔倒了。巧婷⼀臉懷疑地看著嘉9Please respect copyright.PENANAs1Ma5f7oRw
誠,嘉誠則建議巧婷⾃⼰試⼀下。巧婷⼀站上滑板就摔了下來,滑板被彈開九丈遠。9Please respect copyright.PENANAgPoPpCP4BS
巧婷坐在地上,没有想站起来的跡象。「為什麼撻落地下這麼痛,你還要玩?」她問。嘉誠把滑板9Please respect copyright.PENANAiU5JIIw7Zj
撿起來,隨意地做了個Olie,這次的動作很完美,巧婷想拿起電話拍,但已經趕不及了。嘉誠毫不在9Please respect copyright.PENANAAwKcJnHL05
意地向前滑動,加速後⼜做了個巧婷說不出名字的動作,在離地與著地之間,巧婷覺得時間在嘉誠9Please respect copyright.PENANAPbDjSqzMbI
的範圍裡停頓了,這就是稍縱即逝的美麗吧!在這個普通的⿈昏,在這個充滿貨⾞廢氣的橋底,她9Please respect copyright.PENANAMMM9ZWrwGC
沒有那麼期待那瓶氦氣了,那種本來⽤做填充派對氣球的氦氣,巧婷準備把他們吸進肺裡,因為她9Please respect copyright.PENANA6l1gQe0dF2
感受不了任何值得期待的事,但眼前這⼀幕,她想知道之後會怎樣,她把這⼀刻拍了下來。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMp4BH4VhOz
嘉誠流暢的動作戛然⽽⽌,他的前輪卡到顆⽯頭,優雅的⽔泥地衝浪者被地⼼吸⼒扯回現實,嘉誠9Please respect copyright.PENANArmpYOsSVJ1
有點氣餒地攤在地上不願意起來。9Please respect copyright.PENANAXzUXlhwsOf
「我錄下來了。」巧婷說。「吓?」嘉誠⼀臉疑惑。」⽜頓第三定律,那塊⽯頭卡住你塊板,你向9Please respect copyright.PENANA5JObajcw3H
前撻,作⽤⼒跟反作⽤⼒。」「噢,是這樣解的嗎?」嘉誠不太信服。9Please respect copyright.PENANADqoHefskhd
巧婷走向嘉誠,把⼿伸向他。嘉誠⽤⼿肘懶懶地把⾃⼰撐起來,他毫不掩飾地盯著巧婷的膝蓋。9Please respect copyright.PENANA8oDT8q7rcG
「你�這裡,如果感染的話,整個膝蓋以下都要切掉。」嘉誠在空氣中比劃著,⽤⼿指描繪著巧婷9Please respect copyright.PENANACUmVV97SCw
膝蓋到腿的形狀。9Please respect copyright.PENANAwpHo0rJjSE
巧婷嘗試⽤裙擺遮住滿佈傷痕的膝蓋,嘗試蹲下來,發現這個動作只會更尷尬,所以直接跪了下9Please respect copyright.PENANA5iC6weGDpE
來。9Please respect copyright.PENANA6VcaSpvhrq
嘉誠站起來,走向跪在地上的巧婷。他向巧婷伸出雙⼿。巧婷⾃顧⾃地站起來。9Please respect copyright.PENANAcTb0yAlmAO
嘉誠抓住巧婷的⼿,因爲太突然,巧婷沒有收回⼿。9Please respect copyright.PENANAuFZNlpvWXc
「你不⽤急住想死,總有⼀⽇,你⾝體不知哪顆細胞就會把你背叛,變成⼀顆⼤腫瘤,就好像我阿9Please respect copyright.PENANA1I9NTNHruI
媽⼀樣。」嘉誠說。巧婷沒有說話。9Please respect copyright.PENANALpltSmmxnk
「不要傷害⾃⼰吸引他⼈的注意⼒,沒⼈會在乎的。」嘉誠淡淡地說。9Please respect copyright.PENANAwHzJkstoWZ
巧婷憤怒地抽回⾃⼰的⼿。「我沒想過要吸引任何⼈的注意⼒。」巧婷很⽣氣,但不知到可以說什9Please respect copyright.PENANA7ebKUkrp6P
麼,臉都紅了,退後兩步還是沒想到要說什麼,轉⾝走了兩步後回過頭來。「我只是想控制⾃⼰的9Please respect copyright.PENANAlHWkOK3tPc
⾝體。」巧婷說。「傷害⾃⼰不是⼀種控制。」嘉誠說。巧婷不認同但也無法反駁,巧婷舉起食9Please respect copyright.PENANACjYsvyboLd
指,指向嘉誠,她認為擺出⼀副⾃信的樣⼦,就能說出有說服⼒的話,但她只是指著嘉誠,說不出9Please respect copyright.PENANAorYzRAJyTl
⼀句話。9Please respect copyright.PENANAR74HluIyIC
嘉誠安靜地看著巧婷,巧婷轉⾝就走。9Please respect copyright.PENANAM990wqpfVz
學校9Please respect copyright.PENANAtGMQSGrW2G
巧婷不再跟嘉誠說話。有關⾃殘這件事,巧婷⼀直沒有想過為什麼。可能就像躲起來的孩⼦,躲到9Please respect copyright.PENANA5UFDYbRqkc
悶了,才發現沒⼈在找他,才嘴硬地說⾃⼰根本不在乎。9Please respect copyright.PENANATEpTMXivfd
巧婷的膝蓋,讓嘉誠想起⺟親養的那只鸚鵡。那只被⽗親教壞了,能說對⽂法粗⼝的⿃。⺟親死9Please respect copyright.PENANAVUHZQt5kDg
後,它不再說話,只會亂扯⾝上的⽻⽑,那只⿃的疤痕,有巧婷膝蓋的紋理。那只⿃還活著,不過9Please respect copyright.PENANAOsNd3O5HJL
