「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」113Please respect copyright.PENANA3u8nyAEWqB
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩113Please respect copyright.PENANAFwc23l7DWt
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路113Please respect copyright.PENANASgmBHf8t7k
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」113Please respect copyright.PENANAFcyoscfu5q
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。113Please respect copyright.PENANAcWV6hJcnpT
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫113Please respect copyright.PENANAQzk3z6yuM1
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了113Please respect copyright.PENANAlDUUbUtrs2
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫113Please respect copyright.PENANAlqEYNwl2Nf
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯113Please respect copyright.PENANA5Scxq25UR6
拿起手機看了看日期113Please respect copyright.PENANAVxJ1MpOkE1
今天是2月28日113Please respect copyright.PENANAi5OJVuZy6Q
於是我換上了運動服113Please respect copyright.PENANAvhsoF6Lng0
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服113Please respect copyright.PENANADZfVvNfyU8
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子113Please respect copyright.PENANAMEV4wUc50z
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。113Please respect copyright.PENANAYxdxmLq4G8
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進113Please respect copyright.PENANA1J2s9mYj9e
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應113Please respect copyright.PENANA1qjIFXTxih
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受113Please respect copyright.PENANAMXMLA6NDuN
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問113Please respect copyright.PENANAFW4YCVcvMH
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想113Please respect copyright.PENANAy55evr5RK4
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想113Please respect copyright.PENANANkxSPxPTfe
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道113Please respect copyright.PENANAuGdWN1oD4C
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天113Please respect copyright.PENANAp9GJtXiwqA
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲113Please respect copyright.PENANAw0871cPPS0
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門113Please respect copyright.PENANAY7qyGYtfiF
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的113Please respect copyright.PENANAAAuJ25oG1z
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色113Please respect copyright.PENANAKvTVYS8cPt
對我來說那便是理想113Please respect copyright.PENANAbfa7FL6PZR
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色113Please respect copyright.PENANAs8gZfgb91H
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼113Please respect copyright.PENANAIL17oXwhLT
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見113Please respect copyright.PENANAC3DavEPyFY
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心113Please respect copyright.PENANA7QVV7ONo88
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身113Please respect copyright.PENANAe4xtixXi7t
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般113Please respect copyright.PENANApC2OxXBTnU
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話113Please respect copyright.PENANACG5tCLOMAf
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。113Please respect copyright.PENANA6adGrhYWgn
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說113Please respect copyright.PENANA55W03mymLq
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流113Please respect copyright.PENANAREahVeQwPm
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息113Please respect copyright.PENANAQLsd54wDw1
「跟理想完全不同呢。」113Please respect copyright.PENANAgQHw2ApEmr
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館113Please respect copyright.PENANALRDIBmdUBn
我喜歡圖書館113Please respect copyright.PENANA8LoiFDUdVO
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般113Please respect copyright.PENANAUsGsMuFdpJ
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?113Please respect copyright.PENANAvWCGzskD3U
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?113Please respect copyright.PENANALw1K4RmoZl
找到了、找到了、找到了?113Please respect copyright.PENANAUBrIbtLl5e
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出113Please respect copyright.PENANA4HBekWobJA
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般113Please respect copyright.PENANAnenuOE7IZp
這種行為讓我露出了笑容113Please respect copyright.PENANA0Di7EuXZbQ
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容113Please respect copyright.PENANAI1V4dLcrG0
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來113Please respect copyright.PENANAMgUEXldNZa
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿113Please respect copyright.PENANA5v48hYqf6g
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子113Please respect copyright.PENANA72govowk1K
我似乎迷上了那種血腥113Please respect copyright.PENANAN1cP59xA0q
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)113Please respect copyright.PENANAMUNTgxX5qo
