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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaSFhOVI1E
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4L1WdiK3N
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNtga7Im1x
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKZqMMZSWm
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BscKK9OQX
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvIJKjvtTF
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvCM2wwLlA
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lWvf6lt69
One day, I will be killed by myself
179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeXMM5Ep0jThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNtga7Im1x
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKZqMMZSWm
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BscKK9OQX
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvIJKjvtTF
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvCM2wwLlA
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lWvf6lt69
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwwt85B1nZ
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpSuIknopw
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfKmuzZXIS
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleQOWpDr0h
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fO6fTJTpy
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3NGo3OZ5k
However, if I really wanted to179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU66hAfdQEH
I can answer those ramblings179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8efBvCJkJV
As easy as conducting an experiment179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1svQaK5EbS
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdDzOnK6uA
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1sGWLsSBH
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdiLYceyIGjForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpSuIknopw
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfKmuzZXIS
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleQOWpDr0h
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fO6fTJTpy
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3NGo3OZ5k
However, if I really wanted to179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU66hAfdQEH
I can answer those ramblings179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8efBvCJkJV
As easy as conducting an experiment179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1svQaK5EbS
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdDzOnK6uA
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1sGWLsSBH
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgxugsTiTl
"This is all my fault"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bBRPbqMCe
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYivt14W34
I have already gone crazy and mad179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThUUCuvwDM
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOQRngnxPG
"It is alright"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCECLi1vuj
And it became alright for me179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYRIZIyppr
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzloWzwQQeN
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2g6fFoSf1
Though, does it matter anymore ?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBOhhy1HLh
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4SAwzg3af
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOotT5FUSJ
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Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcyV42DmTd
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYbYqf5i7V
I have already lost it all
179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGo8N8jmMMy"This is all my fault"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bBRPbqMCe
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYivt14W34
I have already gone crazy and mad179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThUUCuvwDM
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOQRngnxPG
"It is alright"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCECLi1vuj
And it became alright for me179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYRIZIyppr
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzloWzwQQeN
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2g6fFoSf1
Though, does it matter anymore ?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBOhhy1HLh
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4SAwzg3af
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOotT5FUSJ
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Am I the weird one here? 179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSBgobUtQU
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Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYbYqf5i7V
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPSONB50T4
Days without worry and doubts179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgnDYYUEKr
Times that are as pure as crystal clear179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSnwlh5tMH
I was happy before179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AXej1lu21
And on that day, when the light went off179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNwii0pS0W
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSrD7gCZfN
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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There was someone who love me179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg87qn0fcLV
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3P3IY1UJT
