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April 2020
"Roses are red, violets are blue, I smile all day, because of you!" The young Kaduk enthusiastically said, But.. what response did he get? clearly, nothing! The young man desperately looked at his phone's screen and let a sigh out.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzNBMnHzU8
"Lord, for how long does she want to ignore me? For how long should my soul be tortured? Isn't three years of suffering enough? What have I done to deserve this all?"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpx0s7zqTqe
He knew what he had done. In the depth of his heart, he knew that he was not the innocent man everyone thought him to be.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7YC0AxXlu
Feeling desperate and miserable, Kaduk did reach for his drawer, grabbed a pen, and started to write:209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0lDCTmxgJ
Alas... the man's tears can't be released from his chest209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7b6trADhuz
Alas... his fruits never riped even tho he did his best209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ooVvNRMUO
Alas.... he never gave up on his thoughts209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhe4mwxJa9y
Alas.... cause he gave it in and fought209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetUQG04W8B
Alas... sorrows of the young man were never heard209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgKttFvgVg
Alas.... he messed it all up and no one even cared209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7XswilyKC
Alas... he climbed the rock all up to his fate209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5XbbtTgNK
Alas... & never knew he has no man but his mate209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6exNb6LrMW
Alas... poor man was surrounded by emotion209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsapbh3FPCW
Alas... he was yet waiting for a motion209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2z8rHsK7ea
Alas... all he had was just his hope209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8vKHqbCVn
Alas... & what he got was a nope...209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhtobbmofx
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"To send or not to send? That was the question!" He started struggling with himself, sending this poem to his beloved one could make everything even worse but... what did he have to lose anyway?209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGRYzOtVbR
Who would ever imagine Kaduk, this humble but furious captain of FC Arman, a man who never cared about relationships, a pure virgin, falling in love like that?209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nHUfVaJc6
Ever since he met Karnastiya, he faced a revolution in his heart and mind. He was not the man he used to be.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgKDQVnM7z
For his heart and mind were stolen by one gorgeous, sweet, smart, and also an arrogant girl who was indeed far-fetching to impress.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrggi6ARlF
Hours, days, and months passed by but there was no sign of success ahead.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNR3MaUwWMV
His heart eagerly wanted him to keep going and not give up on impressing Karnastiya while his brain advised the opposite. But what was the best decision he could make?209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KoO9odFB4
Thus, continued the deadly combat between heart and logic...209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpEwobY6R1
With his tears dripping, Once again, he reached for his phone but on second thought, he put it back on the desk.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaJmtUlrft
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Chapter II: When it all began209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJsIG2pBo3
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November 2017
That was a mood-boosting rainy evening. The air was getting cold and winter was becoming easier to behold.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllaSV0e5p8
Business as usual, Kaduk was drinking a latte, surfing the net in the meanwhile.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppc5BbmEXI
"Ah, someone has visited my profile, let's see who it is...209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpQwya1ijK
Well, Her name is Karnastyia from Ukraine, hm, and she studies Persian literature. That's very interesting indeed!"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6A71crXdQQ
Possessing similar interests in history, literature, and video games, he decided to send her a message. This warm-hearted man was always eager to help those who wanted to learn the Persian language.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuSIeqh5tS
"Good Evening Karnastiya, Thanks for visiting my profile. My name is Kaduk, just like you, I study literature, and of course, I'm in love with history! I will be truly glad if you grant me the honor to get to know more about you. Besides, don't hesitate to ask me if you might ever need help with your Persian studies :)"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNifWuPWGp0
His high school studies were slowly coming to an end. However, Kaduk never wanted this to happen! He would definitely miss his classmates, teachers, and even Mr. Kazaki, the angry old man who was in charge of managing the school.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFM7VxpPon
Life was indeed peaceful and, beautiful. But we never know what expects us the next day. One day, when we don't expect it at all, the parrot of love sits in our hearts, building a nest.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPL7wJc3eE
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February 2018209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFEkLRTai1
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Having a wide smile on his face, he quickly reached for his phone and started writing an email to his old friend.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnKWv4t6r9
"Dear Sandra, can you imagine? I mean, just, I don't know how to describe this godly creature. It's been a few months since I met a young lady whose name is Karnastiya. She is from Ukraine, just like you! I feel like I can never live a single day in her absence. With that much joy, she's brought to my life. We even play games together and guess what? She says that she wants to visit Tehran in the upcoming summer! She's someone I can talk to about anything that pops up in my mind.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXi9wS8pBF
When she speaks, I can't stop smiling or sometimes I even laugh. One might think I'm crazy or something but let it be, isn't it how falling in love is?209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9hv1KVmGt
It's truly one of the most joyful feelings that have ever existed in the history of humankind.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1HMv6rkzo