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩113Please respect copyright.PENANAniYydOn7Wk
眼前一黑113Please respect copyright.PENANAp1Ckwzzuyo
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧113Please respect copyright.PENANAtgPhQd3IVx
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼113Please respect copyright.PENANAs3dDPMYuax
強光...?113Please respect copyright.PENANAxMZmRTfy73
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。113Please respect copyright.PENANAvsGdw5MpAf
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光113Please respect copyright.PENANAVgGBmvDr0h
睜開眼看見開闊的草原113Please respect copyright.PENANAS75IYakO6L
草原?113Please respect copyright.PENANAK1GcZPf9Ba
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能113Please respect copyright.PENANAYFpA8NyKO3
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?113Please respect copyright.PENANAzx9sqiw4wc
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著113Please respect copyright.PENANAJZ2nboFjlh
笑?113Please respect copyright.PENANAiF895QnSCK
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?113Please respect copyright.PENANAtU1g3wa3pk
狂笑著113Please respect copyright.PENANA8RXprZizEU
打從生下來第一次的113Please respect copyright.PENANAY2RhARbPiG
扭曲的狂笑113Please respect copyright.PENANAIJGMZCS5x3
醜陋的狂笑113Please respect copyright.PENANAswHBM3Q6YJ
像個小丑一般舞蹈著113Please respect copyright.PENANA36ns45g3PW
純白的毛球向我撲來113Please respect copyright.PENANAKAjALjEEdC
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音113Please respect copyright.PENANAj0EQgUDU5p
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去113Please respect copyright.PENANA9ArTmneoJC
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色113Please respect copyright.PENANAitIBDRgJxX
右手感到重量,看向自己的手113Please respect copyright.PENANA3IN4X7K2wk
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀113Please respect copyright.PENANAY8Mbsdfrcw
又來了,又笑了113Please respect copyright.PENANAGnfy0lSBQu
笑了、笑了、笑了?113Please respect copyright.PENANAWHNh6D8vuI
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆113Please respect copyright.PENANAL3EKf8NvMT
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」113Please respect copyright.PENANAzYVQ9KoONk
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」113Please respect copyright.PENANAIJdRnd9csT
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存113Please respect copyright.PENANAcTLNptdB6H
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去113Please respect copyright.PENANAOtxeHqBHng
我本來就是為了借書而來113Please respect copyright.PENANA6ibcnDOQp0
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物113Please respect copyright.PENANAXTs7TCdxAy
血液四散、內臟也散落一地113Please respect copyright.PENANAd87kuQnLIH
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道113Please respect copyright.PENANAsR1FGdnv7p
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉113Please respect copyright.PENANAvGNbUF5C3K
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣113Please respect copyright.PENANANCBRtlNY1i
我仍穿著高中制服113Please respect copyright.PENANAHFwp5PSn0q
但步伐變得輕盈113Please respect copyright.PENANA89XOTm9rIE
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界113Please respect copyright.PENANAnYtrqH788Y
走在草原上與一群人相遇113Please respect copyright.PENANAfBuYZMogfn
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人113Please respect copyright.PENANAkauxGiqPi8
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外113Please respect copyright.PENANAZObfznweWq
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫113Please respect copyright.PENANAg60TpBGYlT
嘈雜。113Please respect copyright.PENANAJTJh2PoKKp
好討厭阿,好吵阿113Please respect copyright.PENANAQphKcn6Tjn
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」113Please respect copyright.PENANA82tNCTXtFz
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道113Please respect copyright.PENANAPD6JXiK9xv
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙113Please respect copyright.PENANAEodzgqYBGw
一名少女獨自站著?113Please respect copyright.PENANAHbfqTGtz1n
靜謐。113Please respect copyright.PENANAUG8IdCmpEV
不再有人發問113Please respect copyright.PENANADdi8BEzVLz
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀113Please respect copyright.PENANAIfSOqP016D
看見自己的笑容113Please respect copyright.PENANAbg88ntLcIS
看見了人類的頭顱113Please respect copyright.PENANAeyUpcLc4O5
看見了113Please respect copyright.PENANAahrOpqXnNI
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般113Please respect copyright.PENANA7wkb6lhbnm
奇怪的夢境113Please respect copyright.PENANAdon0Z7xsJl
我果然是瘋了吧113Please respect copyright.PENANAHL5rEfxkRC
但我再怎麼瘋狂113Please respect copyright.PENANAGIuIeXBJ0d
應該也不會去殺人113Please respect copyright.PENANA4sRaVqRWVh
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有113Please respect copyright.PENANA9vzRL52Xwt
夢中的我在笑113Please respect copyright.PENANAD5G1REzvpM
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道113Please respect copyright.PENANAsIdMdtmETR
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著113Please respect copyright.PENANAZhqLMEKJND
「2月2日」113Please respect copyright.PENANAjaKT4lx6Ec