⽑長不回來,非常醜。嘉誠覺得,如果⺟親可以變成⿁,回來看⾒她的鸚鵡,應該會很⽣氣,但這9Please respect copyright.PENANAEmNpkGwHd9
個世界沒有⿁。9Please respect copyright.PENANAaqm3hzsCEA
嘉誠想跟巧婷說話,但巧婷不想。嘉誠只能像個變態般盯著她看,巧婷總是在偷偷抓癢,嘉誠覺得9Please respect copyright.PENANAO08cupQAcQ
她應該有濕疹。9Please respect copyright.PENANA39BxEXJVcB
氦氣跟芫茜9Please respect copyright.PENANAZVLyaaY9uE
巧婷的氦氣到貨了,但她不確定想把這些東⻄吸進肺裡,想像這些東⻄填滿⾃⼰的細胞,慢慢窒9Please respect copyright.PENANAWrthcxkxHF
息,然後什麼都感覺不了,沒有將來,好像不是太令她期待這件事,因為她還沒完成物理Project,9Please respect copyright.PENANAu9cFoBl1FT
她不想嘉誠沒功課交。9Please respect copyright.PENANA28glXfZXuN
巧婷和⼀瓶她不想帶回家的氦氣站在路邊,她的背後傳來⼀陣濃烈的芫茜味,巧婷猛然回頭。「我9Please respect copyright.PENANA2th0uc9wRP
老⾖突然拿了很多芫茜回來,拿來煲⽔沖涼,你的濕疹應該會沒有那麼癢。」嘉誠提著⼀袋芫茜站9Please respect copyright.PENANAd6qdKGL9Bt
在巧婷⾝後。「我討厭芫茜。」巧婷回答。「我也討厭芫茜。」嘉誠聳肩。巧婷反⽩眼,兩⼈安靜9Please respect copyright.PENANAi0EZ0MPyCD
地並肩站在⼀起。9Please respect copyright.PENANAEL921Vycnd
「你知道可以在哪裡買到氣球?」巧婷問嘉誠。9Please respect copyright.PENANAtEjmsznwLl
橋底滑板場9Please respect copyright.PENANASynVN9imd6
「為甚麼你爸有那麼多過期避套。」巧婷⼀邊問,⼀邊⽤裙襬把潤滑劑擦掉。被氦氣填滿的避9Please respect copyright.PENANAyNNXmchuRe
套飄向橋底的頂部。「我媽死了。」嘉誠回答。巧婷有點驚訝,但不知道怎樣回答。「她是癌症死9Please respect copyright.PENANAzOwvgu2Pvy
的。」嘉誠⾃⼰回答,巧婷還沒想到要說什麼。」呃,所以你不⽤那麼著急去死。「嘉誠再說。」9Please respect copyright.PENANA42iwJuTDyh
我不是想死,只是有時癢得受不了,疼反⽽讓我可以分⼼⼀下。」巧婷回答,嘉誠安靜地看著巧9Please respect copyright.PENANAQmHhsjf1dd
婷,巧婷被看得有點尷尬,她抬頭看卡在頂部的氣球。9Please respect copyright.PENANAHrKek7m8lk
「你覺不覺得那些氣球是我們⼈⽣的隱喻。」巧婷說。「吓。」嘉誠不解。」我們就是那些氣球,9Please respect copyright.PENANA3PvitEkfAl
如果在橋底起⾶的話,只會永遠卡在橋底,直到漏光氣,就會跌回地⾯。」巧婷回答。9Please respect copyright.PENANAkJO4Vnqixt
「我在想,我們是不是要認真點念書。」嘉誠回答。「呃,也是了,如果考得太差,可以選擇的東9Please respect copyright.PENANAMhWQzlisiI
⻄還真的太少了。」巧婷淡淡地說。9Please respect copyright.PENANAs5NxiWbHgL
「但唸書真得好無聊。」嘉誠說。」噢,那個推⽯頭上⼭的故事。」巧婷突然說,嘉誠⼀臉不解。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAZhHOfOhL6c
⻄⻄佛斯被罰要⼀輩⼦推⽯頭上斜路,當他推到上頂的時候,那塊⽯頭⼜會滾回底部。我覺得如果9Please respect copyright.PENANAYsR0wPB1RN
我這輩⼦要⼀直推⽯頭上⼭,我⾄少要選⼀條我喜歡的斜路。」巧婷說。9Please respect copyright.PENANAy2glc6xRha
「為何我會聽中⽂,但我卻不明⽩你在說什麼。」嘉誠說。巧婷聳聳,盯著在頂部的氣球。「我真9Please respect copyright.PENANAVwHWHERrRe
⼼不想做要清理這堆東⻄的⼈。」巧婷說。「現在開始念書,能不能⾄少五科合格。」嘉誠說。9Please respect copyright.PENANAvL7AIADsqI
巧婷突然舉起⼀只⼿指,示意嘉誠閉嘴,遠處傳來鑰匙互相撞擊的聲⾳。兩⼈互相對望後,轉⾝就9Please respect copyright.PENANAKlAnax2gPa
跑,留下了芫茜跟氦氣桶。巧婷突然回頭,取回那袋芫茜,但卻把氦氣桶留下。9Please respect copyright.PENANARP54SQLnJp
卡在天橋底,充滿氦氣的避套在隨風擺動。9Please respect copyright.PENANAR3F1vOjVQE
巧婷忘記了氦氣桶是可以退按⾦的,但活著就是這樣⼦的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAIA9vbxQf9j