I'll write to you again soon. Please take good care of yourself!"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzUGA1sQ9L
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June 2018209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7pT83AyWU
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"She has just revealed that she's interested in someone, ah, it was like an arrow in my chest, a fiery arrow that ruthlessly burns the man's heart. To be honest, I can't breathe... just don't know what to do. I can't give up on her. Even if she has given her heart to somebody else! Yes, I will wait, but I won't tell her anything.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vWmvGsJYt
I know it might all be immoral, but how can I stop loving her? you know, dear Sandra, it's the first time ever that I feel like this, the first time that I am truly in love. I know it might sound stupid, but I will wait for as long as I need to. Who knows, perhaps, one day she'll realize that nobody loves her as much as I do!"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzW5fbT9biU
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December 2018209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCk7iNKTW0y
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"Sandra, It's been already two weeks since I had a conversation with her and she has been offline since then. We were discussing a new movie and she suddenly disappeared. I'm nervous and stressed out.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwrMrDUQgc
I remember some disputes had erupted in their relationship but I don't think it was that serious and I hope not! I just hope she's alright because I never want to see her sad. Even if it means that I'll have to keep her love in my chest and seal my lips forever!"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiP2cWYn3eg
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Chapter III: The Year of Desolation209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3Q30qRhn8
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July 2019209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CWYzePpc3
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"Doroha Sandra, it's been months since she went into the dark. I'm really nervous. What has happened to her? May the Lord himself protect her.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmY5SkNgmqF
I just can't stop thinking about her. You might not believe but I even see her in my dreams in which, she's often silent. Once, she was sitting among sunflowers, looking at me with a smile on her sweet lips, however, she did not say a single word.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdcNUBgykq
The other time, we were somewhere near an abandoned workshop. I asked if I can hug her but she wanted me to enter the workshop and kill five cockroaches first. I know it might sound ridiculous but well, it is what is it. I managed to kill four cockroaches and damn, I woke up and failed to hug her. That was such a deep sense of frustration! Why can't we live in our dreams?"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RobJUKyRk
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October 2019209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiTxA1h8Sx
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"She's back! I can't believe this, Sandra, but the wait is finally over! what's more joyful than seeing your beloved one again? after nearly a year? My friend, I can't describe my excitement. It's truly a heavenly joy, given by God himself to enlighten my soul.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuYFbZcDg9
She said that she broke up with her boyfriend some months ago. Well, that was to be expected as I could see how nervous and upset she was back in late 2018.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gbGZRysxS
I even told her about my feelings, yes! I know it was kinda stupid to immediately jump on this topic but I couldn't hide my excitement and love anymore.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPP0FKT8dbv
However, I didn't get the answer I was hoping for. Alas, there's someone in her life.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4QjDD4wGt
I do feel like a concrete wall has collapsed on me..."209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgID7rSLXv
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November 2019209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG53jwoTDq7
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"What happens that one loses interest in one else? How those of the people who would hang out and chat every day and night, suddenly start to communicate less and less. It's been always one of my questions. As a random dude says: There are several continents and billions of humans but you lose your heart to exactly the one who doesn't have the same feelings for you.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwjiYVLbCC
The philosophy of life is indeed something complicated and uneasy to understand for us ordinary people.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvTm9aNlL3
Yes, as you might have already guessed, it's been a while since I haven't had a chance to talk to her. In fact, I often find her online but I don't get any responses. However, I do know that I'm guilty of all this. Perhaps, I had a chance to impress her but lost it due to being too careless in expressing my ideas, thoughts, and feelings.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZndcpP6H9
It's surely understandable that I have pushed her away from myself. When I take a deeper look at it, I realize that she might have no reason to feel something for me and as I said, it's logical.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RMgXDtp51
You can never impress someone if you fail to present yourself in a proper way.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oKDxuRBqQ
I don't think I would love myself if I were in her shoes, definitely not!"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaUVWXsVPS
That being said, the young man decided to fade away, having no hope of winning Karnastiya's heart, Kaduk went into the dark for a while, trying to make the wrong things right in his life and make a much better version of himself. So that, who knows, perhaps he would have a chance to strike back!209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqd6AxxhhK
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Chapter IV: The Matter of Life and Death209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvXJDFRMa4
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"Dear Sandra, you must forgive me for not contacting you for more than a year. I understand that you might be really angry at me but to tell you the truth, I needed to stay away from social media. I really needed to have some peace of mind!209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmusetKVeDC
