第五十九．五章769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD8IgaywMO
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「何鵬侑，其實你對我仲有無感覺？」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2RXDUOCaI
我終於都決定要問一次，這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPSJkj7byK
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalgyYjQuB3
我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了，他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgPrLCJCOo
雖然心裡是這樣想著，但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站，再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVMRM9nMx7
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcqr5wWVFp
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8TjX1zugU
但當我問完後，只見Alvin思考了一會。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MYTXOhpXe
拜託，你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrCOwLgEKE
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuacmd0E8B
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJWHBcBgXm
「你要我老實答嘅話，喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後，就看著我說。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4Coo4Tyuf
聽到他這一個答案，我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72M3EgyR5K
他這個答案，完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoNtIvUoyA
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozEv9xT9IS
我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQXSQmdfrz
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下，並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係，重新再來一次。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn39M4Hu31f
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCCDYCcqs5
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KEGV9WFbO
單單就是這一句，就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中，然後跟他說，其實我都一樣還沒有放下……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MZR1C125I
雖然感性上，我真的想與他再一起。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYptxOmDKG
但理性上告訴了我，一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gxmG7MXyg
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxa8JqmMcB
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫，是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMNgaSpOyz
我或許已經沒有資格，在他的心裡再佔上一格。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3vcXMXyM4
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fyxdAnhaZ
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTOHfJ9h3E
但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHfXM01oMT
然而，我都一定要假裝冷靜，不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEKgd2iSaP
於是我便深呼吸了一下，然後說：「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tWBN0UtND
我說著的時候，心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrNOLeacFG
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyPMXtD4od
「原先都無乜架啦，但同你相遇翻之後，個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZ4B2m0j81
他回答著我。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡay44UBi1ya
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PxOwF8Asg
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvwyvAHUQS
雖然心裡很難受，但我自己弄出來的問題，就必須由我自己來解決。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4YLy6tXwi
「問題就喺呢到啦！」我立即回應他。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7TgnRUNfp
而他都很快就看著我問：「問題？」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasSNY5qHE4
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Nx5K9yh4D
「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友，所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年，但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVoHZpoU1u
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後，就立即轉身背向著他。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpogXAiaiNV
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSd4tZkPgo
每當我說一句與心相反的說話，我就變得更難受了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxseEQw8OCj
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxz93W53ib8
「你咁樣講，好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCh29zJOiD
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgUbOWgAxk
雖然，心真的很痛，但既然已經決定了，我就必須繼續演下去。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWb1ccaqlp
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡud8BsFDF5s
「我……放低咗架啦！」我說道。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqKG3SkGfU
但這時候，淚水都終於壓抑不住，從雙眼開始流下來。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rkiScwKWo
對不起……我撒謊了，但這都是為了你好。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNjHeCYCTa
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0C4trS3PZ
「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UWyCcyBRK
拜託不要再說這些說話了……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJXcEYNyF7
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxwlJ9KJOe
此刻，聽完他的說話後，我的心真很痛，很痛，很痛。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjfASsETb2
但是我還得繼續演下去……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6SELkNECW
於是我強忍著眼淚，並轉身看著他。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SxXtJUKPM
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjv85qxzuOK
幸好，這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsEv3dB1WW
這麼暗的環境，他應該是看不到我的表情的……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObkhM7Ba6q
於是我便立即向他說道：「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPkBlbyijL
句子之間完全沒有停頓，因為一停頓下來，我就會又想哭了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzN1N3DgQ0S
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TYnExkcm0
「身份嘅問題？」他問道我。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAq7ZmEjW3n
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友，所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂，然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你！」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1DXaaKfvz
我看似很有道理地說著。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QReL62Qa9
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTgmrXboJs
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaNfjNpZmB
接著，Alvin竟然沒有回應我。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWOSGc4QHl
於是我都只好繼續說：「不如我哋重新嚟過，唔喺曾經嘅戀人，唔喺前男女朋友，而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwioacE723z
本來這一句說話，是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後，就接著說的。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLy848Wf2k
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRKTS9KD7m
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPAuwmcqxX
雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuELOzZO1F2
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodHVGv7DML
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTu7ytdC9fI
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQq0RdXxN2b
「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友，好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAxxCQAPez
「咁唔好咩？你又可以放低我，而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE87SlpjkK
這對現在的我們來說，應該是最好的解決方法了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMHETriL5o
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkYqiU9wXZ
接著Alvin都沉默了一會，看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaInnS8L9b1
而很快，他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說：「好啦，我哋做翻朋友啦咁！由今日起，我哋就只喺朋友。」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mC0MxYndu
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4qlksKdSD
當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時，我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係，在這一瞬間……完結了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghIrBaTlRw
雖然這本來就是我的目的，但為何當我聽到他所說後，我反而更難過……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OnIXbFoIK
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoXuw0QSDs
我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnpGhKOQS4
但現在與他這麼近的距離，他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAiHak0BDa
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmuY1jjG9n
因此，我只好立即轉身，並強忍著淚水說：「好啦……時間唔早啦，你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦，我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦！」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyntlErEEj
接著，我就背向著他揮手，並往前面的方向跑去。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RvdMhG7gm
我必須離開他，因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTG8GSWQpXO
再這樣下去，我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWyAyUCXof
我不想他後悔。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrYvd2RnPe
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eYVLtwCfV
我跑著的時候，並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL51dj12qSK
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出，而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYjtNeZMlR
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOjYAHBsML
接著，當我成功回到家，打開了門進到屋內，並閉上門的一剎那……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqXoFKgnsv
我直接跪在地上，大聲地哭起來……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLCXTgU7aB
對上一次，我會這樣大聲哭出來，應該是與Alvin提出分手後……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzd8MtrEky1
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ECWXfA6lu
「好痛，好痛，好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7I4QOQhZ4
這一刻，並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2yVKtzFlE
而我都只能一直痛哭著，直到淚水流乾涸為止……769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwxBWRhlDK
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLaHoQXpGx
對不起，何鵬侑，是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6x6BKKdECE
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥，將不再存在。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUlCYSgkBK
而接下來的蔡霜玥，都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGPPaCVcCD
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