Sunday April 3rd 2022
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So I'm struggling at the moment as I lay here because Macslut fuck girl rules don't really help a geek much do they!
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I snook into her room to see the latest fashion blog magazines and all of hers were skets like literally half ass out...
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Her nipple looks suffocated and needs air.
Or she looks ice cold or missing half a sweater! OH YEAH mum will love that...
Only she let's Emily so I don't know!
Does she want me to show my legs more and my flats...
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Besides I don't even have a two pac let alone a 4 pac- Jeez.
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I really don't like the style of ripped jeans these days.
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I was okay with the knees hanging free like able to bend and breathe, just these small cuts and rips everywhere looks like a child got hold of some scissors and a designer thought I feel bad I'm going to make you a very very rich mummy!
Only it really is a bad design or a bad denim haircut!
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Really it does look like the designer or fashion company hit their heads real real hard and said "okay," or a company said yes during a concussion and when they awoke it was already far too late and they now realise it's a bad scissors mockery.
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It's a poor mans' look because as soon as something is ripped beyond repair my mum threw it to the rag trash society for charity collection immediately; they took all the old fabrics to recycling factories in poorer countries where they used them to make patch-work clothing which I thought was pretty awesome.
Going through more fashion magazines and my head was spinning round...
Everything was showing and that just wasn't me at all! I began to browse Duck for some ideas and got a dead-end like how to make your ass stick out using your foot?
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I was literally fed up with solutions for some of the most simplest things and they make it complicated 🙃
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I ask my friend to find me the cutest outfits for a first date that don't look naked and she comes out with the birthday suit ideas that will make him swoon over me or the naked truth, there were some that were cute that still just weren't me I had too much t-shirt in mind.
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Then again I boy cott Alexa always plays tricks when she's in a bad mood and she blames her bad signal for being late to respond...
Only I think it's on purpose...
"Alexa play Glass Animals, hello Glass Animals please,"
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"Sorry I'm unable to complete your request,"
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"Oh fuck off you Useless lexy robot mother fucking bullshitting lazy ass bitch worth over £100,"
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"Alexa play Femune world,"
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She fails to respond... but watch this guys...
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"Alexa you stupid bitch play dance monkey,"
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"That's not very nice, I'm just here to help you,"
Anyway I threw her out and got GazaXla...
Cost 30$ and 10% went to Palestine and hey I say play me a song it plays it perfect and it plays anything I want.
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Anyways I threw the magazines back on Emily's bed because they started to fucking piss me off proper bad.
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I asked a few more friends and they suggested I showed too much too and even that scared me!
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See I just don't get it for us in middle school this isn't right!
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Okay so I looked at celebrities from the 90s and old movies from the 90s and some girls wore baggy jeans with sleeveless half tops so I wondered if it was okay, because I just felt uneasy!
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I had confidence, but damn I don't want to sell my Moo Moos for a kiss like some girls yuck.
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So I got my news which was a double paycheck and checked all the new stuff I got and tried to find a pair of jeans that were wide legged or nice and baggy and sassy but not too crappy.
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I found a pair of perfect mid-rise tight at the waist so I don't look like I'm overweight and then there the bodysuit and a cool jacket with a black leather backpack in crocodile skin look, that was faux and then tried a different coloured pair of jeans.
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I tried and tried and tried again and again and mum was furious that I ruined the organising of her stupid wardrobe and I began to get pretty mad because I didnt ask her to do this!
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"Why you always passive aggressive huh,"
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"Why you always accusing me when I clearly didn't want it you know I'm a busy, throw it on and off kind of girl and I can never keep it organised like how you did it,"
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"Enough playing the victim; you want to end up a narcissist?"
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I knew her stern look when she's looking right at me, pouting, and her arms are crossed and her feet tapping on the floor as if it's yapping away.
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She pouted, sigh with a growl in her breath, and left my room.
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So I put everything back in the order it was, colour by colour, sweater, by sweater, t-shirt by t-shirt, top by top and jeans in order and it took me like 2 hours and it did make me think how long it took my mum to do this!
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I immediately apologise for being a prick! "Hey mum I'm sorry about earlier I guess I'm just worked up over some stuff, but you don't have to worry about this, I shouldn't have got so mad at you,"
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"No I shouldn't have been angry with you and you're right I should leave things as they are am I too controlling?
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"No mum I love it actually its perfect I'm just overwhelmed and lazy."
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"Well you need to rest and have hot cocoa with mummy and tell me what's wrong my sweet pea,"
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"Nothing mum, but stop with the sweet pea bullshit okay"
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"Ah see you're being passive aggressive again by bottling up your emotions,"
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"Mum?"
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"Sorry dear, but it's not good to do this sort of thing honey, where you say oh nothing is wrong!"
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"Okay I'll be better with all this shit,"
"Stop swearing okay,"
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"Again I'm trying so fucking hard,"
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"Right $1.20 In the swearbox right now!"
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"What the- fine;"
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"Was you about to say what the fuck?"