Thanks to the Lord, I've made some good progress in my life. Now I'm a teacher and I have my own car! I call him "Busphalas". It's a glorious name, is it not?209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSizoNkrJ9
Aside from that, I have started to play soccer again. Our team continues to smash all the opponents. How joyful it is!209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsSbbsXKzq
It was not easy to stop thinking about Karnastiya. She would constantly appear in my night dreams but I did it! I try not to think about her anymore. Though, I must confess that in the depth of my heart, something still loves her...209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAETysr3CR
I shall contact you soon, please take care!"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4GqWPBT3L
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January 2022209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLNJHcjNo4
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"I could not bear this anymore. It's been more than a year already. Well, I know it was a stupid move but I called her. Hearing her sweet voice was such a heartwarming blessing. My eyes were wet and butterflies were flying in my heart. But I knew that she will slip away again so I wasn't surprised when she disappeared after a couple of days.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqys55H5oOw
Perhaps it was my fault again. Perhaps I was not able to keep her interested in conversing with me..."209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRQxfChyGl
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March 2022209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWhpzcSr16
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"Who would ever imagine such a full-scale invasion happening in the twenty-first century?209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6U54VRIT3G
Well, we all know what's happening in Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, and many other parts of the world but a full-scale invasion? that's a new drama in this century.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8LkPr0FYm
Please take good care of yourself, Sandra. You know how precious you are to me. Keep me updated on your well-being!209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9z6NUAwIJ
I had a phone call with Karnastiya. Thanks to the Lord, she's alright. I had never been as nervous as I currently am in my entire life. What if something bad happens to her?209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8YmdSKy3p
It's not easy to have phone calls with her but I shall keep trying.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOShxPNKH4
Stay safe, Sandra!"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOTW9f3Ukc
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April 2022209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HCYbH8HY9
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"My dear friend, the time has come and I have made my decision! I have applied to join the volunteer division so I shall meet you soon in Kyiv Oblast.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIcULWkUJ9
I am having the hardest times of my life. How can I put everything I have, my family, and my loved ones behind and move to the other side of the world, putting my life at risk?209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvvwQ3r79W
But something in the depth of my heart is telling me that everything will be alright and I will survive! Yes, I have absolute faith in this!209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dVuyrwqwk
Besides, I do have to protect her, how can I leave her alone? She needs me more than ever. She might not even care about my existence but I do, I do care about her!"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnO12gfJPsi
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Chapter V: The End of an Era209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5sHmHVlrS
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May 2022
"I was hoping to be assigned as one of the defenders of Kyiv so that I could protect her but... I was wrong! We were dispatched to reinforce Mariupol instead and things are just horrible here.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2sGlVnsOm
There are wounded soldiers and civilians everywhere. Meanwhile, we are low on medical and food supplies...209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMH4Kbf6sJ
I hope God will show us mercy because the Russian artillery is bombarding the city nonstop. There's no way out and now the city is fully under siege.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk86rIyb2xk
I shall confess that I'm scared... But Sandra, what's nicer than dying for your beloved girl?209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUT80AT7pG
Last night I started to write some verses but I failed to finish them, I felt desperate...209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9A2co4wDuI
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Nastiya... you, who walk in the ruins of the fallen land, arise!209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvx5dTqtYvH
Nastiya... your green eyes are what, day and night, are seen in the skies!209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbo6HRiZSwg
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I am afraid without serious action, there will be even darker days ahead of us.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eAYrlB6zm
People have high hopes here, there's still some hope to break the siege and find a way out so we must not give up just yet. Nobody wants to surrender here, absolutely nobody!209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOG3BCKttKb
I tell you, my friend, these people are so brave!209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMSdFxGYcu
In less than an hour, comrades and I will attempt to break the siege and find some supplies.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntRUpVhdGI
I promised Commander Radzinsky to not disappoint him. We need medicine or we will lose some of our best comrades.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCjlf2cJH0
Yes, I am scared but I got no choice, I have to give it my all!209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqAs11oNQq
You may not hear from me again because nobody knows if we will make it or not, but please tell her why I did this.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXxj5dzLmu
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Kaduk"209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmP1HVOhIdS
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And for months, what happened to this passionate lover, Kaduk, remained a mystery.209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDeAKFIN9t
Until on a windy afternoon, a one-handed man, carrying his rifle was seen, wandering in an abandoned village near Bila Tserkava...209Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NhsHxh5OC
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