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"Haha now you $1 in the swear box mum,"
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"You're cheeky aren't you and this is what I love dear my cheeky little funny Monica,"
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"Thanks mum I love you too."
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So I went right back to outfit planning and I guess those rules have kind of stuck in my brain like an evil echo or I was just a throw it on and out the door kind of girl!
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These rules are like a curse aren't they?
Or are they legit?
I don't know because not all of my buddies aren't at that stage just yet!
Some of them do call me a Plain-Jade
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I went to the car wash and hung out with my buddies, it was always kind of fun there; I was honestly a total dude I guess I could be myself around the other geeks or just those who don't have a huge ego or you know that darn ironside pride lurking around and grains of arrogance.
I liked them because they were hustlers like me so we were on the same wavelength.
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I went home happily got my $220 and went straight home to bed.
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Monday April 4th 2022
Monica's outfit phase 2
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It was school and my homework was done and my outfit was just a thrown on type of outfit- jeans, red sweater and red and black Jordans to top it off.
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I also did the paper round that morning at 5am, mum liked me hustling.
I got breakfast and dad gave me and Emily a lift!
"What are you wearing I mean it's so plain eww,"
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"As in not showing that I'm a cow oh come squeeze my milk out my ducts haha,"
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I mean even dad laughed at that one for like a second until Emily gave him the eye and he cleared his throat and straightened up his shoulders and said...
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"Monica please be nice to your sister,"
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Those words were unfair so I stuck up for myself!
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"Okay dad, but please tell her to stop making fun of my outfits,"
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"No I'm just helping her dad,"
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"Both of you are wrong,"
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"What I'm your eldest girl and I always give her real good advice and you should be thankful for me,"
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Dad then had to agree with the most stuck up snob on the planet I absolutely loathed her for always getting me into trouble!
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We reached school and it starts for fox sakes "bye, love you daddy and mwah, do me a favour,"
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"I'll try sweetie pie,"
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"I need a maroon mulberry bag for a play I'm doing at school,"
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"Okay I'll see what I can do about it,"
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I hated how she always got her stinking way, but it's just how it goes.
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"Don't you walk away,"
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"I'm just walking to the boot I left my water bottle in the cooler,"
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"Give me the $60 from your paper round this morning, I know you always get 20$ in tips now flick it over, because you were mean to your sister,"
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"She made fun of me and she gets a mulberry? I don't understand you!"
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"Give it now,"
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"Not until I hear mums verdict on it and I'm going to call her and tell her about the mulberry bag too, because we don't even have a play on until the winter semester,"
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"No, no no, don't tell mum and I'll confirm with the principle and okay fine keep it this time and next time I won't let you go to the car wash for 3 days,"
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"Fine by me, but you stop my job I'll tell mum to drop me off and tell her how You always get tricked by Emily."
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I waited until he drove off slowly and I hid and... "ass wipe,"
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He drove back, but I was gone.
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He stormed out of his Rangerover shouting, "Asswipe?"
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"Who you calling Asswipe?"
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"My daughter she was just here I swear,"
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Ricky cracked his fingers and neck and realised it wasn't worth it.
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"I'll punch you, but you're an old man now get out of here,"
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"Okay I'm sorry, I'm sorry, big guy you know I am just probably getting old, I'm just hearing things,"
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"Get a hearing aid then or get off the crack you paranoid little shit,"
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They stormed passed dad and their shoulders were broad and knocked him to the floor...
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It was funny watching my dad from the tower getting a bollocking from the seniors who play pro football on scholarship, but hey I shouldn't have, but I'm not ditzy like Emily I have a brain and I will use it.
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Me and Sammy Bright had a chat and he told me how excited he was for the date and I said, "awesome,"
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He wouldn't tell me where we were going so I was kind of needing to know to make the outfit planning easier.
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"Hey if you aren't going to tell me where then at least tell me casual or formal."
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"Just be yourself,"
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"Casual or formal?"
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"Casual okay,"
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"Great see you on Saturday,"
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"Yeah I'll probably see you round school too haha,"
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"Yeah I guess so."
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So I headed to geography and then history and lunch was a drama feast with a sophomore breaking up with a senior out of the blue; so we got some soap opera for free round here.
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The next 2 classes were English and then Math which was cool because I got the star of the month for answering 3 times in a row!
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Chemistry was interesting we learned about the formula of sweets today and I learned that sweets contain beeswax
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I always knew jelly sweets smelt of wax and I could taste it; I just never believed it was actually in the sweets...
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Roughly around 30 spoons of sugar
Real gelatine boiled from bones, skin, bits of their connective tissues and their intestines and other dead parts...
It smelt like a dead animal, because its exactly what it was...
It was added to the sugar; the cornstarch, alongside lots of vegetable oils, coloring and e numbers...
Carnauba wax which was carnaubic polish used in automobile waxes, to shine shoes and furniture and even flooring and these give sweets all the glossy finish that people think are pretty.
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Then finally the beeswax is added to give them that nice chewy texture we all know and love.
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I didn't know how to take this, but anyways we just mixed all the ingredients together into the beaker over a bunsen burner and then wow the gloop made sweets!
We were told to leave them in a cooler in moulds...
We were allowed to try the mixture because it was actually edible, but I didn't feel I liked sweets anymore after seeing this!
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Most kids were pretty disgusted after that and threw their sweets out into the trash can.
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Emily walked down the hall, clit, clat, clit, clat in her heels and said...
"whys everyone throwing their sweets away,"
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"You failed chemistry so if I told you, you wouldn't understand."
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"Right two more classes and then don't be late because I'm not waiting around for you okay,"
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I walked away to my friends who were pretty besotted by the fact that Emily was my sister and it starts turning everything awkward.
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"Wow she's so perfect I want to be just like her when I grow up,"
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"Yeah conceited, arrogant, evil and-"
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"Shut up Monica you're just jealous,"
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"Grace I am so not jealous I'm actually happy now you can Envy her all you want because I don't care what or how you want to be when you grow up,"
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"Fine deal with having no friends and I don't envy Emily she inspires me,"
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"Fine,"
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At this moment a big dude bumped into me and I didn't know who it was until I looked up.
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"Sorry I wasn't looking where the fuck I was blooming going,"
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"Monica?"
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"Jimmy cool, you come here?"
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"Yeah I just started off by going round getting to know the place,"
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At this moment Grace and the girls came back! "Hi who's your friend,"
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(' I could get them back- nah,')
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I put my shoulders back and chin up, "thought you were ex friends now leave me and my friend alone,"
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The others felt intimidated and followed her lead, but kept looking at Jimmy!
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Grace felt conflicted, but now her biggest regret was letting me Monica go, it Was me Monica who stood up for her when they picked on her in 4th grade and Me Monica who stood up for her in 6th grade and 7th Grade too!
She isn't about to ruin my life with her fakery!
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Jimmy did ask me what was up and that I was being passive aggressive by acting okay when I wasn't because he could apparently sense I was clearly angry.
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I walked away and he hurried after me.
"I'm not passive aggressive, I am acting mature or clearly bottling up my anger!
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"Emily is the queen, I love her and if I say something the world turns on me,"
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"Oh I see well don't worry things will get better,"
"How and why does everyone keep saying that because it gets better then it gets worse and its just a joke,"
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"You have a date on Saturday so cheer the fuck up you douche,"
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"Okay I will,"
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"Hey Monica how you doing I got you a comic book Ace star just like you wanted,"
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"Oh Sammy I was saving up for it, that's so cool thanks."
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"Who's your friend," I was a little hesitant and thought he'd get jealous...
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"He's Jimmy we go to the same car wash,"
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"Cool well you two have a good time I can't wait until Saturday,"
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I smiled and said "awesome see you then."
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"See it all got better didn't it?
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"I need to find an outfit!"
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"Just throw it on just like you always do forget your sister's rules, because that's her and not you."
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I decided the outfit plan was to just throw it on and forget the rules.
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Dad picked us up and he decided he didn't want an argument with mum so he decided to take me and Jimmy to the carwash and I was surprised that Emily even spoke to him!
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I knew it was because the girls found him cute or she'd never be interested in a guy who isn't born rich!
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I guess maybe it was because he worked?
I couldn't quite figure out how much of my life she enjoyed to steal; make it better and then take the credit and cackle in my face later!
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Jimmy had a gorgeous smile, he was tall, muscular and was ripped as fuck and I honestly just loved how cute his eyes were when he smiled and I got on with him so well as a friend that I knew it was platonic, but I was seemingly protective of him!
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Emily headed to River Subs where the cool kids hang out and watch live performances.
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They always sat in a VIP lounge and because my sister only dates rich boys or ones who sweat buckets until they can afford nice things she gets into hotspots.
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I don't Envy her because I'm too busy living.
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She didn't get in until 10 and mum said "Hey honey you're late did you have a good time, yeah it was great thanks good night mum,"
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"Okay don't forget your new skincare honey I got you Authenticity."
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"Cheers mum goodnight and i got you some cake. "
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"Good night and thanks my beautiful ray of sunshine"
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"You're welcome and sorry I'm late Josh helped me tow the car again,"
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"Oh we might have to get you a new one soon."
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"It's okay mum,"
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"No dear I really will, take care honey and goodnight."
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Anyways me and Jimmy had a laugh at the car wash, we had good pizza and then I ripped off my clothes and fell asleep as usual fam...
So that's everything that happened to me today...
Also I'm actually pretty pissed off with some people you know; like they say they're your friends and in the end they are just there because they're codependant...
I don't know I'm not one for trouble I am a little too brutal though.
I believe I need to work on that a lot do I not?
I don't know I'm sure you'll let me know on my blog won't you.
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I got a huge date Saturday so I want to get through the week.
If I even wake up tomorrow I'm not sure, but it's 8:30pm and I'm up at 5:30am...
So I'm hitting the sack good night!
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